Experience description:
I have had
numerous, but they almost always start the same. Your back opposite of your
solar plexus locks up, and then it runs down your legs where you cannot move,
followed by up your shoulders and then down your hands where you cannot bend
them. Next, it runs up your head and squeezes your ears to a high-pitched
shrill, followed by the squeezing out of light in your eyes. Once your eyesight
goes, it is a very quick point to the release from your body.
I traveled
up an upside down inverted hurricane tunnel that spun counter-clockwise that was
filled with the brightest of bright neon colors from the brightest sunsets from
clouds that were also wrapped in the bright of fire flames that did not burn.
As I traveled up, the white light and aqua/royal blue colors increased. You
could see your body prism/shadow, although you really had no body to speak of.
You just thought it was there but it was not kind of like an amputee having to
scratch their stub for an itch on their "foot." Once I got to the top of the
hurricane, I was in the inside of a globe-like room that also spun
counter-clockwise with 12-portals or "windows" that also let in light. Not that
I am a Bible person, but I think those were the twelve gates. My life pictures
flashed through the holes of the globe and also going up in the inverted
hurricane that got smaller in width as I traveled upward.
The life
pictures were divided into three categories with 18 good life experiences with
respect to people and your life, 18 bad deed pictures that you regret, and 18
nature pictures of your favorite beaches, travels, sunsets, etcetera. My good
pictures outweighed my bad pictures, probably because I had an NDE at such a
young age and kind of knew the rules to that "game."
The globe
or "judgment room" had walls that spun fast and seemed to be made out of water
from the brightest colors of water from the best coral reefs on earth but far
brighter. Up above or the ceiling, there was a golden triangle from which the
brightest of lights came from, and there were these star beings that fly or swam
in the densest of lights. As they collided, they made this reverberating love
feeling like the ripple effect when someone throws a stone into water but this
was love not water. It sprinkled down onto you and is the single greatest type
of love that I have ever experienced. The remaining portion of the ceiling was
created by the bright fire and cloud bank but did not burn and actually went
sideways from the triangle to the "water walls." All the while, your life
pictures are flashing brilliantly through the light.
It ends very
abruptly and brutally with a very deep and painful fall back into your
over-charged body. They seem to get more difficult to get over and not easier,
and you become more detached from living on earth and not less each one you
have. They are a "heavenly blessing" but an "earthly curse." It's never the
same after that visit.
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No But, words do not do it justice
At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes I have had several, but the most recent involved complications after a
post surgery. I probably had 10 to 20 episodes in a very condensed period. I
inadvertently kept a journal about some of them and have tried to clean it up to
make more technical / scientific sense of it. My earliest was about 8 when I
almost choked to death jumping a fence and getting my coat caught on the fence.
At what
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
The life pictures were divided into three categories with 18 good life
experiences with respect to people and your life, 18 bad deed pictures that you
regret, and 18 nature pictures of your favorite beaches, travels, sunsets,
etcetera. My good pictures outweighed my bad pictures, probably because I had an
NDE at such a young age and kind of knew the rules to that "game."
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different
from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
everything is so pure up there. All are silent, and there are no lies. There
is no time, and there are no games. There is no "self" or isolation. All
beings up there are for the same cause and are one giant bond that are
effectively the greatest creation of the universe...just not the "physical
universe" the anti-matter of the universe so to speak.
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes You see, but you don't see with eyes. The light is way too bright, and
the way your "being" or soul work up there is different from earth. It is like
communication. They talk or communicate, but they don't use mouths or verbal
words. It's kind of like Billy Idol's "Eyes Without A Face"..."they've got no
human race...you're eyes without a face"...
Did your
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes There really is no "hearing." There is communication but not
verbally. Everything is silent with communication coming from within. No
communication, no lies...heaven...
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
love, oneness, glory, peace, serenity, no time, eternal bliss
Did you
pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Yes Talked
about above.
Did you
see a light?
Yes Technically, it was like a haze it's a light but it is so dense that it
is almost water. It is somewhere in-between the two substances but is neigher.
It's not either, because it is both oneness and love. It is God, Heaven, and
the Universe, and I am not a church going person not will I ever be. Why, I saw
the right place.
Did you
meet or see any other beings?
Yes The beings were in the light and resembled small moving stars about the
size of a golf ball but made of electro-static light that was brighter than the
lights of the heavens. They are what are referred to as "angels," but they
don't have human bodies like those sold in stores on earth. Then again, who
would buy a star-looking thing. You don't need legs after walking on earth, and
there is no ground up there.
Did you
experience a review of past events in your life?
Yes See above. It's really odd. Some of your life pictures you would never
guess, yet the make perfect sense and really shaped your life. For example, one
of my bad pictures was when a girl gave me too much money at a fair booth when I
bought food and I walked away. She caught my eye and knew what happened but I
never made amends. That haunts me to this day, particularly after almost dying.
It was just one of those teenage things but certainly makes you think about
future actions. And, my daughter's smile and hug was in there too but in the
good category. The pictures rotate from good to bad to nature and repeat the
cycle once all 18 of each group are shown. I wrote down or remembered just
about all to get the 18-count after having so many NDE's so quickly.
Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
No
Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes My last NDE, I really was gone and blew past the gate or triangle a way
deep into the light. There are clearly three levels of Heaven. The light at or
near the top is so intense you can barely survive in it. It is like this high
powered electro light jet slide ride of water-like love that is somewhat like
traveling through a wormhole or a really big water slide / tube on earth. You
look up into Heaven at the lowest level. There are no actual divisions, but I
do not think that your being can survive in the denser or higher levels if you
are not supposed to be there.
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes There was no time, because there were no choices. No one ages, because
it is eternal.
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes "For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction." If we
currently live in the "phycial universe" that is filled with matter, then the
second place is the "anti-matter" place or Heaven and Hell. You don't have your
body but you exist. Death is a really bad name for what happens to us in the
future. Deceased on earth is more appropriate.
Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes The silver chord that people talked about would not let me travel
upward. It is not really "physical" but it was real to me. They did not want
me just yet, only to see what lies ahead for some reason.
Did you
become aware of future events?
No
Did you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
Yes I am not better off. I cannot be around many people and seemed to have
developed some form of mental Turrets when around others. I used to be very
social too. I only like being outside and in nature and not around cities or
people.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes It does not matter what they think.
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes But, I have not really studied it like I have this past year.
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I didn't really have time to think about it at
that point.
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
Primarily the
love on the other side that is unconditional as well as the oneness with the
universe. Love on earth falls dramatically short after seeing the light.
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I am certainly not afraid of death. I
arguably want to die as soon as possible but not in a suicidal way.
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I am not good
with relationships anymore.
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
It was
incredible to see the other side, and I would gladly do it again even if it were
only for a few seconds. Having said that, it makes you more lonely here.
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Uncertain
If it works for your study, that is all that matters not my opinion.
Are
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
I think that you could divide the NDE portion from leaving body to the tunnel to
the "gate" to the light if you wanted and make it more overall accurate. I have
done it enough that it always goes in that sequence if you follow the light. If
you don't go up, then there's that hovering effect over your own body, which is
not really the same thing.
