Alma B NDE

Experience Description

I made a pact with God to take me in a major heart attack: I had been suffering physically and emotionally most of my life. The suffering got worse after being struck by a hit and run taxi while on my bicycle in September 2003, which led to severe surgeries and illnesses for about nine years. I knew I was dying.

At the start of the third month of weening myself off of about 15 prescription drugs, I was in strong seizures. I arrived to the hospital on March 6th, and had severe seizures after I was taken off of the feeding tube on March 7th. I had my profound NDE at about 2am, on the late night of March 8th and early morning of the 9th, 2012.

I recall the seizure coming, and I prepared by wrapping my wrists and ankles with sheets so my body would not flail so much and frighten others. It was okay for me to die. I was tired of being so ill and I knew I was to die. The seizure began as I finished the last wrapping of my ankles, and I went out.

I am in a short void of what appears to be silver-gray, very light gray. Then I see that I am standing on a ground that is not Earth. I know I have just passed to the other side. I am raptured by the diamond-like ground, with what looks to be quartz crystal, white marble and even something that appears to be see-through glass. On the majority of the ground, there were protruding diamonds that stood tall, smooth, and glistened so much that I did not want to take my eyes away from this ground.

Being the very curious person I had always been by nature, I looked up to see what else was there. To my left, I saw a huge crystal-blue sky, a beautiful waterfall with some vibrant green grass around its edges. I saw a huge, stone gate that led to what I believed was Heaven's gate. I looked how far this gate extended, and it appeared to morph into forever. I then heard a voice talking to me. It was the sound of a boom of authority and sweet loving kindness at the same time. It said, 'You are here because you have come to me often.' I immediately knew all the prayers I had ever prayed had paid off. I had prayed constantly as a child, preteen, and teen of severe physical and emotional abuses, and at times depression. I was in a garden of Heaven that was at the foot of the entry gate.

My body was with a high fever this particular day, and had been iced in the hospital several times to bring my fever down.

In my NDE, I observed the Gate to Heaven and the narrow golden, chiseled path that led to it. I saw the different ground under the path which was not the large diamond like ground I was standing in. I was picked up by an Angel by the back of my body and taken to the waterfall. I was laid at the foot of the waterfall. The most minuscule touch of my left little finge, touched the water that was not really water. It looked like gel with the diamond-like colors emanating from it. I felt my fever immediately leave my body. I was then picked up by this Angel and brought back to where I had been standing.

I saw my maternal grandmother to my right. She was with three other relatives that I recognize. To my left is my paternal grandmother and three relatives on my father's side who I recognize. My father seemed to want my attention and moved from the maternal side to the paternal side. Nobody was smiling and I thought, 'I am going to have a harsh judgment from God. I can take it. I am here in the Garden and I will take any judgment and accept all my sins as a choice I made when I could have done better. Maybe God will understand what I went through while alive.' After greeting my relatives and knowing I had serious work to do with being judged, I stood very straight and tall like a soldier. There was a huge Orb of The Glistening Eye of God that was hovering in front of me. It was so large and filled with the Light of diamonds and bright white. I said, 'I am ready. I know I did bad things. You can judge me now.'

This huge Orb of Light, the Glistening Eye of God, told me to 'Be still.' It then told me to turn my head and look to my right. In a millisecond my head was already looking to the right. I saw several blue human-like beings with auras of yellow coming out from their heads, shoulders, and bodies. Immediately, I thought that we had all passed away at the same time, and that I was holding up people in the line to be judged. After judgment I would eventually enter that Gate and I wanted to enter it very much. I turned my head to the Glisten of the Eye, and said, 'I am holding up the line.' The Glisten then poured an indescribable amount of its White Diamond -ike Light onto me. The Light was all Love; only Love, and Pure Love. It repeated, 'Be still, You belong to me.' It then told me to turn to my left. I was then immediately looking to my left. I saw the same human-like beings of beautiful blue. There were rows and rows and hundreds of them.

I again said to the Glistening Eye of God, 'I am holding up the line.' The Glistening Eye of God said again, 'Be Still.' I was showered with more Light from it and it was all Love; pure, pure Love. I could feel my body was erect, tall, and not diseased like on earth. Again, The Orb told me to look to my right. Again, I am looking to my right and I hear form IT, 'Look closer.' I then saw for the first time that these are humans I may have known or some I had met. I was then told that I would meet some of these people in the front rows. I saw that they were all made of a sturdy membrane that outlined their entire bodies. The membrane glowed the yellow aura, and the people were all water, like a bathtub filled with pure water. I gave a slight wave of acknowledgment that they were water was registered as I answered in telepathy that I now understood who these water beings were. The Orb seemed to be pleased and then I said again, 'You can judge me now. Maybe you did not like when I said that I did bad things. I will change my wording to I did wrong things.' This huge Glistening Eye of God then showered me with more healing Light, said more things to me, and repeated, 'Be Still.'

I was not sure why I am not being judged. I wanted so much to walk through that gate ahead of me. I could hear the activity behind that huge gate to Heaven. The Glistening Eye of God then showed me for a minute or two what was beyond the gate to Heaven. They were beautiful Souls, all talking about us on Earth, and how to help us. The first thing I witnessed was an oval table of light. These Souls were talking about individuals because I heard comments like, 'she and he need...,' 'We have this in place for her, and him.' The next table was larger and those Souls talked in a way that I understood that they were helping groups. The third table of Light had more Souls around it and they also spoke about groups and I could sense strongly the seriousness at that table. All I wanted was to be able to start my walk into heaven and do whatever job was waiting for me. I had always said to God, 'I am so worthless, and if you let me in heaven, I will sweep the floors forever and ever.'

My attention was brought back to where I was still standing on the diamond-like ground. Even with all that I had been shown, I still say to the Glistening Eye of God, 'I am taking up time, and some want to talk with you.' I had heard some of the blue human beings in the right front row tell me that they could not hear what the large Orb of Light was saying. I look at my right and left, saw my relatives smiling just a little. I believed that I would now be allowed in. At this moment, I am filled with anticipation that the judgment must be good. When I start walking down that little golden path toward the gate to Heaven, I heard by telepathy and eye contact, when my relatives were saying to me that I am doing fine.

Suddenly, the huge white Orb of the Glistening Eye of God dims and a huge Golden-yellow Orb comes out from its right. I immediately sense that IT is the Light of Jesus. I am bathed in this Golden-yellow Light and healed, and healed, and healed even more. I cannot speak. It tells me, 'I Love you.' Its rays touched my body and I thought I would somehow be transported up those rays. They touched me and then the Golden-yellow Orb went back into the first huge white Orb, the Glistening Eye of God. A stone ledge then came out of the sky and a moving-art drawing of my life is presented to me. Then another, and another. I was having a life review. The drawings, where I was moving in them, were showing me that I was kind to people at different ages of my life. The first moving drawing was me, at about two years of age, chasing a butterfly that was teasing me to chase it. I was giggling and having fun playing with this butterfly. I had a pinafore edge dress on, and I was in a park, running with delight of being a little girl. I look at my maternal grandmother and paternal grandmother. They are smiling a little more now and I feel I have been made as ready as possible. I feel both my grandmothers raise their arms to lightly guide me to start walking down the golden path.

Everything goes into a void-like second, though I see silver-gray essence of some sort. I looked up and saw the bright White Glistening Eye of God once again. I watched it leave, like a ballon slowly drifting away into space. It tells me one last thing I hear audibly, like an everyday human talking, 'Continue to do what you have been doing.' I believed It meant that I had been doing a good job of being a passed-over soul. It disappears as I follow all ITS Light. I see it as It leaves completely and I am staring at the ceiling of my hospital room.

I immediately felt two opposite human feelings at the very same time. I was fully aware that they were opposites, something I had not experienced before or had forgotten if I had. These feelings were that of complete grief that I had been allowed into the garden of Heaven and was in joy. It was a new joy that I had never felt in this lifetime. I knew I had just experienced something phenomenal and extraordinary. The following weeks were filled with my telling everyone I knew what had happened. I have not stopped talking about this NDE. It is my joy, it is my new life. It is my gift and the reason I want to live. Simply to share the story that we are so incredibly made and Loved by the All There Is, IS Love, God.


Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: March 9th, 2012

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Illness Surgery-related. Drug or medication overdose. Life threatening event, but not clinical death. The life-threatening event was that I had no working bowels, bladder, or sphincter muscle for the last 5-6 years before my NDE. I had degenerated disc disease, many more severe illnesses lasting up to about nine years before my NDE. I decided to die in peace without any of the 13-15 medications, and was weening myself when I went into seizures during month two of voluntary drug withdrawal to die to meet my 'judgment' with a clear mind.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes The souls around the tables of light spoke about helping people on earth. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. Everything moved slower, and everything had a meaning that was so strong. This is hard to explain. I was being shown and told so much about why I was born at this time on our planet, why I become so very ill due to my own thoughts, what depression had been doing to place me, and in a direction I needed to move away from.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole time.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. It was as if I was the utmost intelligent being of my senses, all senses.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My vision right before the NDE was that of bleak light where sadness dimmed everything. In my NDE, I could see many things all at once and know what they meant.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing was the utmost clear. I heard so many things all at once.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain The tunnel was at the end. When I saw a silver-like atmosphere before I was dropped off in my hospital bed.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My grandmothers and three more relatives on each side.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The Light of the Glistening Eye of God was the most brilliant. There were diamond-like trails coming out of it.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. It was out of this world. It was simply not earth.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was in complete Awe, and felt a peace like I had never had before. I was loved beyond what any human words can express.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. I understood everything about myself, what led me to depression, and why I was there in the NDE. I was shown through the glass-like portions of the ground, a scene of the planet earth, and it was like new. It looked like Pangia.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events. I was certain I saw myself in the moving picture drawings that were presented to me. It was a life review, though I did not know that at the time. I later saw a picture of myself, of which I have few pictures of myself as a child, and I recognized that I was in the same park I was in during my NDE. I was about age two in the photo. I had to ask my mother to find any photo of me for a class project in 2017, by which I see the pinafore dress I was wearing during my NDE.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future. I saw Earth as renewed. It appeared like Pangia.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic I loved my Catholic Mysticism upbringing. I was attracted to Buddhism. I loved Judaism, due to my father's Sephardic-Basque background.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I spend two plus hours in contemplative awe prayers and mediation on my NDE, the Glistening Eye of God, and the Yellow-Golden orb of Jesus every morning. I cannot live a day without this time to simply Be with God.

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths I continue to dwell in Christian Mysticism, and other world religions where the mystical is key.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I saw what I believe was the scientific, like the water appearing like gel. I saw a membrane of the elements of the human body as it encased the water we are, as a human aura of bright yellow.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I value the space between two people so much more in that there is an entire Universe of Love holding us there/here, and we make a difference in each other's lives - A great difference.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes Jesus was presented as a golden-yellow, huge Orb of Light that healed me and told me he loved. I knew it was Him by his Love and He let me know It was him.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I felt I had lived before. I was shown this in a special way.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes The Love I felt was for everyone who wanted it, I was told.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes What can I say. It happened. I saw the Glistening Eye of God, It Healed me, and Loved me beyond any description.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I learned why we can be our own enemy when we do not Love ourselves as God loves us.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes We are here to Love Unconditionally; Only that. That is all we are here for. Forgiveness of self and self-Love was told to me was the Key to Loving.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists. I was shown the Souls who help us to live on Earth. They were filled with the deepest compassion for all of us.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Uncertain Tired.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes We have help in Heaven. Look to Heaven, pray to Divine Guiding Souls, Ancestors, God and Jesus, Mother Universe.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes It is all and only about LOVE. We come here to Love our own self as a part of God. We are here to Love everyone since we are all in the Same.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I have slowed down to smell the air, the flowers, watch the birds and hear their songs. I watch people and say, 'If they only knew... there is life and no death. How happy they could be, like me now.'

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I have close relationships to those who believe my NDE was as real as the sun and the rain. Everyone else is part of the job I have chosen to teach that they are love.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It is difficult to explain when the telepathic words are being transmitted versus the actual hearing of the voice of the Glistening Eye of God.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I can tell you about my NDE any time, on any day, at any hour... because it is the greatest thing that I have experienced on Earth; next to giving birth and being in Love with my newborn daughter.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I had three early childhood NDE. I grew up with two Angels at my side who I could talk with. I knew peoples' feelings, as I continue to do so now. I got lost after the age of eight when I was great physically and emotionally abused. In a second series of years, I grew very quiet and observant of body language and any minute movement of the eyes. I could and do hear between the lines when someone speaks. Before the experience as an adult NDEr, I saw the way my father would die and it came true. I saw that my daughter would have a grand mal seizure, and it came true. I have visions of the future that pertain to people who are close to me. I have had a vision of my own time of passing over this next and final time.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? They are all meaningful to me. Every single part is meaningful to me. I am blessed beyond belief or measure.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Less than one day. I spoke to the Male nurse's aide about my experience, but I was still very weak and did not tell him the entire set of events, just that I had been taught by Love the night before.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was all I could think about, remember, or wanted to talk about.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. There is no comparison. My NDE is the best thing that ever happened to me, so that I could truly live this life and be of service to God, myself and others. We are simply walking each other home, words from a poster I saw at an NDE conference.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain I have had Love enter my life; and yes, the love here on Earth has a resemblance to the Love I had from God/Jesus. Only God's Love was to the extraordinary infinite pure state that words cannot express, spoken or written.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I am Blessed to have had this profound near-death experience. I am in awe and wonder. My NDE has taken years off my life, which was once just an ok life. Now I have an incredible life.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Yes: Ask what each NDEr wishes for in their life and for the planet. What are (we) they doing to realize those wishes. Are they belong to bring people together in Love. As for me, I wish to be Love to the most underprivileged children in the USA, those that live on Native American Reservations. I am taking classes and have become a brain plasticity international mediator/educator, helping students to gain optimal cognitive potentials, no matter what diagnosis they are given (ADD, Brain damage, stroke, OCD, mental health issues, fetal alcohol spectrum, autism spectrum, Down's, more, and cognitive delay).