Anastasia F NDE

Experience Description

I had a drug overdose when I was 14. I took a lot of different drugs. Before this event, I had no medical conditions besides having PTSD due to a poor childhood. Everything was going well, until I stepped out of the house and passed the doorframe. Suddenly, I felt a really bad pain in my chest and grabbed the table near me. Two people caught me and helped me move, one person on each arm. Then I couldn’t see anymore.

All I could see was grayish-black and white dots. After that I couldn’t hear or feel my body anymore. It was as if my body didn’t exist anymore. It was just 'me'.

Everything got dark and I immediately knew that my time on earth was over and that I was going to die. At first, this scared me. But a second afterwards, a really bright light came from an end of a tunnel. I felt really peaceful. The light was beautiful and it calmed me. Despite knowing that I was going to die, I was fine with that. It felt like I came home and that everything was okay. I didn't have any thoughts about the family or friends left behind. I didn't worry about what would happen next.

Right when I was ready to go to the light, something dragged me back into life and the light went away. It was like the tunnel closed its end. I came back to where I was before and in the exact same position. I could see, hear and feel my body again. The pain in the chest was gone.

All these years, I thought I had a heart attack. But now I think it was the drugs that caused my heart to stop beating. Just recently, I remembered that I woke up in the same position as before my experience happened.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 16.12.17

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain. Drug or medication overdose. Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I was a lot more conscious about what was happening. I could easily accept what was happening without worrying about the consequences, the past, or the future.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I saw the bright light and knew it was all over but all was okay.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. It felt like time never existed and it was not important.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. At first my vision disappeared, I saw black, white, and grey dots. Then everything went black. Shortly after that, I saw a bright light at the end of a tunnel.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I stopped hearing completely and while the event occurred. I have no memory of hearing anything during the experience

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I passed into the tunnel, but not through the end of it

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes. It was a very bright light. I have never seen something so beautiful and calming, immediately calmed me down

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy, having no worries, acceptance, loved, healed, long-awaited, home

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. As I was ready to go and accept my death, it felt like I was dragged back into life

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated. I believed that some kind of god exists, but I didn’t really give more attention to it.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I am now on a religious journey

What is your religion now? Do not know. My beliefs in a God got stronger, but I don't associate with any religion.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I stopped being so scared about small things. I take things more easily now.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Uncertain

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was a feeling I couldn’t describe so easily, because I have also never felt it before

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I usually forget life events pretty fast, and don’t remember most of them. But with this one, I still remember every second of it. I remember every feeling of it

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The feeling of 100% certain acceptance was especially meaningful to me. I didn’t know I could be so sure about something as I never was in my life before.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes First time I shared it with my knowledge of it being a NDE was this year. Shared after 7 years. The person knew right away that I am talking about a NDE, and wasn’t surprised about the things that happened to me while it occurred.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No br>
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I have nothing to add

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