Annie Mc NDE

Experience Description

I have swallowing issues. I went to a restaurant with my family, and food became stuck in my throat. I went to the restroom to dislodge the food, as I often have to do. I was unable to dislodge the food and knew that I was going to lose my airway. I panicked at first, but then became very calm. I simply said to myself, 'You're going to die.' My stepmother came into the restroom at this time, and I was able to convey to her to call 911, but I already knew I was dying. I remained very calm.

I did not do any bargaining or praying. Despite thinking that I might do this because even as an agnostic, I had done so when the threat of losing family members was at hand.

I just very calmly laid myself on the floor of the restroom stall, and everything went dark. I was told the the fire department responded quickly. I was also told that I was barely breathing, taking shallow, agonal breaths and had a faint pulse. The doctor said if the EMTs had not shown up when they did, I had about two minutes left to live. I woke up in an ambulance, but continued to go in an out of conciousness for a couple of hours. I do not remember any of the rescue attempt until I was later admitted to my hospital room.

I do remember everything going black. I felt warmth from the sunlight all over, even thought the scene was dark. I felt happy and calm. The dark scene changed like a 360 degree theater with images of all types of things, flashing all at once on all sides in a sort of semicircular, skylike screen in front of me. I cannot recall the specific images. At one point, I remember a peaceful scene of dinosaurs. Next, I saw a jungle that looked like a prehistoric landscape. Then I saw millions of stars all over the sky. I felt like all the mysteries of humanity were about to be revealed, like I had all the knowledge I would need. It felt good.

Then all the stars were sucked into a tiny pinpoint in the blackness and it was over. I felt upset that I wasn't able to stay and get to keep the knowledge.

When I woke up, I kept saying, 'I went somewhere' and 'For just a moment, I knew everything.'

I recently lost a child, and this experience gave me great comfort that this is not the end, and that we will one day understand our purpose.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 5/16/19

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Other: Very close to clinical death, choking, near cessation of breathing, loss of consciousness, agonal breaths, weak pulse

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Feeling of knowledge

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Yes

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Everything moved fast with multiple events going on at once.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see, focus and take in a million images all at once.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I do not remember hearing anything

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I saw a circular dome that could have been a tunnel.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes dinosaurs

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain I felt light in darkness.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place I felt as though I saw a primordial swamp.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I felt as though I was being given all the knowledge in the universe.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No I felt as if I was taken backwards through time to the big bang, maybe.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will Everything was sucked into a pinpoint and it was abruptly over.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was unsure that anything existed beyond our physical bodies, but now, I believe that it does.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I had an overwhelming feeling of connectedness to the universe.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I felt as though all the secrets of the universe were being revealed.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain I felt like it was there, but I couldn't access it, or retain it, but yes. I feel we are given knowledge.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists There more to this life than what we are aware of.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love being peace, calmness, connectedness and knowledge.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes A few people. They found it interesting.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No