Anthony R Probable NDE

Experience Description

It was just after dinner. I had been thinking about suicide for weeks because I was not able to find a job. I was feeling down about myself for not contributing to my family. So, I took some pills to end it all. I was unconscious and in the hospital for five days.

I remember floating in a void. I could see a little box or window to the physical world. It was a distance away, but I could see my mom sitting to the left of the hospital bed. There were two doctors to the right of my body. I felt peaceful, despite nothing but darkness around me. Yet I didn't feel like I was alone. I don't know how long I was there, but I did have a choice whether I was going to live or die. I could hear myself thinking that I needed to come back to my body.

I returned to see the surprised look on the doctors faces, like I wasn't supposed to be there right now. I came back feeling a whole lot better like nothing happened. It was a wild experience that changed me forever. I will never forget that experience. My faith in God became deeper. I no longer fear death and freely live life. Even thought life is tough, it is not worth taking your life. I still wonder what would have happened if I had chosen to stay there.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: August 12

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes. Suicide attempt

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. It was a real-life changer

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While I was in the void, when I started back up to the window to the physical world and saw my mom and the doctors standing over my body. Also having the choice to die or live

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The faces of my mom and the nurses were kind of blurry as I was floating around in the void while getting closer to death

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I couldn't hear what was going on in the hospital room only what was in the void with me I was quite and peaceful but I did hear a voice saying it is your choice to live or die

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I feel like that was going to be the next step in the process I feel like I just entered the void and what ever happened next was up to me

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt at peace nothing to worry about

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Other Christian

What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Just live life and trust God

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify I had to be God telling me it's my choice

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I'm not really sure but I know God brought me back for a reason

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists Yes

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes My life's trouble were not worth ending it

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I could feel the sadness and how much my family would miss me

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I was kinda tuff to explain but it was real

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The whole thing was significant

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes 2 months

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Yes

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain A collective of research

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I value life but I'm ready to go whenever it's my time