Bilge M NDE

Experience Description:

It was the first day of religious festival. I couldn't remember the exact date. I had gotten over a serious illness that year. That's why I remember the year very well. After breakfast, I left the table and drank a glass of water while I was standing. Suddenly, I felt a strong pain in my chest. I fainted. However, I was still conscious but in a different place - at least my soul was. At first, it was very dark. I can't describe the place. I was asking myself where I was. I realized that I was flying very fast, as if I was looking for myself. I felt very light and relaxed. At one point, I saw myself on the floor. I was lying on my right arm. I went down and tried to raise myself, but it was impossible; my body was very heavy. Besides when I tried, I felt dizzy. Suddenly, I looked up and saw a beautiful place. Everywhere was green; small streams were running. I felt I was being pulled there. I tried to reach there with my hand, as if some hand were pulling me. While I was nearing that place, I heard my husband's and daughter's voices. I turned my head and saw them. Then I took my hands back. I was screaming 'Not now, not now.' At that point, something happened; I describe this event like separating a column of water from another body of water. I came round. I was told that I had fainted; but I had been conscious.

If death is like this experience; believe me, it is very nice. Still, I sometimes faint, but I do not live the same experience at all. Last time I fainted in May 2006. I felt I was the same place. I do not know where it is. I feel afraid that I would love the place and wouldn't come back. My duties are not over yet in the World. I also believe that if one wants to leave himself the death happens.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: nisan 1995

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Illness Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening I only fainted.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I didn't lose my consciousness.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening all at once

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more so

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was seeing a little unclearly. When I opened my eyes the view was getting clear.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard everything.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Neither

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? Neither

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes People were around but away. I couldn't see their faces; but saw their hands.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The light was in the place ahead of me. I was being pulled there.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Clearly mystical or unearthly realm yeşillik ve suların aşgıdan aktığı bir yer gördüm.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? It felt very nice. I was very light, as if my soul was running like water. My body was too heavy for me.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? Neither

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? Neither

Did scenes from the future come to you? Neither After this experience the future event I saw in my dreams about other people became real.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? A conscious decision to 'return' to life

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? Neither

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? Neither

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Especially the place.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I can read what is inside minds of people and sometimes I tell people about their future, because a voice coming from inside my mind tells me. But I do not always believe this voice and I become afraid. I do not want to know everything about the future.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes As I am a reliable person everyone believed in my experience. By now no one said this experience was not true.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I believe that this was a real experience since I was conscious all the way. I understood that I'm a different person from other people.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still believe that that experience was definitely real. I'm afraid that I might live the same experience again and might go further.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Sometimes I faint and once I went to the same place, but always come back very soon. After I lost my consciousness, I feel as if my soul is recharged and gets stronger. Sometimes I know that I'm going to faint and it happens in a few days. Last time I fainted, I talked loudly and said, 'They do something to me. Mom do not give me to them.'

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No.