Bobby D NDE

Experience Description

My best friend and I were on our way to pick up her sister from a babysitting job. It was Black Friday in the early evening. We were sober. My friend pulled out in front of an SUV doing 60 mph. I was the passenger seated in the front seat in a Geo Metro and I was wearing my seatbelt. For the longest time, I couldn't remember anything past the stop sign. But later, I was shown a picture of the SUV. I had a flashback of her pulling out and me looking left and seeing the bumper right there.

I did wake up for a moment. My friend was sobbing hysterically. There were sirens and yelling outside the car. My eyes were already swelling shut, so I couldn't see much. I remember hearing the jaws of life outside my door. Then, everything got extremely muffled. The guys yelling outside began to feel further and further away. I knew I was dying.

Instantly, I was no longer in my head. I was a ball of light inside my chest then I was leaving my body. It was as if I was behind my sternum. I believe this was my spirit. I was pulling back towards my spine. The type of light that encompassed me was inexplicable. It was everywhere and so bright. The light was not like any light I've ever witnessed before.

I KNEW EVERYTHING. I was completely connected to he who made me and I was going BACK to him. I knew I was going BACK, like I'd been there before. It was HOME. It was YHWH. I knew this. I had no questions and no worries. I was complete. I didn't worry about my family and was 100% content with leaving this world. I was separate from my thoughts and my physical shell. The moment I began to separate, I was free.

I feel that our physical form is our prison. We are only whole when we leave this place. I never saw loved ones or reached for God's hand. But I did experience this and it was enough to mess me up for a very long time.

I woke in a helicopter with my broken skull vibrating on the backboard. The next few days were blurry. I did eventually wake up in the ICU. My family and friends were all there. My sister flew home from the Air Force. They didn't think I'd make it. My uncle and father were the first ones to the hospital. My Uncle fainted at the site of me. I had multiple facial fractures, multiple pelvic fractures, a torn bladder, a broken clavicle, fractured SI vertebrae, and traumatic brain injury (TBI). I needed facial reconstructive surgery, and they put a plate in my forehead. My parents were asked to bring in a picture of what I looked like for the surgeon. I was hospitalized for a month. Then I was driven directly to an inpatient rehabilitation facility. I still came home in a wheelchair and had a daily nurse for in home care.

I did not feel blessed to survive. I was angry at God for letting me live. What I experienced in the car that day was so profound, I didn't want to come back. I worsened over the years until I was finally was able to process everything. Then I began healing over the decades. I cannot imagine those that actually hug Jesus or stand in front of God. I don't know how they function here. What I felt in the car that day left such an impact on me that it makes everyday here on Earth feel like Hell.

I now try to use this experience to help others.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 11/26/1999

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Direct head injury. Life threatening event, but not clinical death. I was a passenger in a Geo Metro. My friend pulled in front of an SUV doing 60 mph. He hit my door. It took firefighters 34 minutes to extract me from the vehicle. I was then airlifted to a Trauma Hospital downstate.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I was connected to everything. I was connected to YHWH. I needed nothing. I was whole.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was in my chest.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. There was no time. This place exists outside of time.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My eyes were swollen shut at this point. But the amount of light I was surrounded by, was unusually bright and intense.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing faded. Everyone's shouting and voices became distant then silent.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was all-encompassing and a type of warmth I've never experienced prior to this.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. I was in the aether or void. It felt like I was on my way home, but never fully reached it. I was not in a dimension known our physics.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was complete.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I knew EVERYTHING. I had no questions.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant I was not actively seeking God at this time. I was a lost teenager.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes It eventually brought me back to my Creator. I had to let go of the anger.

What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant I am committed to having a personal relationship with my Creator.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I was angry at God.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. I KNEW I was going back to YHWH. No questions. It was like when you see UFO stories and people talk about the lazer beam light. I didn't see that. But it was like an invisible force pulling me back to him. And I KNEW FOR CERTAIN, I had been there before. It was my real home.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Everything is connected.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes It is YHWH of the Bible. I wasn't a strong believer before this. But after the experience, I KNEW it was him. He is LOVE.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes I know that death is a doorway. A threshold we walk through.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes It was all LOVE. LOVE was the whole thing.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Again, I didn't want to come back. So I did not fair well after this experience for many years. It's bittersweet.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? I've been hard to live with.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It is always hard to describe it. Most of it felt so was so unearthly, that there no words.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain. I am extremely discerning. I can read people like an open book.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The whole thing. I remember how significant it was knowing I wasn't my thoughts. I was in my chest.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I just began sharing it these past few years.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I have family members who are in the medical field and they believe I was experiencing a brain injury.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I know what I experienced. It was real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No. This was pretty thorough.

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