Brent D NDE

Experience Description

After the crash, I was in the back seat of the car. I knew I had snapped my femur because I could feel the ends of the bone when I tried to move. I had hit my head, near my eyebrow, on the front seat. The seat was an old, bench seat with a metal bar across it. I was bleeding a lot from my scalp because the glass from the other car flew through and hit me in the face. My eyes were full of glass shards, so I kept them closed when I could. I didn't lose consciousness at any point, so am unsure what level of concussion I would have had. I was aware of where I was and what had happened. After a few minutes, I began going into shock; tingling and shivering. Emergency vehicles and personnel started arriving on the scene and talking. I felt like I was going to lose consciousness, but resisted this because I was unsure whether it was going to be my last breath or not.

While this was happening, I then found myself somewhere else. I don't know how long in real time I was there, but felt like it was a few minutes. I was standing in a desert, as I noticed the golden sand on the ground and a blue sky above. The desert was completely flat and extended for as far as I could see. But somehow, I knew it didn't end. The blue sky was clear, with no sun or clouds. I just stood there and looked at it, as there didn't seem any point in trying to run and see where the expanse ended or shouting to find anyone. I knew it was infinite, and it was just me there. I felt an overwhelming sense of loneliness. I realized that on the door of death, there was nobody around me. This happens because even if others are holding my hand, it's a journey I must make alone.

I'm agnostic but do feel that this experience had a bit of a purgatory vibe to it. I'm not sure how long the experience was in real time, but I ended up back in the car. An ambulance showed up and I went to hospital. I healed up and carried on with my life.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 08/02/1994

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Direct head injury. Life threatening event, but not clinical death. Head on car crash, 60mph, both drivers died at the scene. I was a rear seat passenger, not wearing a seat belt. I had a broken femur; severe blow to head but did not lose consciousness.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness Normal

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I had hit my head but didn't seem to have any significant concussion

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I am short-sighted. During vision my vision was perfect. I wasn't wearing glasses in the vision. Immediately prior my sight was compromised as my glasses had shattered into my eyes with about 40 shards of glass in them.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything was quiet in the vision. Hard to say

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place. I saw a flat, golden sand desert scene, extending for infinity with clear blue sky that did not have a sun

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Loneliness and calm

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? No changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? It taught me that at point of my death, I was alone in the most absolute sense. No matter how close others are to me, it's a journey by myself.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely not real. I thought it's just stuff brain does in shock

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably not real. It's stuck with me quite vividly for 30 years.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No, seems quite thorough.

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