Buzz Z Probable NDE

Experience Description

I have had an interest in the effects drugs/alcohol produce ever since I first tried them in 2011. I always thought I could have 'enough' of each substance and not create a pattern of abuse. I had a solid amount of self-control for a long period, until I had unlimited access to my most preferred drug. I started using when I had finally met the perfect girl to settle down with and we began to have complications. As many know, while using any drug consistently tolerance will build. So, I began to need more and more of the pills. During this phase of abuse, my girlfriend threatened to leave me multiple times. This was enough to make me quit the drug/alcohol altogether for about 2.5 months.

Then I got a phone call saying that I was being laid off from my job. Later, I got a call from my father. The call from my dad was him telling me he does not know what is wrong with him, but he believes he is having a heart attack. He wanted me to make sure my mom knows. Once I knew my dad was ok, I relapsed for about 4 weeks. This relapse led me to my overdose.

On Father's Day, I woke up early to go do some tree trimming for my sister's dad. I spent the day in a lift-bucket, cutting limbs and snorting Fent. I got home around 6pm, went over to my dad's to give him his Father's Day card, and came home to shower and relax. My dad had given me half of a muffaletta sandwich, so I ate that. I ended up digesting some fentanyl as well as snorting it. This was either a miscalculation on my part, or I hit a very potent spot in the fent itself. I remember falling asleep around 9:00pm. in a recliner with my dog. I was waiting on my girlfriend to get home from work.

About 5 minutes before I woke up, I was in a very dark 'world' where everything that was around me was absolutely positive. I felt 100% certain that I was supposed to be there. I didn't see people or figures of any kind. I was so relieved to finally be in any kind of space where acceptance and peace were the only feelings flooding in and out of me. It felt like I was at the perfect place and the perfect time.

I awoke to a ring of heads looking down at me. This really confused me. Additionally, I was experiencing what sounded like I was inside of a very insulated balloon. Even when I spoke, I wasn't sure what I said. It took a few minutes for my hearing to return to normal. The EMTs went through the usual to verify my identity and what I had overdosed on. They did narcan me, so I felt the effects of that by the time I got into the ambulance. I started to feel the bumpy ride.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 06/15/2023

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Accident Drug or medication overdose CPR given Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I could hear people saying my name and talking about me just before I woke up, not realizing (until I woke up fully) they were trying to speak directly to me. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal It was an entirely different world than everyday life.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I have no idea, it was very brief.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time was not a concept.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. During the experience, it felt like I could hear everything that anyone had to say, but in real life you cannot always hear the voices of everyone at all times.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It wasn't so much hearing as much as feeling, I don't remember any words that were said....mostly just the overpowering feeling of peace and complete acceptance.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm An outer space type of world, but nothing feels empty and you do not feel alone, quite the opposite of alone.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? All I felt was peace, and insane amount of love and acceptance. To me, there is so much to be said for the feeling of real peace, I have never felt anything like that.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others I understood that I was where I needed to be.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? No comment I was raised Baptist, but as every I progressed through life, I came to disagree with many things I had previously been taught. My beliefs at the time of my near death experience were best described as 'understanding there is a higher power, but remaining uncertain of what exactly that IS'. This is still my outlook on religion.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? No comment As I mentioned, I do believe 'something' created humans and that we are here because of that. I feel that it is difficult to define 'God'. I find it hard to put all of my belief in singular historical documents as well, knowing how people like to make their mark on the world, even if it means deleting pieces of history entirely.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience Since my beliefs are completely undefined, I don't think it aligned with anything I believed.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain I have no idea where I was, but it felt good, and I hope that is because the afterlife is in fact a happy place to be, but I was not there for long enough to tell.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? My girlfriend told the first responders that it was impossible I had relapsed and that Fentanyl could not be the cause of my incapacitation. That trust is very hard to regain. Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It felt like I was in outer space, but the stars that you could see were just radiating reassurance, similar to having everyone you care about in one room, but they are all telling you that you are exactly where you need to be and that you 'made it' basically. But they are also not saying anything to you, just making you feel it.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Just the overwhelming feelings of peace and acceptance and that I was where I was supposed to be. My entire life I have felt out of place or just generally uncomfortable in every circumstance/situation.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it with my girlfriend about 2 weeks after. She seemed to enjoy discussing it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I just kept thinking about how I felt during the experience, and it was just so different to me, I don't think I will ever forget it.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It was so real to me, especially to go from complete bliss, to entire chaos and self hatred so quickly.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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