Caitlin O NDE

Experience Description

I was age 14 and my boyfriend was age 18.

He assaulted my best friend and then his mother. He went to jail. When he got out, I broke up with him because I was very scared of him.

He came to my house at about three in the morning. After being hit in the head the first time, I felt as though I had slipped out of my body and shot 30 feet in the air. I watched from above the street light as he beat me for 10 more minutes. I did not feel pleasant or distressed. I actually felt very present and remember consciously thinking “This is unfortunate that this had to happened.”

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 2/08/2003

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Direct head injury Life threatening event, but not clinical death. I was assaulted by my boyfriend at the time

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I watched someone try to kill me. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I was not distracted by any kind of emotion and was a clear witness with no concept of good or bad

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Immediately

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual. Looking back, it felt slow because I was so present

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was looking at myself being hurt and felt like it was really unfortunate

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Maybe like a light white noise. My thoughts were all I could hear, like wearing headphones and speaking into a microphone

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain It feels like I shot straight up and out of my body. I never described it as a tunnel

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. I wasn’t in my body so it was floating in space

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Disappointment at the scene. I remember wondering what happens next

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know. I was not raised with religion

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I felt connected to whatever makes me alive or dead. I call that God

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths I’m aware or Christ consciousness but don’t participate in any organization or cult

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. It was consistent with my few beliefs. I always felt like humans were connected and this caused me to know for sure.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Thinking about it now, I felt more aware of my body when I got back in it. I started to appreciate the value of taking care of my vessel

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes We are souls with personalities and not our bodies

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Oneness is a good word to use. I could see my skin had been split and knew that we are all biology. I also knew that something “mystical” and “magic” is the canvas of our existence

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I became aware that we aren’t our bodies and that we are all connected. I knew that before in a way, and this experience internalized it into every cell in my body. I have never questioned it since

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes That we are not our bodies

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes I realized I wasn’t my body and that life offers time and emotion

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Things happen and leads to the next thing. We are all doing the best we can. No matter what it looks like, I believe people are doing what they believe will make them happy

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love is the blank canvas underneath all things

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. Time was slowed down and after all these years I could re-enact it in real time

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I had to file a police report immediately after the attack

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain I was 15 years old. I don’t recall if I was aware of not

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Ketamine and one lucid dream is all that comes to mind

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? happy to be here

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