Cara C Probable NDE

Experience Description

What a challenge to describe what happened to me. I will do my best to describe it. I was pregnant after several miscarriages in a row. I started having the most painful and advanced miscarriage yet. The pain was overwhelming. The doctors there thought I was exaggerating until I took one physician's hands and placed them on my ribcage.

I was rushed into an x-ray, afterwards, I was diagnosed with advanced stage malignant, high-serum ovarian cancer. The ovarian cancer guidelines suggests that women die when those numbers are in the 500's. My number was 1,126. My entire abdomen and pelvis were filled with tumors. The original tumor on one of my ovaries was about the size of a grapefruit, and my albumen fluid was filled with well-developed cancer cells that had spread everywhere.

I was rushed into surgery in the company of two oncological cancer surgeons who believed that I would not recover. I did survive. After a couple rounds of chemotherapy, I agreed with my oncology team to participate in a full hysterectomy and explorative surgery to remove cancer tumors. The doctors performed a scope, but it was difficult to see around the size of the originate tumor. Upon more advanced surgery, scar tissue was also found in my colon from where the cancer was spread, so part of my colon was removed by an additional surgeon. While on chemotherapy, I was administered blood thinners.

I lost blood from the time of diagnosis until the day my uterus, ovaries, cervix, and part of my colon was removed. I dropped out of consciousness after waking up from surgery and from all of the blood loss. I was administered norepinephrine in through my chest port. Although my doctors expected to see some improvement from chemotherapy and surgery, I was not expected to make an absolute recovery. My cancer numbers did drop from 1,126 to subclinical where it has stayed for a little over a year now. I don't actually expect to see a recurrence, although the statistics say I have less than five years to live and should have never recovered from cancer.

I want to describe a few out-of-body experiences that I had during the entire process. Some OBEs happened while I was waking and one OBE occurred when I dropped out of consciousness, requiring an adrenaline-like medicine and a blood transfusion after surgery.

The first out-of-body occurred while the cancer was spreading and before doctors definitively acknowledged that I had cancer. I'm a sex-trafficking survivor and before the tumor was discovered, I described the cancer pain as 'rape injuries.'

A few times in a row during this time and in prayer or meditation I was visited by a light. It looked like a turquoise orb entering my chest and telling me that I was about to heal incredibly. I started reading books about healing and gaining weight by body building, listening to the light as I fell asleep.

When the cancer was found by doctors in the Emergency Room, and I was transported to Denver, I was with the light. I could see myself below, getting the news. Every time another doctor came in crying, I couldn't stop laughing. It was the opinion of my first medical team that I was confused about the information they were giving me about the terminal nature of my illness and that I needed some sort of therapy to process. I felt the light hovering over me, telling me a different story. I was hovering with it, about six feet above my body. I felt relaxed.

The cancer treatment and surgery were painful, but most of the time I was actually hovering outside of my body having a ridiculously good laugh with the light, which was reflected in my physical behavior. I just couldn't stop laughing. The diagnosis, the pain, the chemo, the surgery; it made me laugh hysterically. I already knew I was going to beat it. Whenever I told my doctors I was going to beat it, they would cry for me and for my husband. The light put me inside of their hearts to understand what they were feeling. They were so mentally perturbed by my happy demeanor and sureness. They cried again when after surgery, I was expected to at least have SOME cancer left. Instead, I had and still have NONE. Hahaha!

When I was fully outside of my body during surgery and from blood-loss shock, I didn't want to come back at all. I could see the beautiful souls of the doctors, both their eternal and temporal selves. Their temporal selves were filled with fear, but much of their purpose in being surgeons and oncologists specifically held so much love from their eternal selves. They were so beautiful. Their souls and all of the souls on the other side are so 'whole.' I felt in my soul what would happen to my husband's heart if I were to either die of blood loss or die of cancer. So, I decided definitively that I wasn't going to have a recurrence of cancer. Even if doctors thought there was something deadly in my body and treated it on their medical level, I had no intention of dying of cancer.

I remember one of my surgeons finding me alone one time when my husband had left to get food and a few beers. She started yelling at me, "YOUR ILLNESS--YOUR ILLNESS" and claiming that I would have it for the rest of my life. I thought about that idea. I don't have any illness. I'm fine. They said I had an unusually high pain tolerance, but I was holding myself up with the light.

I was technically about six feet above my own body for most of the experience. The other side is really great. There isn't any pain. The colors are brighter.

This is what I noticed from choosing to enter back into my physical form in this dimension. I felt the pain in my heart in the form of heartbreak. It's from when one of my parents jumped from a bridge and I was sex trafficked. I was a lost child with more than one name. I was just a body to them. That's what caused my body to collapse and fall to little broken DNA and cancer cells. I tested negative for genetic aspects of ovarian cancer development, but I already understood that the heartbreak is what made my body give me the option to leave.

Although some women exit a cancer experience wanting to write a book, I really like typing up reports for my husband, who is a law enforcement officer. I don't spend any time on social media anymore. I only nanny one child and privately cater for one person. I took up drinking red wine and watching a fire burn. I like cleaning my house. In the summer, I love to go outside for most of the day. I used to work all of the time. Now I like to write in my journal in different colored markers and think what it would have been like if my baby had lived.

I feel substantially more emotionally sensitive than before the experience. I didn't want my husband to know the kind of heartbreak that I felt throughout most of my life from trauma and loss. So, I decided to beat cancer and stay here, for now. In the future, when it's my time to pass, I will be equally excited about that; as I was with beating a terminal cancer diagnosis. The other side feels expansive and beautiful. It is like all of the things that broke your heart are finally lifted. We all have such beautiful light inside. I can only be around people and instances that bring out the light in me. I've enjoyed writing this. Thank you for reading.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 10/23/2023

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Surgery-related While under general anesthesia. Advanced stage ovarian cancer Other: Terminal cancer diagnosis, followed by clinical shock from blood loss and miscarriage/major surgery I was diagnosed with terminal ovarian cancer.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal The light that I saw was so beautiful.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the time that I was out of my body, during abdominal surgery for cancer and hysterectomy.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. It seemed that time was both faster and slower, at my will. I was a time-traveler; intra and inter-dimensional.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Like the colors were on full-volume and the emotional space of healing was exponentially larger.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It's like I could hear anything at any time, in any dimension. It's like omnipresence.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw my grandmother who committed suicide. I saw a scientist in the room who had discovered the medication being administered to bring me back awake.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was like watching the beams of light in slow motion in higher color definition with new eyes.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. A few seconds in the other realm is like thousands of years here. I was being given knowledge through the nature of the other realm.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? It was like if my heart was breaking backwards. All of the emotional pain was eased. Upon returning to my body, the emotional pain came flooding back in, with an urgency to address it in myself as the root cause of the cancer.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. I saw the world through a perspective of non-duality. There was no judgement and I knew ultimate meaning. I saw my meaning. My meaning just keeps unfolding and unfolding like a flower that blooms eternally with infinite petals. This life is relatively short.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events. I saw my childhood, but I also saw contemporaneous lives that I was living both now and in the temporal past. I became aware that time is not real.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future. I saw micro-technology used to cure cancer and humans recognizing telepathy and time-bending as a realistic tool. I saw the awakening happening in females first, followed by males.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. I felt what would be incurred on my brother and husband if I left this life. I felt the pain they would feel. It was so heavy that I chose to return to my body without any further indication of terminal cancer. I absolutely made the choice. I believe there is a separate dimension in which I died.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated. I practice yoga and am open to information about all religious faiths.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I won't step foot in a church since the experience because I saw it for what it is: bogus, financially-motivated guilt-tripping.

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated. I practice meditation and prayer from several different religious backgrounds.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I already had relatively open beliefs from the immense suffering in my life, so the NDE didn't shift my beliefs much. I believe anything is possible. I think things can do a 180 degree turn in any circumstance. I know that I am meant to ground massive changes in the perspective of medical oncology; but also in my own life, for myself, for my own healing process. I have a greater focus on my own worthiness, which I would like for others to experience vicariously.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I used to think I was totally worthless if I wasn't always working to make money. I still work, but far less. I support my husband, do nannying, and private cooking. I used to have way more jobs piled on top of that--life guarding, athletic instruction, brand design, journalistic writing, social work, legal document production, life guarding at the pool, acupressure massage therapist--I did all of that at the same time. It was too much. I had to pull back from all the stress.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. I saw angels inside of the souls of people and also orbs and angels on the other side.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes I saw Christ, but he was purposefully, particularly quiet.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes There is no such thing as 'before' because time isn't real. I am, personally, energetically involved in several life experiences simultaneously, both in this dimension and others.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes What I sensed is that most people who exist in the dimension of reading this sentence have willfully forfeited their access to unity or love through cultural tribalism, addiction to distraction, brainwashing, addiction to harmful substances, and irrational self-loathing. We can only be as kind to another person or soul in experiencing oneness as we are to ourselves.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I wouldn't care to elaborate on my experience of the creative energy which divined us. I don't want religious interpretations applied to my experiences.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I saw purpose in myself in pertinence to literally every interaction I had in the past or in my future in a temporal dimension, as well as a purpose for my energy in the next dimension, in a time perceivably to people on Earth. I know from the experience that I am not actually from Earth, but I respect that Earthlings measure things like time, life, death, purpose, birth, love. Your purpose is what you choose it to be.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes We are supposed to experience a dimension of dichotomy for the growth of our soul's purpose and deeper understanding. I chose this life and my experiences in it before I was born into my physical body, and I have clear memories of choosing this. My life's meaning in a dichotomous dimension where oneness is specifically difficult to access; would look different from someone else's purpose.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes The essence of awareness is not defined by life. 'Life after death' would incur the idea that life and death are part of a soul's reality. Life and death as instances are only one aspect of consciousness. The aspect which is your soul is larger than conversations about temporal events or the specific length of one's life or biological indication of life. There's no need to limit awareness to the concept of life. There is only the reality of eternity and multi-dimensional existence. As forms of consciousness, we actually co-create reality through perception. All you have to do to stop experiencing something is move your attention away from it and more clearly focus your consciousness on what you feel is meant to be rooted through your soul. There is no death. I'm being literal.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes You're meant to ground beautiful things from the other realm into this one through your consciousness and where you focus it. Sometimes, this is referred to as manifestation. It is like reaching into the other side of beautiful things to enrich a dimension that needs more of that.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes I saw suffering through the understanding of non-duality and purpose in healing others through my experience, although I struggle to be subtle about that.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I felt, from the experience, that love is in all things.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I can't discuss politics with anyone, and I have a volatile reaction (maybe a post-NDE allergy) to political or religious information, because religion has become politics. I start freaking out and I can't stay near discussions about any political subject. I painted my entire house turquoise, like the light I saw guiding me through the experience. I enjoy red wine whereas before I wouldn't drink at all. I'm very focused on cooking, whereas in the past, I ran several businesses at the same time.

Also, I want sex a great deal more than before, especially with my husband--but my inner world of sensual fantasy is louder; maybe because since beating cancer it doesn't hurt anymore. In comparison to before, I used to say that I had PTSD or OCD or cancer symptoms. Now I just call it 'the stress energy blob' and I refocus on my affirmations, journal, pleasurable experiences, and relaxed relationships.

I'm quicker to walk away from people if they give me a hard time for even a second. I'm not actively trying to fit into a social community, whereas in the past I would bend over backward to please everyone but me. I stopped wearing nail polish and started doing only natural nails. I won't go on any social media platforms that stress me out. I'm back to powerlifting and focused on honing my body shape. I like cleaning my house, supporting my husband, and snuggling with my dog and cat. I spend a lot of time asking myself: what makes me feel at ease? Mostly cleaning, writing, resting, cooking, listening to Female gangster rappers and tonal music, and journaling my private affirmations and forward life goals (like paying off my house).

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I stopped being friends or associates with any person to attempt to stress me out before during or after the cancer diagnosis and NDE; including friends, family, professional associates, secret romantic associates, entire hospitals, entire social media platforms. I'm always asking myself since: is this cancer energy or sexy energy? Food is sexy. Life is sexy. I am sexy. Stress is not sexy.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was like watching light in the hearts of my doctors, and in the hearts of everyone I know. I was expansive. There was no pain. I saw things through non-duality.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I only blacked out from physical pain before doctors acknowledged the cancer a few times. I remember laying in a bath for 8 hours. I remember being transported. I remember going into surgery twice. I remember waking up during chemotherapy and screaming at the cancer to leave my body. I remember firing my first team and hiring my new team. Trauma has a way of burning itself into your brain, but I'm actually accustomed to that from being trafficked. However, I prefer to remember nice things such as how they were shocked when I beat it.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I can feel everything.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I liked the beautiful light and surviving terminal cancer. That is especially meaningful to me. I feel really special. I feel like I couldn't mess it up. Once beating cancer, my family is nicer to me. People are more understanding when I cut off relationships. I feel really focused on food and working out.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I tried sharing the experience on social media and people thought I was lying. I also approached an NDE author community, but some of the ladies were not very nice to me, so I just moved on from that.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I was reading books about surviving cancer and NDE before doctors acknowledged it. That's why I laughed so hard when they gave me the terminal cancer diagnosis because I already knew that I was going to LIVE.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I trust my own perception of reality, especially in comparison to the perception of others, because doctors said I was going to die, and then instead I lived, like I said I would. My perception of the experience of dropping out from shock during surgery and the out-of-body that I had during the cancer treatment itself, and diagnosis process is a memory which is clear as day, to me. I wouldn't even entertain someone debunking my experience, because it's all mine, like the victory over cancer.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I don't feel the need to defend my perception of reality, because we're all going to die eventually find out. There's no pain, don't fret yourself over it.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I almost died of starvation when I was four years old because the people who trafficked me did not feed me. In my early twenties, from stress-induced weight loss, my heart flatlined. Each NDE included an expansive feeling, with clear visions of the other side, and supernatural emotional awareness. The cancer was just the best-documented time that I almost left, but didn't.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? There is a shift in the vibrational and psychic patterns of human beings happening currently, without regard to political or religious affiliation. In fact, those affiliations can limit one's ability to experience truth or love.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Do you have a different concept of self since the experience. The answer: Yes. I feel substantially more powerful.

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