Cassandra Probable FDE

Experience Description

I was diagnosed with esophageal IV cancer on November 11, 2020. I felt like I was hit by a truck, and could barely function. When the doctor gave me my diagnosis, they asked if I wanted to know my prognosis, and how much time they thought I had left. I recall telling the doctor that I do not accept that I have stage IV cancer, and then I don’t want to know the statistics. I can tell everybody thought that I was losing it, but were okay with me processing on my own timeline. With esophageal cancer at a late stage, you generally have a large mass in your esophagus, as did I, and it restricts swallowing and eating. My mass was so large, I was unable to keep anything down, and I was losing weight. The doctors recommend a medical stent be surgically placed in my orifice, to make room for swallowing food. I resisted at first, and was trying to figure out another way. I kept losing weight and not eating, and was terrified that I would starve to death. I was told that I either had to do the stent, or get a feeding tube. I chose the stent.

I made my appointment for the surgery, and remember being wheeled in to the surgery room and being put under anesthesia. I woke up feeling horrible, in a massive amount of pain. They told me that that was normal, and that they would surveil me for 24 hours. The rule was that I had to eat before being released. I ended up in the hospital for almost a week, terribly sick and not being able to eat anything. During that time, I was throwing up constantly and on a massive amount of pain medication and other medications for nausea, etc.

At some point, I remember leaving my body and being in another realm. There was no fear, anxiety, or stress. As you recall, I’m pretty much traumatized at this point, and pretty confident that I am almost dead. I was terrified until I left my body. Once I was up there, I remember feeling like I was wrapped in a love in a way I’ve never felt love in my life. I’ve explained it as feeling like I was in a womb. I could feel a presence near me, and I remember seeing a light. It felt like three or four days of me telepathically communicating to the presence. I was begging and pleading to be able to stay on Earth, so that I could be there for my daughter and my mother. I’m a single mom, and my daughter has cried to me about being scared of being an orphan. My mother is 70, and was not taking the news well. I just remember pleading and begging for days. I made all of these promises that I would change my life, not do drugs, smoke cigarettes, drink alcohol, etc. After what felt like days, the presence agreed to let me stay. I remember being so happy with myself.

My job before getting sick was in sales, and it felt like had I closed the biggest sale of my life. This turned out to be accurate. I was elated. In the midst of my excitement, the presence telepathically said 'But, if you go back, life will not be easy.' I was so excited about closing the deal, I didn’t really pay much attention to things not being easy.

Next thing I know, I’m back in the hospital bed and feeling pretty bad and sick. At the time, I thought that I was hallucinating due to starvation. I was released from the hospital a few days later and I went home feeling terrible. A few weeks later I started improving, and I was able to eat food again. I thought that this was due to the stent that had been placed during surgery and I was healing well. Therefore, I was able to eat again. On December 31, 2020. I could not stop throwing up and I felt terrible. I called the doctor and they wanted me to take my temperature, I took it, and it was over 101. They told me I needed to go to the emergency room immediately, as I could have an infection that could be deadly, due to the chemo. I remember crying all the way there, and being so dismayed that I would be spending my New Year’s Eve in the emergency room during Covid. I had to wait eight hours to be seen. By the time I got to be seen by a doctor, I had pretty much given up on life, and was ready to just die. They did all of those tests, and all my numbers were coming back normal. I couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me. They x-rayed my abdomen and chest, and found that the stent had migrated to my stomach. I was told that stents take years to migrate, if ever. I was also told that they migrate when the tumor shrinks.

I did’t know what to think at this point, but I knew that I could still eat food, and that the stent was no longer in my esophagus. I went to the doctor the following Monday after the holiday, and was told that the tumor shrank, and that my tumor marker bloodwork had went from 1500 to 230. It was such a drastic drop, that the lab tested it multiple times. The doctor set up an appointment for an endoscopy to remove the stent from my stomach. At that appointment, I just had a feeling that the cancer was fully gone, and I felt almost back to my original health, or even better. That is when I felt without a shadow of a doubt that the God experience was real. I also felt like I was watching a miracle in process, and feeling it. I told the doctor before he stuck the camera down my throat that he wouldn’t find a tumor, and that it would be gone.

He looked at me like I was out of my mind, as he was the doctor that originally gave me the endoscopy and saw how large my 4 cm tumor was. After the endoscopy I asked him how did it look, how much tumor did he see? He said that it looked like it was about 80 to 90% gone. I got the photos and follow up notes the next day. On that paperwork the picture showed no visible tumor, and it was confirmed in the notes that the previously seen mass was no longer visible. In my head, I felt like I was cancer free.

There’s so much more to the story, but long story short, they gave me a scan weeks later. It showed that I still had metastasized cancer in my chest, and that I had cancer in the lymph nodes around the original tumor. The doctor said I was still stage four, and the goal was to prolong my life. I continued on chemo until April, and after that I had so many people treating me horribly due to me talking about this God experience, and calling me crazy, that I had to leave the state and get out of Seattle. I just continued chemo and went to Puerto Rico for six weeks. I went on a spiritual awakening retreat alone, and took care of myself. I completely changed my diet, radically changed my mindset, and knew without a shadow of a doubt that I would be cancer free. I had complete faith that God would not do just one miracle for you, and not finish the job. When I returned from Puerto Rico, I was cancer free.

I have now been cancer free since May 28, 2021. I’ve had two follow up scans since then. There’s a lot more details, but that’s the gist of the actual experience.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 12/18/2020

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death Stage IV Esophageal cancer

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Thoughts were going through me so quickly and I was retaining everything. I knew my life’s purpose immediately.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole thing

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual It felt like three days but I’m sure it was a few minutes

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could feel energy all around me and within me

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Hearing was normal

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was bright

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Yes, it felt like a womb

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Pure love and no fear

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Yes, I felt total love and no fear. I felt immediately awakened

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Select Spiritual

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I believed in God but not like now. I pray, meditate and have complete faith.

What is your religion now? Other faiths- New age

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes All of them

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I was telepathically speaking to the presents and begging to stay on earth for my daughter and my mother

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes In that demenion only love exists and it feels so good

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I spoke to god

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I get signs from the universe daily, I can communicate with my spirit guides, I can predict the future on certain things, my intuition is heightened, and things that people would think are crazy and coincidental happened immediately.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes I felt like it was my life purpose to help Terminally ill people kill themselves with their mind

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I know without a shadow of a doubt that there is another dimension and it’s way better than here

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes God told me if I came back life it’s going to be hard. I’ve lost almost all my friends. My mother who I wanted to live for is turned on me because she’s an atheist. She’s turned my 15-year-old against me who I wanted to live for. They’ve stolen her from me and now I’m in the middle of court to get her back and fight for her. My best friend died on Friday and left for girls. One of her daughters, and the oldest, is with me, and I’m going to help mother them all. I feel like I was saying it to be their mother to.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I felt real love at that moment and I loved it

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I am not the same person at all. I even look completely different. People tell me I have the best energy and they can feel it. People tell me they don’t know who I am and I’m a completely different person. I’ve pretty much lost all the people who used to be in my life. They were all alcoholics and drug attic’s and unhealthy people

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I’ve lost a lot of friends and family

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I’ve processor event many times to be able to express it into words

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I’m intuitive, I predicted events, and all kinds of other stuff. People of actually called me a witch.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The love I felt what is the most beautiful thing in the world. It’s also comforting to know how beautiful the afterlife is. I also know that God doesn’t lie because my life is been hard as hell since the event.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I talked about it right away. Which was probably a mistake. But I couldn’t keep it in because I didn’t know what else to do at the time. And now everyone thinks I’m a loon and they’re making my life hell because of it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I thought shows on it and seen the whole tunnel thing. But in my near death experience there was no tunnel.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real At the time, I thought it was hallucinating but when you fully eradicate stage four cancer right after the NDE it’s apparent it was as real as it felt

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? None