Cecilia H NDE

Experience Description:

Death caused by hypobulimic shock. The Light attracts me as a magnet. It is so marvelous that I follow it but then retreat from it because I am listening to the crying of the people who were surrounding me. It is like if I turned to the right hand side i.e. I do not go up or down. It is strange. The feelings that surround me are as strong as ever. And that Light is white and catches me. I do not see nor hear anything else. I do not feel my body, or my head, nothing physical, only mental. It is all so beautiful that I do not want to leave the light. You know, even today I think about my experience and wonder why I did not follow the Light. When I followed the Light, I suddenly came back and opened my eyes. It was so difficult to breathe the same air again which I see is dark; I look at the rest of people who are crying and I think I'll be fine and at the same time I feel sorrow for staying but then I realize that my baby needs me.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 09/21/1996

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes ChildbirthAllergic reaction Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) Death caused by hypobulimic shock.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Never lost consciousness. Everything was clear for me except that I did not know that I was supposed to be dead. I only learned about it when the doctor said I was dead. I heard everything.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? All the time.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening all at once

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more so

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I felt everything you mention and saw that light that is engraved in my mind.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Neither

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I went to the right hand side towards the light.

Did you see any beings in your experience? Neither

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Clearly mystical or unearthly realm

What emotions did you feel during the experience? All of them. Exactly all of the ones I described and something more which is not from this world.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? Past flashed before me, out of my control Definitely. But right after this experience, I did not have it clear. I did things that I now understand that I did wrong firstly because it did not signify anything; it was only an experience. Outwardly, I felt it but it did not pour from my heart. Many strange things started to happen after some time. [Translator note: This piece of text was somewhat difficult to translate from Spanish since it was not very clear. I tried to convey what I thought the experiencer wanted to say.]

Did scenes from the future come to you? Neither

Did you come to a border or point of no return? A barrier I was not permitted to cross; or 'sent back' to life involuntarily

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes

What is your religion now? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? Neither

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? Neither

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Only the Light that was there. It suddenly appeared. Time was infinite. I cannot explain it.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real More real than myself. It lives within me and is stronger every day. Why? I do not even kill an ant. It is like if everything is connected even with animal and plants. It is difficult to live with all this because it is beautiful and horrible at the same time because I can feel greater love.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Before I used to look for men's God. Today I look for the unique and true God that comprehends everything that surrounds us. I only want to say that today the mystery of life is to know how to die. I would like to advise people that in order for us to live in harmony and peace, we should go to bed every night tranquil and knowing you may die but also knowing that you did not leave for tomorrow what could be done today. Also, we live to be able to forgive and defeat grudges and let love win.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? For example, NDE's are sometimes not very clear and more time should be allowed to let them clarify and define and be able to say something more concrete.