Cecily W Probable NDE

Experience Description

This experience is one of the main reasons I got sober. It’s also the reason why I know there’s something else out there. Is it God? I don’t know, but I think it’s just our soul energy.

In 2020, I was living with my fiancé, Jeremy, and both of us were still in active addiction. Although we didn’t really know our neighbor, he knew we did drugs just as we knew he sold them. He pulled up in front of our house one day and asked if we wanted to buy some drugs. We went to over to his house. What appeared to be a Roxy (oxycodone and something else), was really fentanyl before it became a problem here.

As soon as took it, I knew something wasn’t right. I’ve never done fentanyl in my life up to that point. Last thing I remember, is Jeremy telling me we’re gonna be OK. He was trying to calm me down because I was crying and telling him that something wasn't right. I was sitting on the edge of the bed with my feet on the floor. He was standing in front of me between my legs and hugging me. That’s the last thing both of us remember.

Next thing I knew, it was just darkness. I had no conscious thought in my mind at all. It’s like I wasn’t there, where my mind wasn’t even forming thoughts. It was like I was in darkness, but I didn’t know I was in darkness.

I heard a familiar voice saying, 'Sis you got to wake up. Can you hear me? Come towards my voice, Sis…' I couldn’t comprehend what I was hearing. Then I knew I was in a tunnel, although I could not see the tunnel. I wasn’t in my body, nor could I see my body while I was walking. I couldn’t help but follow the sound of the voice.

After I got closer to this voice, I recognized it. It was my brother, who was found dead on Mother’s Day, 2010. I never saw him, I just heard him and felt him. The entire time, I was getting closer to his voice as he continued pleading for me to wake up. He also kept saying. 'What about Mom? You can’t do this to Mom! You have to think about mom and dad. You can’t leave mom and dad.' I then felt like I was nearing the end of the sensation of being in a tunnel.

The whole experience lasted a few seconds, but at the same time it felt like an eternity. I didn’t know that I wasn’t awake.

All of a sudden, I sat straight up in bed. I didn’t know where I was, what was going on, or even who I was. I was so confused. I laid back down again and it immediately hit me. I remembered snorting the pill and being scared. Then I thought, 'Where is Jeremy?' I sat right back up and started yelling for him. There was no answer.

I crawled to the back door, had problems breathing, and was so tired. I realized that the door was hitting his foot as he was snoring. I went to shake him and he didn’t move. I was screaming his name and slapped him a little. Somehow, I got him out of the closet and into the middle of the room. I saw blood on his mouth, he had blood in his mouth too. I tried to perform CPR but it wasn’t working. I stuck my fingers into the back of his mouth, and there was a bloody clot in his throat that I got out. I started doing CPR again. I glanced around the room real fast and didn’t see our phone. I ran to the neighbors house and they called 911 for me.

I started doing CPR again and he still wasn’t breathing. A policeman ran in and told me that I did a good job. I heard other first responders running in and yelling to 'hit him with narcan' and 'he's code blue.' When we got to the hospital, I fell asleep. When I woke up,the doctor told me I shouldn’t have been alive and there was no way to explain how I even woke up. The doctor told me I had enough fentanyl in my system to kill three grown men. They said the fact that I woke up and even was able to move was one of the most amazing things they’ve seen. They released me later that morning to be with Jeremy. He did survive but over time the only residual symptoms is that now he jumps and twitches in his sleep a lot.

I believe my brother gave me the strength I needed and I know for a fact it wasn’t a dream. My brother really woke me up. I know in my heart that I wasn’t alive. The way I was gasping when I woke up, made me wonder if I was breathing at all.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 01/02/2020

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes. Drug or medication overdose. Life threatening event, but not clinical death. I was an active addiction in 2020 and somebody sold us a pill that was pure fentanyl.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I don’t know if I was more conscious and alert in my experience, but I do know that It was the clearest my mind has ever been of worries and all the outside influence in the world. There was no stress ;there was no nothing. I just felt an overwhelming sense of love and comfort. Hearing my brother's voice was such a surreal experience.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Literally RIGHT BEFORE I sat straight up in bed gasping for air (awoken)

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn’t have a vision of anything it was more like instead of seeing, I was feeling and hearing what was happening around me.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing was the clearest as ever been

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I wasn’t seeing i. I could just feel that my brother’s voice was leading me down this tunnel. I could feel the presence of a tunnel with no light. When I got to the end, I could just feel it. Everything happened in like a millisecond.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My big brother's voice.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calmness, love, curious, familiarity, peace

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know. I was raised Baptist.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain

What is your religion now? Do not know. I believe there’s something more out there, I just don’t know what. I believe in science, but I also believe that there’s no way this can all be accidental.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes. I still feel that I can’t express it in words. I can't get the feeling and the experience out in a way that I feel peoplecan truly understand

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain. I heard my mom's friend talk about her having one. She had a head injury and aslmost died. Prior to my experience, I didn’t believe her and thought she was crazy.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No