Charlie C NDE

Experience Description

April 10th was my birthday and the 11th was Easter. I was feeling depressed that my family disowned me and my mother said that she wished I was not her son. Normally, I take a shot of heroin a little at a time so that I can see how strong the dope is and to be able to stop if there is something wrong. For whatever reason, I got to the point that I knew if I did any more, I would die. Yet, I didn't stop.

Although this was my third overdose, it was not my first brush with death. I've been stabbed 5 times, blown up by IEDs twice while serving in Iraq, and multiple car flips on the highway. I am still here.

I heard the voice of my dead grandmother saying, 'Go home Charlie.' This voice was the only thing I remember and it happened right before I woke up. Apparently, I must have said something because the EMT, a girl I knew from high school, said 'You better not go home Charlie. It took too much to get you back here.' I could see that she was physically drained. It took 10 shots of Narcan and 40 minutes of CPR before I started to breath on my own. My friend who found me, who was also another veteran, said that I had dead eyes, glazed over, no pulse and was not breathing. He did CPR until the EMTs arrived.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: April 11, 2020

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt Drug or medication overdose. CPR given. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function). I overdosed on heroin

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal. I don't remember seeing or hearing anything else but my grandmother's voice telling me to go home

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Right before I heard my grandmother and woke up.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. It was 40 minutes before I was able to breathe on my own and it seemed to happen instantly.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't remember any visions.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard the voice of my grandmother

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes, my grandmother

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? none

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. I was told to go home by my grandmother

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I am a Catholic but I use to be atheist. I now believe in science and God

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes. I heard the voice of my grandmother, who was dead now for 5 years. He told me to go home

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I know that was the voice of my grandmother.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? the voice

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes that day with my friend when I got home it was all I could think about

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I've heard of them but had mixed feelings to whether they were true or not.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? eliminate repetitive questions