Christopher K Possible NDE

Experience Description

I hung myself from an extension cord in my garage. Although, I love my kids and family, I was so distraught that I gave them no thought. The cord ultimately snapped.

It was like I teleported from the moment my body went limp to the moment I woke up covered in vomit.

I remember seeing light but it felt like an oncoming truck or train. It was like everything else was only part of the void other than that light. I couldn’t look away from it no matter how much I tried. There was no hellish imagery, but it definitely felt like hell. The light felt threatening and like it was coming for me.

This was the most fear I’ve ever felt and I screamed at the top of my lungs, although my partner claimed she heard no screams. Suicide is 100% something that I would not recommend. I told my Dad I saw Hell or the void but I imagine he believes I hallucinated it all.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: March 2023

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Suicide attempt Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal. It was just terror, like the exact moment before an impact but stretched out indefinitely

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Trying to not look into any light as it was not welcoming, particularly when I was screaming because it wasn’t stopping

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning.I don’t actually know how much time this whole event took in real time, could have been hours or minutes

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I tried to close my eyes or look away from the light but it was impossible, I wasn’t seeing with eyes

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear my screaming at the light or the void. I feel as if I was screaming from where I was on the trolley jack I was crumpled on top of. I felt the screams were made by my physical body but my partner could not verify I actually made a sound at all

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain It felt like I was stationary and a light was bearing down on me

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes As if a 18 wheeler or locomotive was a moment away from hitting me

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place It was a void

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Intense fear

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. It was less of a decision; I wanted this experience to end. I was almost shown that this could continue. All I wanted to do was to wake up from what was happening

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist Raised to question organised religions

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic Currently question everything including the nature of reality

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I think I’m now more open to the ideas even though I don’t want to be

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I want there to be nothing when you die but now I’m uncertain which makes me anxious

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify I could hear something, but don't know if it was voices, it could have coming from me

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain There’s something, perhaps it is an almighty and omnipotent deity? I don’t think so but it is something. Again, I hope I was hallucinating

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes I don’t particularly entertain the idea of an afterlife as a positive experience, I was comfortable in my atheism that once you die that’s it. I hope this was a hallucination

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Better communication in my relationships, I wish it changed me more so. It was traumatic Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It just didn’t make sense to me as I’ve always been into scientific method and that we can understand through research and science, any phenomena.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. It feels like it happened a few months ago when it was almost a year

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The shame and embarrassment that goes with attempting suicide has made me more aware to not rush into the void

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My partner and Dad the day of event. Understandably upset and dubious of any real NDE

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain Only in movies, flatliners?

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I mean it definitely happened to me, whether or not it was a dream or hallucination I don’t know. This is the hardest question I think?

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real. Something happened I don’t know why it did

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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