Cindy J NDE

Experience Description

Extreme fear before losing consciousness. Then slowly faded to black.

Then I was jolted awake and was moving down tunnel very fast. The noise in the tunnel very loud. I was moving down the tunnel toward white light. I was passing through a membrane or curtain into white light and at same time felt myself disintegrate into atoms or particles and become one with the white light. This sensation was accompanied by the most amazing overwhelming feeling of love, joy, happiness, and UNION with everything.

Then the movement stopped and I found myself standing very still in an ORB of white light, a circular space of light. This space was filled with about 15 Beings of white light. They were not material or recognizable in our sense of physical bodies, but I could recognize them clearly and could communicate without words.

Some of these beings I recognized clearly as they were relatives that had passed. The one at the front, who communicated with me, was my maternal grandmother. Another one was my paternal Grandfather. There were other deceased beings there too, some whom I knew of but had not met. For instance, like my Godfather and a workmate's son who had recently died aged 22 of cancer. Also there was a large male person in the left hand corner of the group who I knew to be a guardian or great-grandfather and that he was Aboriginal. He said he was watching over me. After some time, my Grandmother told me I had to return to earth. She said that she was going to put me 'in the oven till fully baked.' I begged to stay. I jolted awake at the hospital and then lost consciousness again intermittently for about a week. Each time I came-to, I was upset to be back in this horrible, gritty world where everybody looked like rotting fruit. It took a while for this repulsion to wear off, but it did eventually. I still think about this experience every day I live.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: July 1983

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness. Allergic reaction. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) Respiratory arrest due to massive asthma attack; maybe due to chemical exposure but never proven.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Impossible to explain.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When standing in the white orb with my Grandmother.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It's hard to compare because the two visions are so different. I would say it was just more acute and vivid than here.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. After I entered the white light, I do not recall any sounds.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

The experience included: Tunnel

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes As above.

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Pure bliss and happiness and safety.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic Was brought up nominal catholic but not religious at all.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic No religious affiliation - open minded about all spiritual matters since near death experience. Believe in after life and other dimensions of life .

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin No voice - communication is through the mind only.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God does not exist

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? I am uncertain if God exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I had to return to be put 'in the oven till fully baked,' my grandmother said.

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Grandmother telling me I had to return...to become 'fully baked.' Also when I came out of the coma, it was an Aboriginal person who was standing over me. She was the hospital cleaner. From then on, I met one Aboriginal person after another and ended up working in Aboriginal Land Rights for my whole life since then.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes About four years ago.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was real, end of story.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No