Crystal P NDE

Experience Description

When I was 4 years old, I was in the backyard with my grandpa, the neighbor, and her daughter who was my age. She and I were playing in the baby pool. My grandpa was talking about me starting kindergarten with the neighbor. I remember I got upset. I told him I did not want to go to school because I was scared. I got out of the pool and ran to the swing set. The swing set had monkey bars on the left, two swings in the middle, and a slide on the right. My mom said I was trying to show my grandpa a trick. I climbed up and grabbed the first bar. I swung my legs over the next bar to where I was hanging upside down with my hands on one bar and my legs wrapped around the next bar. I was wet from the pool and did not have a good grip on the bar. My hands and legs slipped. I fell straight down, on my back. It felt like the wind was knocked out of me. I wanted to get up, but I closed my eyes and everything went dark.

When I opened my eyes, I was above my body. I saw grandpa trying to open my mouth to give me CPR. There were so many other people around me, but I did not know who they were. I did not see my mom in that crowd of people. But I do remember seeing my mom talking on the phone to my dad, while she was in the kitchen. She was standing next to the window with the long cord attached to the telephone receiver. I heard her say, 'I'll have to call you back!' I did see her and remembered the window she was standing at was to the right hand side, looking out the driveway. I was maybe about a few feet above everyone and watching everything happening. When mom heard someone say, 'Call 911' she ran out to me. She held my head for my grandpa to give me CPR because I was not breathing. Then I heard my grandpa softly and calmly call my name. I opened my eyes and sat up.

I was o.k. and not scared or crying. I stood up and then walked to the bench.

I don't know who the crowd of people I saw who were around me, because when I was above, I did not see the neighbor, her daughter, or the paramedics. I don't remember what happened after I got up. My mom said we went to the emergency room in an ambulance.

When I was three years old, we were in Michigan at my grandpa's lake house. We were riding around in his speed boat. I fell out of the boat without a life jacket. I remember is falling, slowly down under the water. I saw a bright light like the sun shining at the surface of the water. I don't remember being scared. I remember how pretty the sun looked while staring at it. The next thing I remember was standing in the boat with a towel wrapped around me. I was standing in front of my mom as she was asking me if I was ok, because I was in complete shock and not moving.

I found out much later, that when I fell off the boat, my uncle had to turn the engine off because the current took me under the boat.

I had one other experience that I'm not sure if this was an NDE or not. I remember it like it was yesterday. I started using heroin when I was age 21. I got sober on 6/18/2013 at age 24 years old. I had a bad, costly habit by shooting up four, 10-dollar bags at a time. This was a time when it was only heroin and not cut with fentanyl. I have 10 years soberiety now.

At age 24 in March 2013, I was at the Dunkin Donuts with my boyfriend. We were waiting for my dealer. When the dealer arrived, it was 930pm. We got our drugs, went to the Lowes home improvement store to use their bathroom to get high before they closed at 10 pm. I went into the private bathroom. I remember before I shot up, my boyfriend was knocking at the door to let him in. I don't remember anything past that time. My boyfriend said that he came back into the bathroom, trying to wake me so we could go. I was not waking up, so thought I overdosed. He left me in the bathroom and the store without telling anyone I was in there or to get help. Hours later, I woke up on the bathroom floor to the music playing on the speakers. I heard my grandpa calling my name in a soft voice. The music on the speakers was so quiet when I opened my eyes. When I was in high school, my grandpa left for work at 5am every morning. He would blast the radio in the kitchen to wake my brother and me up for school. I thought I was back in that time. When I got up off the bathroom floor, I was confused. It felt like I was there for a few minutes. I opened the door, stepped out, and walked to the front. It was 3am. I had to pull the fire alarm to leave the building.

The next day when I saw my boyfriend it was like he had seen a ghost because he thought I was dead. So I am not sure if I overdosed or just went unconscious but it was all black from the moment I opened the door to let my boyfriend in until I opened my eyes to the music and heard my grandpa's voice.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 7/1/1993

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Accident Drug or medication overdose. CPR given Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I remember everything that was going on.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? yes

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. When I was above watching everything, there was no such thing as time

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I'm not sure as I was a child

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I did not hear anything but my grandpa's voice calling my name. I opened my eyes while lying on the ground before I sat up

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I had none. But I wasn't scared or panicked

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I know there is something greater than myself out there

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths higher power

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I was a child and had no idea who God was or anything about religion.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain. When I had the NDEs as a child, I would talk about them and be told that it was my brain playing tricks on me. I don't talk about this because I didn't want to sound crazy. If I do talk about it, I preface it with, 'I swear I am not crazy' when I start the story. It was always hush-hush until I watched someone tell their story 10 years ago and now knew I'm not the only one.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life. At the time, I was just a child and had no idea about God. I was not brought up in a religious household. I did not go to church or was told about God until middle school. During my addiction, I was okay with dying. That was until I had overdosed in the bathroom and knew this way of life wasn't for me. Since I had those NDEs as a child, I have very vivid dreams to this day. I have intuition of knowing things before they happen. I don't know if that is from the NDEs or something else.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? I'm not sure about relationship changes because I was a child

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I don't remember anything after sitting on the bench after falling from the monkey bars or going in the ambulance to the emergency room. The next memory I have is the first day of kindergarten. When I fell off the boat, I don't remember getting on or off the boat. I do remember the bright light and seeing my mom asking if I was ok.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have vivid dreams of signs that will happen or have senses that something will happen. My grandpa who raised me with my mom, kept thinking something bad was going to happen to him in July and August of 2007. He died suddenly on 9/6/2007. I'll have dreams of someone that I don't dream of or have talked to in a while. I will message them and ask if they are ok and if something is going on with them. More signs come to me through my dreams.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? That I was watching everything from above and hearing my grandpa's voice calling my name. I opened my eyes both times; the one time when I was on the ground after falling and when I was older on the floor in the bathroom.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes. The first time I shared my first two experiences was after they happened when I was a child. I shared with my grandpa, mom, and social worker. They all told me it was my mind playing tricks on me. When I was 24, when I got sober, I told a few people. They said, 'Oh wow! That's crazy.' I don't talk about it much because it was told not to talk about it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I always knew it was real but couldn't explain it to anyone and just kept it to myself

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. The memory is like it happened yesterday

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No

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