Dan P NDE

Experience Description 4782

The day after returning from a business trip, at midnight, I had a massive heart attack. Later, the Doctor told me they call it the widow maker; it was the one you don't want. I had a total blockage of the LAD with ventricular fib. My wife summoned the ambulance, and after loading me, the emergency medical technician placed a nitro pill under my tongue. That was the last thing I remembered. I was taken to the emergency room. The staff hit me twice with the defibrillator paddles. Then I was put on a helicopter and flown to the hospital. Then I underwent angioplasty and received a stint in my heart. I was unconscious for two weeks, breathing with a respirator. The heart ejection fraction was down to about 10% and my son in law, a physician, gave my chances less than that. I stayed a total of 39 days in the hospital. I now have a defibrillator in my chest and returned to work after six months. I began writing about it on a blog, www.Fixedhearts.blogspot.com.

When I awoke, I told the story of my trip to ‘heaven’. Although I had two weeks of morphine dreams, the death experience was very separate and very real. I was thrilled with the experience and anxious to share. For a few brief moments, I found myself in what seemed like ‘heaven's front yard’. I was aware of a door to the right. Jesus (I am specific here) was talking to someone standing in front of me. I was amazed at the grace, unconditional love, and freedom I was feeling. This person had not been a Christian (by religion, or birth) on earth, but was given the opportunity to choose now. I thought this was fantastic. I did not choose to return, but I left there and returned to earth. I don't remember being asked to choose, but now 8 months later, some of the details are vague. It was crystal clear to me then, and I thought I would never forget every second and every detail. Since I couldn't speak or even write for a long time afterward, the details suffer

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 12/3/2009

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) A widow maker heart attack. Total blockage of the LAD. Ventricular fibrillation.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal If you mean the physical trauma, just before the ambulance arrived. If you mean the ‘other’ it remained high while I was there.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? If you mean the physical trauma, just before the ambulance arrived. If you mean the ‘other’ it remained high while I was there.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I think I sensed that earthly time was still going on, but that it wasn't relevant there.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I had awareness of a portal to the right but I didn't go through. How I got to where I was seemed instantaneous.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes The One I perceived to be Jesus and at least one other person. I did not know the person.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? No

The experience included: A landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm What I considered to be heaven's garden or front yard.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, peace, joy, relief

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes There was a ‘wall’ with an entrance to my right. I did not go in; although I wanted to.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes In many ways this has brought me back/forward to a more personal understanding of and walk with God.

What is your religion now? Moderate

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes In many ways this has brought me back/forward to a more personal understanding of and walk with God.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Not on my side, but I suspect some people like me, trust me, believe me more or less because of this.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Realizing death is the portal to love and grace.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Immediately after having the respirator removed I tried to talk. It took several days. I also could not write. My wife said it looked like scribbling. When I was able, I told my sons and wife, 'I died and went to heaven and it was wonderful.'

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain I didn't know anyone personally, but I assume I knew such a thing happened. I did not read or study on the subject.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I was absolutely sure. I was going to write a book and tell everyone. I was excited about the possibilities.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Although the details are harder to describe, I know it happened. I remember ‘knowing’. I understand it is hard for some to accept.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? You can read my blog if you like. There is too much to say for this space.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No suggestions.