Experience Description

My sixteen year old son and I had just driven back from visiting my husband. I remembered we had to return a video. We pulled in the driveway of our house he was driving. He jumped out of the car and I watched him go into the house. I don't remember anything else except driving and I was looking at him thinking to myself, 'He is so handsome. I can't believe I didn't notice how handsome he was.' I felt an overwhelming feeling of love, being madly in love, swept over me. He was talking to someone. I noticed he was radiating a beautiful white light, I thought to myself that the sun was shining in and I looked at the windshield. I thought to myself, the sun wasn't that bright. I looked back at him and then he took a deep breath in and out.

I reached up to touch him when I heard the shattering of glass and then I saw my hand and the bone sticking out of my wrist. I looked at the dashboard and it was like slow motion coming closer to me. I looked at the steering wheel and it was doing the same thing. I noticed my son wasn't sitting there; then realized what had happened to me. I was yelling 'save my son!' I saw a blonde haired man through the windshield on the passenger side and smoke coming out of the engine. He was saying it's going to catch fire. That's the last thing I remember until the hospital, the next day. I had no head injury just compound fracture of my left wrist, sprained ankle, broken ribs. My 16-year-old son was reported dead at the scene.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 02/04/2012

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' I was in a head on car accident

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal It was like I was dreaming.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The beginning.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual

Were your senses more vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't remember and he drove 8 miles before the accident. And I remember the funeral service but I don't remember taking his body to the cemetery or anything else on that day.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn't hear anything except one man and glass.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Yes a magnificent white light as if it was coming out of my son.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Overwhelming feeling of being in love with everything.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Overwhelming feeling of being in love with everything and everyone.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:


What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Other Christian I was just ordained 01-30-2012

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I want everyone to go to heaven with me.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No Yes knew he was talking to someone. He was nodding and sitting with his hands on his knees and back was straight like you would expect someone in the military.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Feeling we were not alone.

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes Feeling we were not alone.

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:


During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Forgiveness, we have to forgive everyone who has ever done anything to us.

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably does not exist

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes Forgiveness, we have to forgive everyone who has ever done anything to us.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Overwhelming feeling of being in love with everything and everyone.

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes I seem not want people to argue or hurt.

After the NDE:


Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Only the amount of love that I felt. I have never felt so in love in my life. That feeling continued months after the accident. I was so madly in love with everyone and everything.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Love.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Immediately!

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Two unknown men pulled me out of the car. Nobody knows who they were or what they were driving. My neighbor's mother-in-law was talking to them when they pulled me out. Even the people whom my son hit said there were two men but nobody knows anything about them. (The neighbor's mother-in-law is a nurse. She thought I was dead. When I said something, she said it almost gave her a heart attack.)