Dayana AM NDE

Experience Description

I lost my father on June 19, 2021. My father was everything to me because I lost my mother when I was 5 years old. I was feeling the greatest pain and despair of my life after I lost him.

July 3, 2021, my husband and I had an argument. I felt that I was tired of living and it was time to do something about it. I took more than 10 pills that would accomplish my goal. My husband forced me to drink a lot of milk to try to make me vomit. At that moment, I felt calm. So, I decided to shower. I started to feel a cold sweat and that my heart wanted to leave my chest. I could not stop talking. Then, I again felt a huge despair and started heavily sweating despite the air conditioning being on. Hours passed as I continued to feel that way. I just thought that the milk had prevented the worst of what those pills could do and that I was feeling the effects of a hangover.

Later that night, we got ready to sleep. I felt my body going numb and I couldn't move. It started in my legs, then it went to my hands. I felt like my eyes were being emptied from the inside. I was trying hard to keep my eyes open, but this was very difficult. I felt my chest tighten every time I tried to breathe. Even my tongue was numb. I was able to tell my husband what was happening to me. He insisted on taking me to the hospital. I felt scared and at the same time, I was at peace with myself. I managed to say goodbye to him and that I loved him very much. I asked him to please take good care of my daughter. I was so afraid for her and kept thinking about her little face.

I saw something white and a lot of light, but thinking about my daughter made me open my eyes again. I saw myself on the bed, next to my husband. I was alive but could also feel the moment when my heart was not beating. I told him, 'I'm going to die.'

It was as if a heavy object had been placed on my eyelids. Although I tried to open my eyes like previously, this time I did not succeed.

I began to see a round, very long, and completely white tunnel. I did not see a light at the end. I looked desperately around me. I wanted to see my husband again and I could only see the face of my 7 year-old daughter. I did not want to find her in such an empty and sad place. I only thought of her and apologized for having given up.

Finally I reached the end of the tunnel. There was a precipice that emptied in the sky. I knew if I left the tunnel, that I would enter heaven. My dad appeared out of nowhere and kissed my forehead. He pushed very hard against my chest. At that moment, I felt my husband's voice desperately screaming at me to wake up. I pretended they were giving me an electroshock. I only remember that I touched it and squeezed it because I did not believe what had happened to me. I told my husband, 'I am here with you. Do you see me?' He started crying and told me that I had stopped breathing and my eyes were blank. He also said that I was very cold.

My body went into shock and with great fear and nervousness, I tried to understand what had happened to me. I then understood that I had died in the arms of my husband and that my father had sent me back to his arms. I was safe and sound, ready to love life enjoy living. At that moment, I no longer remembered anything bad in my life. I don't feel that I am the same person inside my body. Another person was born today, July 4th 2021. I don't remember anything about my previous personality and I feel an indescribable peace.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 7/3/2021

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes. Suicide attempt

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal. I was aware that I was going to die and when I woke up, I knew that I was dead. It was very impressive.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I felt that I was going to die.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was totally different to understand and see that we live like we are in a world in black and white and after you die, life really begins in color.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I think it was the same.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes The tunnel was completely round, quite narrow and very white and clean.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My father died recently.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. After the tunnel there was a precipice. Then I saw the most beautiful sky that I have ever seen in my life.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Despair, at the same time, peace. I felt very cold, very afraid, and at the end of the tunnel, when I saw my dad, the greatest joy of all my life.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. I just stopped being me. I know it sounds crazy, but they brought me back to life in the same body but with a totally new personality.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? New Age: I am a Santera

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I explain this in my experience description.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am different.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. I saw my dad. He did not speak to me but he kissed my forehead and brought me back to life by giving me a very strong push.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes. We are definitely spiritual beings, and we have the obligation to connect our souls with them because the world will improve enormously. They fill us with goodness and return us renewed as humble beings and full of love to give.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes everything can be arranged so that the world stops suffering with so much misfortune

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists. After we die, we really begin to live in color and in total peace

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Too many things

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love is the most powerful, beautiful and dangerous feeling that exists.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. Everything totally changed.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am another person completely changed and different.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. Everything is very clearly imprinted in my mind.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have always had clairvoyance and contact with spirits and now it is much stronger and extensive.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Everything was significant.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My husband.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real. I had doubts, wondering whether it was just a terrible nightmare until my husband confirmed to me that I was dead in his arms, devoid of any active vital sign. I then understood that I had died.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely rea. I am completely convinced.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Days before, I had dreamed that I had died and was with my father on a kind of island, both of us being already dead.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Right now, no. It is still very recent and I am understanding many things

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I think everything is perfect.