Experience Description

I was under anesthesia for laproscopy surgery. I remember being in what I can only describe as 'the Universe.' I did not feel like I was out of my body and I do not believe I was dreaming. I felt that I was with God and that God was conveying to me the meaning of the world, life, and the Universe. I could hear a sort of 'tick' tick' 'tick' sound. I have not been able to understand what the sound was. I remember seeing what looked like a huge, hanging lego set with rectangle objects all fitting into place. During the experience I knew every answer about life and death. I knew God. I knew I had been giving the secrets of the Universe. I was told that I would remember the experience but I would not be able to remember the 'secrets'.

To this day I still feel that I was in the presence of God and that I had been given all the answers to why we exist and what exists after. I just can't remember what they were. Apart from this experience, which I think about a lot still to this day, I have had many out of body experiences. Usually they start with a 'whirring' noise and great pressure in the middle of my forehead. Then I am out of my body. It's very real at the time. I usually get scared and come straight back into my body.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: June 1989

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Surgery-related Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. I was aware that I was looking at the Universe. I didn't think of myself as 'me.'.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I felt like an observer

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I felt that I was an observer watching the universe all fit together and everything had a place

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I kept hearing a tick...tick...tick..tick..... sound.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. I was not in 'heaven' i.e. with green grass and flowers. It was black with a colorful construction of 'bricks'

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. I knew everything that there was to know about the Universe. I wasn't allowed to bring this knowledge back with me, only that I would remember I knew the answers when I was in that state.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:


What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic Brought up a Catholic but non-practising nor believing

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Other faiths- New age

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes That the Universe is well constructed.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I can't remember seeing God, I just remember the presence

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:


During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I knew everything there was to know about the Universe and God, I just wasn't allowed to bring that knowledge back.

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists. Yes That we don't die and everyone has a purpose

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I slightly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? No changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:


Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Because there was this definite ticking noise

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I've read many books on the subject

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It's hard to explain but when I came out of the anesthetsia, I was very happy that it had happened and I could't stop thinking about it.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No