Deborah K Probable NDE

Experience Description

They admitted me to the hospital. Then they put me in a room and administered an IV.

I kept protesting because I was freezing and wanted a blanket. Nurses would respond. Finally, I got annoyed about it and one nurse said you're not getting a blanket, your temp around 104.4, one point higher and we're dumping you in ice water. So, I stopped asking for a blanket and just shivered.

While I was out, everything was still dark. Then, the light got closer and closer. It was a curved tunnel. When the tunnel got completely in front of me, it was as if I was being engulfed in it. I heard a voice say, 'No, it's not your time; it's just not your time yet.' The voice was extremely familiar, but I could't figure out who it could be. Since my father died when I was 2 years old, I thought it might be him.

I was in the hospital for a week. They tested me over and over for multiple things. My lungs were perfectly clear, yet the skin that sits outside the lung was pouring blood into my chest cavity. They had no idea what caused my illness or anything about it.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 12/16/1988

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Life threatening event, but not clinical death. I had a pain start in my left upper back, below the shoulder blade, and spreading to the right side. I was admitted to hospital because I had fever 104.4 and was freezing cold. Everything went black, I thought we had a power failure at the hospital but saw a very dim light ahead. No matter what direction the gurney I was on was turned the light was directly ahead of me. It did not matter if my eyes were open or closed, the light was there.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. I had normal consciousness

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Who wouldn't feel highly alert in darkness with a mysterious light approaching them?

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was just blackness with the soft white light; no color

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't hear voices and am not crazy. But, I definitely heard a very clear human voice speak to me as if he were right there in the room and on my left side speaking to me.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain. Possibly my deceased father's voice

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was soft light. At first, it was small as if it were a safety light that comes on when the power goes out. It was as if it were at the end of a very long hallway, approx. 80-100' away. The light continually got closer and everything else was in total darkness. Eventually it was in front of me looking like a large tunnel. I was almost inside and the tunnel curved to the right so that the end was not visible.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Not scared. I felt heightened curiosity as to what was happening.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist I was kicked out of catechism class at 6 years old in the Catholic church. It was because I was asking how things they were teaching could possibly make sense because most of it made no sense to me.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Atheist I believe the universe is the 'actual god' and it does as it will.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I believed I had lived before. So, I did believe in reincarnation. Yet, I didn't believe anyone would greet me at death's door. I'd just die and my soul would be sent to another body ready for birth.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify. I heard the voice very clearly, as if in the room and on my left side. I heard in my left ear that it was not my time. My mind recognized this voice, it sounded so familiar but I could not place it. Later, I decided that it was probably my father who died when I was 2 years old.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Uncertain. If the voice was my dead father, then he was speaking from somewhere other than the earthly realm

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? No changes in my life. I think there might be a pause between death and rebirth now

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I told the doctors about it later that day when I could see daylight again. The light from my experience was gone. I have always remembered it, but I have been told that I have a semi-photographic memory.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? not really

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes shared it immediately and they were not surprised

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I was not asleep and I know what I was experiencing

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I was not asleep and I know what I was experiencing

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? not really

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