Dorin T ADC

Experience Description

I have always thought this experience was not a dream. I also did not share the experience with anyone for a very long time. There was a long processing time for me to think about what I'd seen.

Monday night was May 30th. I fell asleep downstairs and then woke up at some point. Then I went upstairs and got in bed.

I was floating in what seemed to be space. There were stars or small lights all around me. Some lights seemed larger than others and closer than other lights. I accelerated fast toward one of the lights. As I got closer to the light, it grew large enough for me to enter. I went in head first, like squeezing through a tube. The light was so warm and inviting. It wasn't the heat kind of warm. I was half-way into this vastly lit place when the tube closed around me at the waist. I wanted to go all the way in but could not get completely into the space. I was half in and half outside of the vast, light, warm, amazing, and loving space.

I saw a sea of lights. The source of the lights came from far off to my left. I wanted to see the source of the light, but it was apparent to me somehow that I would not be able to do that. I focused on the individual lights themselves and somehow knew they were all people. I could not make out features of all of their faces but recognized them as being like me. They were beautiful, individual beings with a connected, common peace.

Then, close to me I saw Kip. His facial features and body were brightly lit. There were misty, soft edges to him but it was definitely him. He was just like the other lighted beings in the space. He gave me a perspective of how they all were connected. I can see it in my mind still now. It was so much better than I can write about. Kip looked right at me. He saw me and recognized me. His facial expressions were everything, all at once. In his expression I saw awe, wonder, peace, excitement, joy, love, and expectation. I felt everything that I saw on his face. I experienced what he was experiencing at the moment he experienced it. The only difference was that I was stuck in the small tube. Although, I could not see the source of the light like Kip could. He looked at me and then looked back towards the light, and then back at me. He didn't say anything but I knew he was in glory. I could not express how happy he was or the joy he felt.

Kip and I worked at the same church but our paths rarely crossed. I can't even say we were friends. I knew of him but did not really know him. When I returned to work after the Memorial Day weekend, another co-worker told me that Kip had died Monday while climbing a mountain in Colorado. Before the co-worker told me he died, I was dumbfounded. Until then I was treating as a dream. Yet, it was so much more than a dream. I experienced emotional shock for a few days after learning about the tragedy. Then I had months and months of quiet processing time.

When I finally told someone, I realized there would never be words to describe what I actually experienced. The person's reaction shut me down a bit. Remembering this after all of this time brings me to one conclusion. For whatever reason, I was allowed to see Kip entering the afterlife and how it affected him to the core. I could not see what he saw, but experienced it partially through him. I have changed many things about my own life because of the experience. Mostly, I remember the experience as a time that was no turning back for me. I am positive there is a place to be after we leave this world; a place that did feel more like a natural home than this world does. Most importantly, I learned that the Source of it all is more than we can imagine or ever describe. Thanks for the opportunity to write this down somewhere safe.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 05/30/2005

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain. Sleeping but drank too much that night. I had been having shortness of breath and dizziness after drinking, falling asleep on the couch, and then waking to climb the stairs to get in bed for the rest of the night.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. It was as though there was a sense available to me during the experience that was beyond the 5 normal senses I use daily.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I felt what Kip was experiencing.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I don't recall a length to the experience.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Not sure if you mean my eye vision. Ironically, I don't need distance glasses anymore. As far as what I see, I notice nature and seasons more than I used to.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn't hear anything during the experience (with my ears). I'm getting older now and do have some ringing in my ears but this is common.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I call it a tube because it closed around me at the waist so I could not enter the space with the other people completely.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw Kip in this experience. As far as I knew he was alive. I learned he died the same night as the experience a few days after it happened. Kip was an acquaintance through church.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes it was a warm light but I did not feel it in temperature. It was a life giving life. It was everything to everyone there.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place. One small light out in a space like place turned into a never-ending place full of beings.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy, love, eagerness, excitement, peace, assurance.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. I feel like everything's okay forever. I'm not afraid of death and I'm sure I will be home someday. My experience was the best gift ever given to me.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. I did not feel like I was sent back. I only know I was not permitted beyond where I was.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant. I was working full time at a church when I had the experience. While sleeping I witnessed a co-worker entering what I perceived to be heaven. When I returned to work two days later I learned the co-worker had died climbing a mountain hours before my dream. The dream was so real. Even before I found out the co-worker died I knew I had experienced something super natural.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I've incorporated meditation into my prayer life.

What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian I believe in God as father, creator, counselor, savior, and friend. I no longer have a denomination affiliation.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. It's against Christian beliefs that everyone will get to meet Jesus face to face when their physical life is over. I got the feeling everyone will meet their Creator after they die. We are All connected.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes No doubts about God anymore. More forgiving toward others. A better mother. Compassionate.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. There were many beings there but i knew and connected to one of them.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes I sensed the source of the light was our Creator.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Everyone was connected somehow, to the source or power and light in that place.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes God was in the place I was in but I was not allowed to fully enter and see him like the others who were there.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain. It was not until I learned that Kip had died the same night as my experience that I lost all fear of death and knew that we exist somewhere after our physical death.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes I felt like this was a place to be and meet the creator of the universe face-to-face for the first time.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Uncertain Only that I knew I needed to get my life together and stop drinking.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Everything I've said and described - the peace, the joy, awe struck facial features, people united by a source of light. You can wrap all those things together and they are Love.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Definitely with my children. I am not the marrying type. Uncertain

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It's been nearly 20 years since the experience and the 3 or 4 people I've talked to about it don't really understand. They are nice about it but can't connect to the experience through how I tell it.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. The experience has not faded like some memories can or grown bigger like some stories tend to. I see the experience the same as it always was and is, even with eyes wide opened.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I wanted more than anything else to see the source of the light and love.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Almost 2 years between the experience and sharing it for the first time. I don't think people were influenced by the experience. No one ever told me that they didn't believe me, but when I told about my experience, it seemed to fall flat on listeners ears.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I was given a gift of certainty about life after life and a hint to live well in this physical body.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Very thorough.

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