Michelle RN Probable NDE

Experience Description

I am a retired family physician. On July 10, I was the victim of Covid-19, and had high fevers at home for five days. My breathing became labored and when my pulse was dropped into the 70s when they should have been in the 93 percent or better. At that point I was transferred by the emergency medical service to a hospital in a different city. I didn't know if I would see my husband or family again because they didn't let visitors into the Covid wards of the hospital. I was placed in the ICU for Covid patients. Things got progressively worse over the next couple of days.

I did have close friends that would call, text, or text and pray with me. I could feel the power of prayer very strongly. I had just gotten off the phone with the hospital Chaplin, when the doctor came in the door. He said to me, 'It is time.' I said, 'Time for what?' He replied, 'time to put you on the ventilator. Your lungs need rest, and I don't want to intubate you on an emergency basis.' He continued, 'You won't feel remember the procedure.' I was scared and answered, 'I am putting this in God's hands now. Let his will be done. 'That was the last thing I would remember for week.

I was on the ventilator for a week. They tell me that my airway was unstable and I was a hard person to intubate. During the time I was intubated, I was told that I was going to another state so that I could get better. I thought, 'how nice, my cousin lives there. 'I saw my body being loaded up into an airplane, and I thought, 'I must be worse off than they thought if they are having to med evacuate me to another state.'

As soon as we got into the sky, the colors of the sky completely changed. There were colors in the sky that I had never seen before and I could smell the smoke of a campfire. Why would I smell a campfire? It seemed as if my senses were on fire. The next thing I knew I was walking towards a friend's house but did not know who the friend was. It was twilight during the fall, even though I knew it was summer in July. The air was crisp and I can still smell the campfire. In my hand was a warm cup of coffee. I sit the coffee as I walked up to the open fire pit behind the house. The backyard was also lined by a forest. There were two lounge chairs waiting for me and my friend to sit down. I could tell there was a presence there, but did not turn my head as I continued to sit on my coffee.

'I am troubled and believe I am dying,' I told the presence. There was silence for many minutes, but then the presence spoke. When he spoke, I immediately knew who it was because I had heard that voice several times before during my prayers. It was the voice of my Lord, Jesus Christ. He replied, 'perhaps you are.' I answered, 'Lord, I am nothing but a lowly sinner and I am sorry for all that I did, but if you want to take me home with you now, I would consider it an honor.'

At that time the trees of the forest started to telescope back and forth and took on the shape of the face of death. A dense fog descended upon the forest and I felt as if I was in the valley of the shadow of death. However, God was with me. I had no fear. I could only hear the hiss of the ventilators and waited death to come. Then, miraculously, the fog lifted and a light with luminous colors appeared. The Lord took my hand and said that I would have to return and fight for my life so I could live with my husband, daughter, mother, and brother.

The panorama completely changed to a teakwood background. On the floor, was the crucified Christ lying on his side as if in a deep sleep. I was in awe of his passion and immediately fell to my knees to worship him and I cried. I was like a child rolled up in a fetal position beside his legs and could feel his hand on my hip. He would not let me go. I knew I was secure and safe. The next moment felt as if someone had pulled me by the scruff of my shirt and into the middle of a cool pool. I it was my ICU nurse, Jack, trying to wake me up from being in a coma. 'Dr. Michelle! Dr. Michelle! We are trying to get you extubated and off the tube today. Is that all right with you?' I held up a hearty two thumbs up. Within 30 minutes, the team had all the tubes pulled out. But I was so hoarse from the procedure, I couldn't tell them my good news that I had been with the living God! Once I was stabilized I told my ICU nurse all about my journey and he was very receptive.

My friends and family were even more receptive when I came home and told them. As a result, I am now the author of the unpublished book, 'The undiscovered country. A physician's near-death experience.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: JULY 2020

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes I contracted Covid 19 and was placed in a medically induced coma and on a ventilator.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I heard the ventilators hissing. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was in a medically induced coma and on a ventilator when all of this occurred. However, all my senses were heightened. I was in a medically induced coma and on a ventilator when all of this occurred. However I could not smell anything because of Covid 19. Yet all my senses were heightened because I could smell the campfire and coffee. I saw colors of the sky that are colors that I've never seen before or since.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual When I was awakened to be extubated, I felt like I had been traveling a lot. I asked the people around me where I was and if I had traveled. They said, 'No, you haven't moved out of this room and seven days.' To me, it felt like I had only been there for a day.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Colors were brighter and of different hues than here on earth.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was peaceful and quiet when sitting with the Lord. There was an unusual quietness when I was waiting for death despite the hissing ventilators.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Jesus, the living God.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes You would think the light would be blinding, but it isn't. It is a very loving light. The light has all kinds of different hues and colors not seen on earth.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I knew that death was imminent.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others I learned that there is no time for grudges. I needed to learn how to forgive others.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No there was some discussion that I had not done enough on earth and needed to do more.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life the Lord told me that I needed to get back and fight for my life to be there for my family.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant I was raised Catholic and asked for the priest to perform last rights before I went under the ventilator. However, I would consider myself a Christian Protestant.

What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I always believe that there was a God at the end of life. I knew it would be Jesus. I always thought that I would go through a tunnel. I didn't expect to go to a campsite. I wonder if this could have been purgatory? I was raised Catholic, but didn't believe in purgatory. But the campfire made me think that this may be a possibility. I don't really know.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I have forgiven more people and even some of my enemies.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I heard the voice of the living God.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes Jesus

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes that the living God lives.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes Jesus was with me throughout the entire experience; he did not let me go.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes we need to forgive and love one another.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I saw the crucified Christ and worshiped him there, and he took me back to the earthly realm

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes that we must love one another and forgive one another

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I am now writing a book about my experience. I hope to reach many people about my NDE and how God affected my life.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes there are no words to describe the colors I saw. There are no colors like that on earth. I did not see a tunnel. I was at a campsite. It was distressing in that the trees look like the face of death. But the Lord was with me and I did not fear death.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.e experience. I can remember it as if it were yesterday.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I believe I had psychic gifts before the experience.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? My favorite part was lying at the feet of our Lord and that he wouldn't let me go.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it immediately with others. Mostly the reactions have been positive. Some others have not said anything back.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes my father had his own NDE and told his story to me. I wrote about his experience in Guideposts.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I know I spent time with the living God. I feel so special that he chose and gave this special gift to me.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Yes