Eileen B NDE

Experience Description

I was having a simple operation under general anesthesia, rendering me unconscious.

All of a sudden, I was watching them shock my heart and could hear them talking. The next thing I knew, I was speeding down a tunnel. There was a light, far in the distance. At one point, I stopped and hovered there. I remember thinking, 'Oh my God, I'm dying! Please don't let me die here in Germany. It will kill my mom to lose me.'

I remembered being zipped into a long hallway with doors on both sides. A voice told me to open one of the doors, so I did. I walked in the door. There were three men in black with no faces. They made me watch a screen that had the bad things I had done to others in my life. I was shown the all my hurtful actions towards others. Then, I was flying through the universe and just popped back in my body.

I opened my eyes and there were about 10 doctors standing above me. I ended up in the hospital for over a week, so I had a lot of time to think about what had happened. The really weird thing, is when I got back home. I had a popular book from the United States that my mom had sent. It was called 'Life after Life' by Raymond Moody. She had written a note saying, 'I just read this book. I think you will find it fascinating.' I hadn't told her about my NDE until weeks later when I had time to digest what had happened.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1981

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Surgery-related While under general anesthesia Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I heard the doctors and watched them shock my heart. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness I think the same, only it was just different. I found that there were no words, just thoughts.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the movie review of my life

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I had no idea about time.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. completely different

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No audible hearing

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes A brick-looking tunnel like what a train would go through with a light at the end

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Mostly awe

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control just what I was shown on the movie of my life

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life I knew my mom would be devastated if I died.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin Three men in black who sent words through thought

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I'm kinder and more compassionate. I think more before I do anything that may hurt others

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I have always been psychic

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I only shared with my mom for years and told others I was close to

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was more than a dream and I have always had vivid dreams

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No