Ellen F Probable NDE

Experience Description

I was at work at a grocery store, and my brother and his friend came to visit me. They had a drug called 'spice (k2)' that you smoke. I have a weak body and the drug was very strong. I overdosed and passed out in the back of my brother's car. They then left and were gone for at least 10-15 minutes.

I remember seeing my body from above and having no physical feeling at all. I was then sucked downward into an unending tunnel or a vortex. It was very dark and there were red and orange flames everywhere. I was aware that I was dying and was frantic, but could not escape and come back or wake up. There was the strongest emotional and spiritual feeling of being oppressed in every possible way. It is almost unexplainable how much emotional pain I felt. It was almost as if every negative feeling I had ever felt in my life were being forced on me at once.

Flashes of my past and terrible choices and mistakes I had made flew by me. I also saw faces of my family members, they were all crying. I knew I was going to hell, and it was a million times worse than I had ever imagined. There was no physical pain but I was being tortured emotionally for everything wrong I had ever done in life. In the spiritual world, this seemed to go on for many years, yet I was somehow aware that it was only minutes on earth. I remember being sorry for all the things I had done and having complete regret. I then was pulled out of the tunnel and hovered in light. I heard someone who, I believe, was God. He was telling me I was being saved and given a second chance at life. I immediately felt peace and could feel my body again.

A few minutes later my brother came back and shook me until I woke up.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 'October 13, 2012'

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Drug or medication overdose 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' I had overdosed on a dangerous synthetic drug and was unconscious.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely distressing

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal The consciousness and alertness was different because it was all spiritual and emotional.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I believe it was during the torture in the tunnel.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning It seemed to be a whole different kind of time. The experience seemed to last for a very long time yet time was frozen.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was a different kind of vision, not physical.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing seemed dulled or muffled.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

The experience included: Tunnel

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I was being sucked down into an unending tunnel.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw the faces of my living family members. I also saw my boyfriend crying and I kept telling him I was sorry.

The experience included: Darkness

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes At the end when I was pulled out, there was an angelic light surrounding me.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm It was a spiritual realm that I believe was hell.

The experience included: Hellish imagery

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? An overwhelming intensity of every negative emotion possible.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I understood immediately what was happening, that I was being punished for the way I lived my life. I understood that the spiritual world does not have the same concept of passing time like earth does.

The experience included: Life review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future I saw the faces of my family members and boyfriend in mourning over my death.

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will It wasn't a conscious decision by me; I was pulled out of the tunnel and given a second chance at life.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist I was raised Christian but at the time of the experience, I denied belief in god and any spirituality.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I was always doubtful of God, but now I know for sure he is real.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I immediately believed in the existence of God and of heaven and hell. My values changed from not having any to living an honorable life.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain I believe the voice could have been Jesus.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably does not exist

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes God was there for a moment when he rescued me and gave me my life back.

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I was shown where I would go because of sin and told I was being given a second chance at life.

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I was being taken to hell and was rescued by god who told me I was being given a second chance.

Did you fear death prior to your experience? Unknown

Do you fear death after your experience? I moderately fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes I was shown all the negative aspects of my past including sin and pain.

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Not compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. A month after my experience, my parents sent me to a Christian boarding school where I was changed significantly. I then got married to my boyfriend and am expecting a baby. I am a completely different person now. I quit drugs, drinking, and smoking. I take God a lot more seriously now and realize the significance that our choices on earth make.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes I care more about the people close to me than I did before.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I can still remember the experience very vividly where as other memories around the time have faded.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my brother and best friend after it happened. My brother believed me and is also a Christian. My friend was skeptical.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It remained the same.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still view it the same.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I have had a few dreams about the experience.