Emily W NDE

Experience Description

At age 40, I was newly partnered with a man who had never had a child. I knew we were destined to be together, because the first time I laid eyes on him, a voice in my head said, 'THERE you are.' I felt like a search was over. After a year together, I said to him, 'Do you want a child?' and he said, 'Let's do it.' I had 4 children from a previous marriage, so this was my gift to him. My twins, born 7 years prior, were delivered by planned caesarian, but the two eldest were natural births. I wasn't afraid that my previous scar would open up during this birth, as I was told the scar was established now and there was no risk of tearing with contractions. A week before due date, I went to the hospital and told them I had a vision of the scar tearing open and asked to have a caesarian birth. They told me it wasn't possible with the due date so close and it would be fine. 5 days later, my water broke while I was at home. I was raced to the hospital with mild contractions. After a few hours in the birthing suite, I started getting strong contractions. The pain was so intense, I was shaking. I explained to the midwives that my first two children were born naturally, without any drugs, so I knew what child birth pain was like. I told them this pain WAS NOT IT. They laughed at me and left me.

For 11 hours, bleeding to death internally. My baby was flat-lining, constantly in fetal distress from swallowing blood. My partner was so traumatized by my desperate pleas for help, that he has to leave the building. Finally, one of the midwives realized something was truly wrong. She found a surgeon and dragged him down to the suite I was in. He took one look at me and called a code. He was screamed at the staff that I was dying. There was total chaos with staff everywhere. They literally picked me up off the bed I was on and THREW me onto a trolley. Within 2 minutes, I was in theatre. The surgeon stuck his face in mine and said, 'We are going to have to knock you out. You are dying and your baby is too.' I told him to do whatever he needed to save my baby. They had a monitor on my stomach for his heart beat, and it started beeping again. He told me that they would give me an epidural instead as I was too close to death for a general to be safe. I don't know what drug they gave me for pain, but by now I was feeling ok and just nodded. My son was born, and they worked on him. Then I went unconscious.

I found myself in an endlessly foggy room. There were no walls and no ceiling that I can remember. It was like I was in the center of clouds.

God walked up to me and gave me a huge, beautiful smile. I was in no way shocked by his presence. It was a familiarity beyond any I knew on earth. He embraced me and told me he was so happy to see me. His voice, was the most familiar thing to me because I knew it. It was like every voice I had ever heard through my entire life, molded into one resonance. He walked a few meters with me while we were still in this cloud space; and we talked.

I can't remember a lot of what we spoke about. But I felt the PROFOUND sadness that he felt for how humanity acts towards each other. There was no anger, just a deep, painful disappointment and sadness. God is pure love. He has no capability of the God described in biblical myth. The God I was speaking to would never opt for revenge and punishment on his creations. His skin shone and sparkled with an intensely bright light; like nothing on earth. The light was the brightest of bright, but not glaring.

He told me the things that made him happy. Among these things was people showing kindness to each other, helping each other, and loving each other. He told me of how forgiveness was so important. He conveyed to me that if humanity were to survive, the only way would be through love. He explained that love was like an infection that would be able to take over and consume the darkness that was prevalent on earth. I could feel the love he had for me and for every soul. He told me that I was part of him, and that he was part of me and every soul on earth. We were all one and connected.

I don't remember anything else, except waking up in recovery. I was so cold and chilled to my bones. My teeth cracked because they were chattering that badly. A nurse that was next to me ran off to get me some heated blankets. It must have taken me at least an hour to stop shaking and warm up.

The surgeon came and spoke to me. He told me that internally I was a mess. He did what he had to do to save my life, but I would never be able to have more children. He warned me that if I became pregnant, it would kill me. My son had been thrown into the arms of his father in the hall, while they worked on saving my life. My partner told me it was hours until they told him I would be ok. He had never held a baby in his life and the whole experience was traumatic for him. When they finally wheeled me up into a room, they brought my son into me. Our eyes locked and this flash came across them. It was the look that I knew when I had met his father a year earlier. It was, 'Ahh, there you are.'

I believe God touched me again a few years ago, but it wasn't an NDE. But I do believe it was related because of the bond I had retained from my NDE experience.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 02/02/2013

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Childbirth Emergency Caesarian

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I felt like I was my authentic being and in the place I and everyone else belonged. It was as if my earthly experience was a necessary one, but not the true story of our existence

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Yes definitely

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I haven't got more to add to my story above.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I haven't got more to add to my story above.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Explained above

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I have detailed this already

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths: I wasn't brought up with any religion. My mother was esoteric. I read a Bible when I was maybe 9 or so and adopted God. As life went on, I saw other religions and took little parts of them that resonated.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes My definitive knowledge of our true existence and connectedness has given me a sense of obligation to share the knowledge of God

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated: I only go to church when I want to ask something special from God. For instance, when I visited St Peters in Rome, I prayed for twin girls, within a month I was pregnant with twin girls. I was baptized Greek orthodox when I married a Greek man at age 21, but I have tried to follow more of a Buddhist philosophy in life, while still believing in God

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I had always tried to be a good loving person. But now I KNOW that every act of love, no matter how small, is so important. My understanding of our oneness has made me feel a little responsible for informing others. I believe that if enough people realize this, that it will change the world

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them. There were two male angels behind God, several meters away. They seemed to be busy. I didn't pay them any attention, and they paid me none.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes I knew the being I met was God, our creator. He didn't need to introduce himself. I knew him and he knew me more deeply than any earthly connection I have ever had; except it was so much more. I remembered his face in detail for many months, but now I can't recall it. He did have a robe on, like one would see the Christian Jesus wear.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I don't remember if he told me, or if I just remembered, because I had a lot of clarity there at the time. I knew about our existence, but also knew that THAT was the reality. I knew that life on earth was like playing with an avatar, but had so much importance for experience; why we had to experience was not something I believe I knew.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Described in my experience story above.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I spoke to him and recognized him.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes As above

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes I just knew. It was the feeling of being returned to my authentic state

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes As above

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love is the only thing that matters. Love, kindness, and caring for each other makes God happy. Even with strangers, small acts of love can change someone's whole life

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? I understand that empathy is my gift and it's given to me to help others

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain There was my encounter that I mentioned earlier; where I was due to have surgery, 2 or 3 years ago, for an infected milk duct. The hospital sent me home at 11pm to prep for 7am surgery, and I started crying as I was driving, and asked God to help me, because I was terrified of surgery. A voice came, and clearly and loudly said to me, 'BODIES ARE MADE TO HEAL THEMSELVES.' I nearly ran off the road, thinking someone was in the back seat. But then it came again, 'BODIES ARE MADE TO HEAL THEMSELVES.' I gave it a moment's thought while being totally freaked out. Then it came again and again, until I started repeatedly saying it out loud. First, it was WITH the voice, and then, the voice disappeared, and it was just me saying it. By the time I got home, I knew what I had to do. I got up at 9am, went shopping for all the food I had to eat, made soup with some of it, and the others either nibbled or made raw salads with, and slept, with hz frequency playing in head phones. At 11pm, now 2 days after the hospital release, I walked back into emergency. I apologized for missing surgery the day before, and asked them to take a look at my breast. What had previously been twice the size, bright red and hot, unable to be fixed with IV antibiotics 3 times a day, and had given me blood poisoning. There was literally, almost nothing to see except the pen marks they had made to gauge the spreading rate of the infection. They nearly fell over when they saw me. I told them of my experience and they looked like I had lost my marbles.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Maybe a year. I just felt like it was so personal, and that I had to process it

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had no personal knowledge, only that there was a thing called NDE. After my grandfather died, I was devastated that I hadn't told him how much I loved him. I had a dream that was not a dream. It was real. I found him in a church, and we embraced. I told him that I had regret that I didn't tell him how much I loved him. He comforted me and told me, in his sweet soft voice, that 'It's okay love, I know.' I woke being able to still feel the pressure from his embrace. This was not an NDE, but it was an experience of another realm that was real.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I felt it, it was more real than life here on earth. I've always sort of felt like something was not real in life, like I was playing a part in a movie. My experience showed me that I was in some respect, right about that.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It altered my way of being; not really my way of acting, because I've always tried to be good and loving. But now, I know WHY it's so important

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I think some of the questions were a little complicated in the formation. My comprehension of language is good, and some of them were tricky.

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