Evan B NDE

Experience Description

Just prior to the experience, I was about to have sexual intercourse, when I had a seizure. I became dizzy and lay down, and closed my eyes.

At first what I saw looked like the snow on a TV, but I was kind of sucked in closer and closer and it looked more like atoms; even closer: electrons and protons. Eventually what I was seeing looked exactly the same as a depiction of String Theory. At that point, I was sucked into the universe, which from my point of view, was within/ inside me. Everything in the universe was me. I felt every atom, every particle. Consciousness was universal. Even though I was alive, I had been disconnected from the universal consciousness. Something happened to time which I cannot describe.

Then I heard the voice, ‘This is peace; this is love; this is truth. You know what this is. You have been here before. You will be here again. Accept it, and let yourself enter it. It is time to come back.’ It wasn't necessarily verbal communication, but more of another sense, one that we do not have when we are alive. In this experience, I saw that this life is extremely short. Life and Death had new meanings. Life was suffering, and Death was pure pleasure. I did not want to come back to life, I was afraid of it, like someone is afraid of death. I despised life; it was removed from the truth, the love, the peace, and the pleasure. Life meant Death to me. Death meant everything good. But someone saved me. I was brought back, it was painful, and it felt foreign, sharp, unkind, and jolting.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 07/12/2008

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Other: I don't know if my heart stopped or if I stopped breathing. I had a seizure. I had never had one, and that is the only one I ever had.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal All senses morphed into a supreme sense, one that could know the other dimensions.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I heard the voice, and accepted death.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Something happened to time that I cannot describe

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was morphed into another sense, one that knew the other dimensions.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It, also, was morphed into another sense, one that knew the other dimensions.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

The experience included: Tunnel

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes If we had a better vocabulary, I wouldn't describe it as a tunnel. But that is the closest word we have for it.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm It was familiar, but not ‘mystical or unearthly’. It made sense.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt true love, true wisdom, and true pleasure.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I was the universe.

The experience included: Life review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

The experience included: Awareness of the future

Did scenes from the future come to you? No There was not past, future or present.

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Atheist

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin It was the voice of the universe, my voice, because I was the universe.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No All beings were one. I was everyone, and everything.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes Awareness of another dimension

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No The universe was a supreme being, and I was the universe

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Only that death has real meaning.

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No Only death has real meaning

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I knew that I would at some point return to life, but not for a very long time.

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I slightly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are not meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes life is suffering

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes death is love

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Uncertain

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I am a scientific person, so I describe it in scientific terms. A religious person would describe the things I experienced in religious terms. For example I think the voice would be recognized as god, and the atomic particles may be recognized as angels.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Extremely good intuition.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Death is good

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it years later. The reaction was ‘understanding’.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Yes, life is suffering. Death is love.