Farnaz R Possible NDE

Experience Description

I was at the end of my monthly period. It had just finished and I went to take a shower. My head was very dizzy, so much so that whenever I closed my eyes I felt like I am spinning. Without saying any thing to the family I went into a room which was cold and dark and slept on a tall pillow. I felt my hands and legs are getting colder. I was unable to lift my hands or call someone and felt like something heavy is on my chest. Until I felt that someone is squeezing my head hard, like two big weights are squashing my head. I was unable to free myself and could hear very loud sounds in my ears so much that I felt my head is about to explode. The sounds didn’t come from outside and were hard to bear.

Suddenly I felt I am traveling with a very high speed up into a tunnel that had orange and yellow color. At the end of the tunnel there was a white light. As I ascended through the tunnel, my speed kept increasing and I could hear a sound. After all these years I can still remember that sound which raises the hair on my skin from the fear. It sounded something like a clock ticking. The faster I travelled, the louder the sound became. I was feeling utter loneliness, the feeling that I won’t see my parents anymore and everything ended so easily. Fear that I don’t know where I am going. I asked God with my whole existence to please return me. I felt I was thrown back into my body but came back to consciousness gradually and sat up.

I dragged myself to the kitchen and drunk some water and started to feel better. I could not sleep shot my eyes for three nights from the fear. I could not even talk about it. After a few years I read about NDEs in a magazine and got scared when I realized I had gone to the edge of dying. After that some stuff were happening to me, but it was not NDE, it was harassment from some entities.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: سال ۸۶

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain فک میکنم افت فشار بیش از حد Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening I think sudden and severe drop of blood pressure.

How do you consider the content of your experience? نNeither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness It was not much different, but I could think simultaneously about everything.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Before I felt dizzy in my head

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual Faster

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I think it was not much different.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I feel the hearing becomes very acute, and you hear horrendous sounds.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

The experience included: Tunnel

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes An orange colored revolving tunnel, with a light at the end.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place I had a feeling of a strange place in the tunnel, a place of which I was afraid.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Feeling of loneliness, feeling that I have no body and am being separated from my loved ones.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life I was not brave enough to go, and asked God to return me.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Unknown

What was your religion prior to your experience? Muslim

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes A few years later, I researched and thought more about it and got more into religion.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me

What is your religion now? Muslim

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I don’t know if my experience was real death or not. But it is true that death happens unexpectedly and takes us suddenly. In my religion it is stressed a lot to think about death. But it is said that an angel will come to take your soul, but I didn’t see such a thing. Maybe it was not real death.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I became more religious a few years later.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I moderately fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love for my parents who didn’t let me go.

Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life Maybe I was fooling myself that this was just a nightmare, although I knew it was even more real than my normal daily life. But I was trying to forget it. I thought about it more deeply later, and analyzed it and studied it. It caused me to become more religious and not to be too greedy and don’t complain about life.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I cannot describe those sounds and the pressure I was feeling. They don’t exist normally.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I was having strange dreams and there were creatures that harassed me and had entered into my life. Later I realized how to fight them. Also, similar experiences….

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes One year later I told my mom and she said it must have been just a nightmare and don’t take it seriously. 3 years later, I read about a similar experience in a magazine. I told my story later to some of my friends who thought I have some special power and were amazed and suggested that I talk to a religious authority about my experience and dreams.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definately not real Since there was no one to explain what happened to me, I just tried to forget it.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definately not real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Some creatures harassed me.