Gerardo NDE

Experience Description

I have been living in Australia for about 13 years. I was home alone because I asked my wife to go and buy me a diet coke. The store was 300 metres away from home. I estimated she would have been back in about 15 minutes.

I tried to kill myself by strangulation. There was terrible pain. My eyes were bulging from the blood in my eyes. The neck was bleeding at the time due to the hold of the long string.

My passing over was immediate. I found myself in a place of light and brightness. I was submerged in white light. I was seeing myself from different angles. When I arrived to that place, I found myself with hands open down along the legs. I was amazed at that time by the place I was in. There was a stair with walls lit by white light. I felt the stairway was narrow and I immediately refused to climb it up. In that instant, I thought, 'Here is GOD. The stair is narrow. Therefore my Lord, I'm a sinner. I don't feel the strength with me. I'm afraid of you.' I began to go up the first two steps. It was all brightness. I could feel my consciousness come back and found myself lying on the floor of the bedroom.

I removed the long string and started breathing again with great difficulty. After a while, I could breath better. Half an hour later, my eyes began to get back into their socket. I began to psychologically relax.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 10-6-2010

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Suicide attempt Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening home. I tied a rope around my neck.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal during those moments. I felt it inside me as if I was looking for a way to explain.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? my consciousness was very alert.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. Time involved was that which I needed to explain.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I have seen and felt my soul move into brightness.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was waiting there and felt a pressure to explain.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Everything in a whiteness as it was as soon as I arrived.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. Consciousness and to give explanations

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt an urge to explain.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. It becomes normal trying to meditate with my own consciousness.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Slightly important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic not frequent

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic believer

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I disagreed with myself in that moment but very close to all of you.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes There is nothing comparable in eartly life, it is at the time of passing over. Nowadays, I feel I live in a much more tranquil mood and no more in disagreement.

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life normal

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes sensibility and great carefulness towards the others.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes right now I really think so.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events. I would have never even minimally imagined to find myself in front of the existence

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? consciousness

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My wife, but I prefer to talk about it further again.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I explain what I felt during those moments. I believe it's very probable, certain, that many human beings are much more prepared than me at the time of passing over and about how to explain while in a state of awareness.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I can explain my experience to you without any burden on my conscience

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? sensibility progress towards mankind