Haze NDE

Experience Description

I felt great pain and was unable to move or speak. Then there was whiteness, and then complete peace. I was with my brother and father who are both deceased. I don't remember words from them, just a feeling of total peace and safety. I felt or heard my best friend, Deb, speak when she touched my hand. She said that I had to go back; it wasn't my time. Without question, I rose and went with her. Then I was back with a man who was praying over me. I felt I had not wanted to return, but did return because Deb said so. I had deep peace in me that is hard to explain.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 2002

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I think all of it: I was at peace when as a rule, I am not at peace in real life.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There was no sense of time.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Not sure, but it was scary right before the experience.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Not sure. I had normal hearing before the experience. During the experience, I was clear in what I heard. I sensed and heard at the same time. I don't recall lips moving. I felt and heard with all of me: the immense peace and love.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I saw white, then pure light.

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My father, brother, and best friend

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain It was the purest white, not of this earth.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Light that was pure.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace and love and loved

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe It was all good.

The experience included: Life review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths i am spiritual not religious

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I'm stronger in my knowing of God.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths spiritual

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience not sure

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I'm more at peace, not so afraid.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes i felt all

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably existsÂ

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes just knew total sense

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I am needed.

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably existsÂ

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes a knowing

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Unknown

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes is all

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Large changes in my life: peace.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Uncertain I am a better person.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain I can't say what happened but I remember the deep sense of peace

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience i still feel the experiance

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I seem to be able to really help people, who are facing death, to find peace.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Deb, the love I felt, and acceptance of having to return.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My daughter, she was grateful I returned. It was a couple years later, it strengthened her belief.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain I knew of NDEs, I didn't disbelieve, but maybe didn't think about. My first experience, I believe I was in denial. It consisted of seeing my life and it was awesome. The second time, I didn't share or speak about it because I didn't want the experience to be made less.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I think I didn't share, not because it wasn't real, but because it was so mine, for a time I maybe didn't accept the reality but knew.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It was real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No