Heikki A NDE

Experience Description

My stomach ruptured due to internal pressure. I had gone through surgery, where upper part of stomach is wrapped around an esophagus, and the fundus works as a closing mechanism for a lower esophageal sphincter. This stops stomach acids from rising up to gullet. The fundus was so tight that it prevented everything going up from stomach to gullet, including burbs. I also use a sleep apnea machine and as a side effect, it pumped air into my stomach. Thus, when my rectum got clogged, my stomach and intestines got filled with air. Due the fundus closing-mechanism at my lower esophageal sphincter, the air couldn’t come out via my mouth. Three weeks earlier I had been in the hospital because of the same kind of clogging. The clog was successfully removed with a naso-gastric tube.

At the afternoon of April, 21, 2016, I felt how my stomach was getting clogged again. The clog got worse due gasses from digestion. When the ambulance arrived, I was already in such a bad condition that I couldn’t walk. A fire department’s car arrived. With the help of its crew, I was carried inside the ambulance. I was taken from my home to the hospital’s emergency room. The initial diagnose was a clog in the intestines. The hospital staff tried to put naso-gastro tube on but failed because the pressure inside of my stomach was too strong.

At this point my memories end and the next part is from the hospital’s records. I was kept in the emergency room from 10 pm to 12:30 am. After that I was taken to MRI, where I had lost my consciousness fully. My heart and breathing had stopped. One scan had been taken. After that, I had been intubated in the MRI-room. Then I had been taken to an operating room where my stomach had been opened up. Lots of pressure and air had been released from my stomach and after that my condition had gotten better, even my intestines had been bloated from the amount of air.

At MRI-room, right after intubation, I was given CPR but it had been really difficult. There was so much pressure and air in my stomach that the pumped air in CPR didn’t go all to way to my lungs, which had gotten smaller due the operation. I was given CPR for 65 minutes and after that, my surgical operation took around 2 hours. After that, my surgical anesthesia was continued while I remained in an artificial coma and I was placed in the intensive care unit (ICU).

After waking up, I had a strong sensation of a motherly love that had been given to me. I had never experienced anything like that. I also have a lingering memory of a giant, white circle and how my deceased mother and brother were standing behind it. I couldn’t go on the other side of that circle.

The next day, my spouse came to see me and the doctor had told them that they had had problems with me. After another day, I was slowly brought back to consciousness around the afternoon. I stayed at ICU until the next day and then I was taken to a regular unit for the next 10 days. After that I got to go back home.


Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 22.4.2016

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes CPR given. Stomach rupture, heart and breathing stopping. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function).

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. I feel that my level of consciousness was normal.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Normal.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. I was not in a hurry because there was no need to go or rush anywhere .

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Normal

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Normal

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

The experience included: Passing into or through a tunnel

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I might have been in a tunnel when I encountered that White Circle.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I recognized my mother and brother far away.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an Unearthly light? Uncertain. I saw that there was bright light behind the circle.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place. I was on the earthly side of that white circle.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was thankful and happy that they existed in the spirit world.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. I understood that deceased ones where behind that line-of-no-crossing.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a Boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes The white circle that I saw. I had a feeling that I couldn’t approach or cross it.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Especially after reading Anita Moorjani’s book and watched her video from Youtube. I noticed we shared many similarities in experiences, especially at the time right after waking up from coma.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant. After reading Anita Moorjani’s book, I felt that she had experienced similar feelings as I had. The difference was that her experiences had been greater than mine. Yet, we shared many similar things. After that, I’ve started to think there are other options than the ones taught to us.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I have believed for a long time that our mortal body will eventually die, but our consciousness keeps on living in an another dimension.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes, they did. I left all masks, fake-acting, hypocrisy, and etc. behind. If people aren’t genuinely and openly who they are, I don’t bother with them. experience

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I feel that I lived my current life, but I had arrived to a boarder which I wasn’t allowed to cross.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Yes, I think an universal connection exists.

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? Unknown

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain I still do not know why I was given a new opportunity to live and wonder how should I use it.

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists. Yes, I saw my dead loved ones on the other side of a white circle; from my viewpoint they were further away from the circle than I was

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I was showered with enormous amounts of love, which helped me to heal from the operation.

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I’m not in a hurry anymore. Meeting anyone else besides my relatives doesn’t interest me much anymore. I have hard-time with concentrating on others’ conversations. All useless, not-important matters have dropped off from my life. Only the company where people believe in life after death feels like an important goal for me to meet.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes, somewhat. I’ve noticed that people don’t want to talk about it with me anymore.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I have long forgotten everything else which happened in the hospital, including names. But I will always remember that white circle, the loved ones I saw and the love which is known as the energy of the Other World.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I can’t pinpoint an exact time for this. After I woke up, I felt a huge mother’s love radiating inside of me.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I talked about this with nurses at the hospital. Only one of them joined my conversation and agreed upon a life continuing after death. Other people, whom I have shared my experience and thought of life continuing after death with, have thought I’m crazy. I won’t tell anyone about my NDE anymore if the environment isn’t suitable for it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes For the most part of my life, I have known that life does continue after death. But how that happened, wasn’t clear to me prior my experience. I went decades ago to meet medium Svea Richnau. Back then, I was convinced that the spirit world does exist.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. That kind of mother’s love, which I was given by the spirit world that I can’t be or can’t give to others myself. It definitely wasn’t a dream or imagination.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Same as earlier, I have always believed it to be real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? If the computer as automatic translation application on, some of the questions change their format. It would be a good addition to mention that people should turn their translation application off before taking this survey in their native language.