Helen E NDE

Experience Description

I had been hemorrhaging due to a contraceptive (which soon after was pulled off the market). As my gynecologist had told me not to worry about the bleeding, I stayed home even though I was bleeding so severely that I was lying on a plastic sheet with several bath towels under me. Finally, the second night, when I went to the bathroom, I felt myself passing out and called my husband for help. My voice sounded very week and I thought he would never wake up in time.

I apparently fell to the floor. Immediately I was in a realm of such unbelievable beauty. There were all the colors of the rainbow and astounding music (I later thought of it, as a difference of such magnitude as exists between rap and Mozart and Mozart to this music. I was completely surrounded by absolute love and bliss.

Then, I became aware that my husband was calling me as if from a great distance and slapping my face, which I could not feel. An inner voice said I had a choice whether I wanted to go back to earthly life and my small daughter and my husband or to 'stay.' (At this time I felt, that I was going back through a sort of tunnel.) Obviously, I chose the latter. I then was rushed to the hospital, but I knew that I was not in danger anymore.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: '1969,or 1970'

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Other: 'husband found me unresponsive on the floor, after passing another large blood clot'

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal There was no separation between me and the experience, no filter.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was at the same level of awareness.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Complete vision.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Well, I certainly fully experienced the music.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Yes, on the way back.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Colors that do not exist here.

The experience included: A landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Complete love and feeling of flying in a sea of bliss.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I just WAS.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant left Christianity, Buddistic inclinatin

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths strong associatiorn with Christ, but not Bible based.Have had expeiences of past lifes.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes does exist

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably exists┬

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes i was somewhere and that somewhere i would consider God(ess)

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists┬

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I slightly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I am never afraid of death. When my son died, I knew that for him he was in the hands of the divine. This experience changed the course and quality of my life completely.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I feel my memory of this expierence is as fresh as ever, not changing

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Mystical experience of heart opening through Christ. Past life recall.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I wish that every being could 'know' this experience and live essentially without fear of judgment. There is only LOVE that is the essence of the universe.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Immediately, with my husband and with people who are important to me or who want to know.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real There was just never any doubt.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain A mystical experience, but even while that was happening I never left the body behind.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? As I was not under medical care when this happened, some people question whether I was really 'dead,' but to me there was a transition from one state of being (fear just before collapsing) to bliss and then back to an acceptance, that was clearly different than before.