Hellen C Probable NDE

Experience Description:

I had been ill for two days and the doctor had misjudged the seriousness of my disease. When on the second day my son arrived, I could just crawl up the stairs and lie upon my bed. Once on the bed, I felt like sinking further away. The huge pain disappeared, as did the concerns and anxiety. The only thing that remained was a feeling of peace. I floated through something towards a light. The feeling there was lovely! Peace, affection and an intense feeling of love. No stress, anxiety, worries or battle. I stood before three men who sent me back; behind them was a friend of mine who had passed away. I couldn't reach her. I was woken up, as what seemed to be several hours later, by my son. Only when I could see the panic in his eyes I realized that I was dying and something had to happen.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 7-3-2006

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' Severely ill, stomach infection.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal The earthly way of looking at things subsides. In that way, it seems as if you have an objective and much bigger look on reality than you normally do.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster than usual My regular sense of time was gone, or so it seemed. My experience only lasted a very short time, but afterwards I was informed that I was out for a period of about two hours.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more so

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Neither

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No I floated through something, but whether that was a tunnel isn't clear.

Did you see any beings in your experience? Saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Three men who stood before me and sent me back. Behind them stood a friend of mine who passed away a couple of years ago.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A very clear, all-encompassing light.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Clearly mystical or unearthly realm

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, happiness.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? United, one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? Neither

Did scenes from the future come to you? From personal future It seemed as if I've gotten a task. Until now it isn't clear whether my interpretation of this task is correct.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? A barrier I was not permitted to cross; or 'sent back' to life involuntarily

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate 'geen, hoogstens spirituele'

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain Too little time has lapsed to judge my view. At this moment I have enough difficulties living life as it is.

What is your religion now? Moderate spiritueel

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain Too little time has lapsed to judge my view. At this moment I have enough difficulties living life as it is.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? Saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Kind of a spiritual overview.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I notice I react less stable to other peoples' emotions.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The experiences are hard to put into words as there are really no words for the feelings I had. This is the same for the environment that I encountered, there's just no earthly comparison to it.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Stronger sensitivity although this was already present before.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The feeling.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Six weeks. Reactions seem to remain shallow; I notice I can't describe the intense feelings I had.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes As a therapist I had theoretic knowledge of the NDE and what the consequences of it may be on your life.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Something in me has changed. I used to have a very positive attitude and joie de vivre. Now I have difficulties enjoying everything again. And this while every reason to be happy is present.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? What I miss in a lot of experiences and stories on the net is the effect on your daily life. I suffer from some kind of depression, of which I can't find much in other stories. Until now, I can't be happy with the experience.