Hildred C NDE

Experience Description

It was supposed to be a simple hysterectomy. My husband, who had a stroke was also hospitalized at the same hospital. For the sake of my children, I told the doctors that perhaps I should postpone my surgery because I did not want them to worry about both of us. My eldest child was not in the country, the second eldest did not live in the area, and the third, 18 years old, lived with his father and witnessed the stroke.

Both doctors agreed it was okay to have the surgery. Apparently, I was fatally allergic to the anesthetic. There was no one waiting for me when I got out of surgery, which is important because no one was there to be informed that I was in the ICU. I guess I never came to, as the next thing I remember is this vision:

I was in a small room, lying on a cart. There was a doctor in khakis and a corpsman in whites. The doctor was very upset and was ordering the corpsman to get him things. I was above them, very calm, and witnessed what they were doing. I felt sorry for them; I kept thinking, "Oh, don't worry. It's okay." The doctor then said he had to give me a shot in the heart and apparently did.

I felt very peaceful and began to move forward toward a light. I really wanted to go and not stop. The next thing I knew, I was awake and did not remember the NDE until weeks later. I was heavily medicated.

I didn't talk about it to anyone because I thought it was some kind of dream. The doctor told me that I had a hard time after surgery. He told me to make sure the medication name was in RED on my chart and that I should never be given it again. No one was told that I had been taken to the ICU.

Years later, when I decided to have bunion surgery, my daughter who was a nurse called to find out what that medication was before the doctor would schedule the surgery. When we received the files and found the name of the medication, we were told that they do not use that medication anymore.

In reading the file and the results of my surgery, nothing was mentioned about my being in the ICU. I know it happened and I do talk about it. The outcome for me is that I am not afraid to die. I can still feel that pull towards something beautiful and how much I wanted to go there. I can still feel the hovering over that doctor and his assistant and how sorry I was that they were so upset. I wanted them to know that I was going to be okay. I do believe that there is someplace we go that is beautiful.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1971

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes could not verify due to the fact that it was not documented. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. I didn't feel that way as it was just another experience to me.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? when I was going to the light.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. I passed from the scene of the doctor trying to save me, to go forward slowly to that beautiful place.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I think I was apprehensive about the surgery due to the circumstances and felt somewhat fearful and alone

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard clearly what the doctor was saying.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain Hard to describe as I was going to something like a tunnel or light.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. It was just a beautiful place that I wanted to be.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt sorry for the doctor and happy to go where it was leading me

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. I was not afraid of anything.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. I didn't want to come back because I wanted to keep going.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I totally believe there is afterlife

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I have always believed there is an afterlife.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes More compassion and understanding.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Aware that there is a good place that exists.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes During the experience I didn't think about God. I just knew it was a good place to go.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes After the encounter I felt no fear of life or death.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes I was aware that if I went there it would be beautiful.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I felt I would be loved

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life. I think I became more compassionate towards others.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? More patient with people.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I remember my OBE as well as the life problems that were going on at the time.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I seem to have some direct lines to some people. For instance, I seem to know if they want to hear from me.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? That I am not afraid of dying.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It was several months before I shared it with someone who said they believed in it. I was afraid people would not believe me and think I was a kook.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain I had probably heard about and have always been interested in things like that.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I was very sure it was real because of the feeling of peace

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I was very sure it was real because of the feeling of peace.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? no

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Many of the questions are duplicates; make it shorter.

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