Jason S NDE

Experience Description

When I was 18 years old, I hung myself. I was only testing the strength of my 'electrical cord noose,' but as soon as I did, it was as if I had jumped instead. I didn't experience or don't remember the 'hanging and dying' part.

I do remember that as soon I died, it was like I was in a timeless, distorted reality where the entire experience happened at that point. I felt like I'd been in super slow motion forever without even a second passing and yet, happening all at once.

I've only told this to my wife, mother, and father. I'll probably get told I should've kept it that way, but it's the honest truth.

As soon as the experience started and I was 'dead', I knew it. Four shadows grabbed me as I thought they were dragging me to hell. I prayed a word or two to GOD and the shadows disappeared. I was a conscious dead person. I could see my body hanging.

Time seemed to return to normal, but I still had a feeling coursing through me that I don't expect to feel until I die again. I turned and went towards the house where my mom was alone and sleeping. As I went to step up the front steps, my foot went through it and touched the ground. I panicked and then resigned that I was dead. I walked through the steps and through the house, literally. The floor is about waist-high on me because the house was set up high. I stood at the foot of my Mom's bed telling her that I was sorry about being dead. Then it was like time stopped, twisted around and bent backwards.

All of a sudden, I'm on the ground coughing, with my mom crying while wiping my face with a wet cloth. I was alive! Every blood vessel in each eye had popped. I looked like a demon. But I was alive and back in my body. My mom was only 4' 8" and didn't weigh much over a 100lbs, yet she was able to pick up my 155 lb body and remove the cord. I'm ashamed of trying to commit suicide.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 1995

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Suicide attempt Other: I was dead. I hung myself.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. I was aware that I was dead. I was very alert. It was very real. I sometimes wonder if there really is a multiverse and I died in that one as well as several 'close calls' throughout life.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? After I was dead and was released by the dark shadows. Then it was like reality except it was like I described.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time didn't apply

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Blurred and slow motion until later in the experience when things warped and bent into each other. It's very hard to explain the experience.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Distorted but very sharp

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Terror and dread with the Realization that I was really dead. Afraid that I was going to hell. Even though I never experienced any hellish sights other than the four shadows dragging me. I was afraid they were about to take me somewhere 'bad' like hell.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know None

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated. I believe myself to be a Christian although I'm not affiliated.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I didn't expect to happen what did. I expected to go to hell without being given a chance considering I killed myself. But apparently Gods Love is so great he sometimes gives you a second chance even when you die.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes When this was happening to me, I was very aware that yes God is real. I had an overwhelming feeling of 'yes, He is real' and I was (and still am) in his hands, as we all are.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists. I saw my body hanging. If I hadn't been able to say 'God help me please,' I think I was about to be taken to hell. I don't know why God has spared me so much.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Uncertain. All I know from my experience is that if I live a bad life, I Will go to a literal Hell or to Heaven if I am a good person.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I'm more cautious in the things I do and say.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Time wasn't the same. And I definitely feel/know that what you are experiencing is real.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I remember this during my life in that year more than anything else.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I know it was real.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes About 20 years. I don't feel most people believe me. I haven't told many.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes From reading.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. My mother can verify everything to the best of her ability.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I hung myself. I died and was given another chance. It really is that simple. Why I was given a chance? I don't know.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Be a good person to the best of your ability.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Put me under hypnosis if you want?