Jayne J Probable NDE

Experience Description

I was undergoing aneurysm surgery. The surgeon didn’t realize he had cut out the other side of the artery. Nothing was noticed until I was in recovery when I awoke in horrendous pain. I was rushed back to surgery. I awoke again in intense pain with massive internal bleeding, so they took me back to surgery for a second attempt to repair the damage.

I found myself in a very dark place, but with a bright light coming from underneath me. I could see the edge of a bed or platform slightly lit by the light. I suddenly thought, 'Oh, I’m dying.' I realized that I felt ok with dying. I was very calm and wasn't afraid. Suddenly, I was worried who would tell my daughter and son that I was ok with dying. I was moving towards the end of the tunnel and knew that reaching the end meant death for me.

I woke up. I thought about my experience and how it was very vivid and not like being in a dreamlike state. I immediately started to make drawings of the experience. There were no god-like figures, just an amazing serenity.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: February 2020

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death. Femoral artery damaged caused me to bleed out.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. It wasn’t any different from my waking consciousness

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole time

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual. Time was slower.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The same

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don’t remember hearing anything

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes. I was moving slowly through the tunnel but stopped after considering my concerns.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place. I knew I was moving through a tunnel

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt serenity and then concern.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. I was worried that my children would not know that I was ok with dying

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Atheist

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain. I’m now confused.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Immediately I was awake and able to speak

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes General knowledge of what NDE is.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was not a dream and was most definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I think about it often

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? My experience is mixed up with PTSD as I was wide awake and aware of the severity of the situation