JH Probable NDE

Experience Description

In 1980, when I was 31 years old, I lost my 5 month old son in the womb.

I had an infection and my doctor decided to deliver my son by caesarian section. Unfortunately, his lungs weren’t developed enough so he died.

When I got back to my room, I experienced an out of body experience.

I left my body and I was hovering over my bed. I saw four or five nurses and possibly a doctor trying to revive me. They had white coats on, which was the usual attire back then.

Then I felt myself being lifted up to Heaven. I wasn’t in pain and I wasn’t afraid. It was very peaceful.

When I got halfway there, I asked God, 'But what about Randall?' He was my husband at the time, and I know I wanted to come back and be of help to him because he had mental health issues.

I felt as if God said, 'OK!!' Then I felt myself being let go and I slowly drifted back down into my body again.

Now, 37 years later, I don’t remember if I awoke at this point and saw the nurses reviving me or not. I think I did, though.

I do know that I had an awesome sense of just how BIG GOD IS, and that we are as ants compared to Him. I remember telling myself, 'Don’t ever forget how BIG GOD IS.' And I haven’t forgotten.

The next day, or a few days after this happened, I thought, 'Oh, I must have been carried by angels' because they let go of my spirit when I asked to come back. It was very CLEAR that I was gently let go of and I started drifting back down to Earth.

I never saw anything. I didn’t see God and I didn’t see Heaven. I didn’t see a tunnel of light, nor angels. It was all just feelings, but without any fear. It was VERY PEACEFUL!

The ironic part of it all was that Randall, my husband, was unbearable when I returned. So, I had to divorce him. I really wasn’t a help to him that I know of. That part has always rather confused me. He was on medication that made him do bizarre things.

We both eventually remarried.

The message of my near-death experience has stuck with me through the years and is as vivid today as when it happened.


Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1980

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Childbirth. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) I had an infection during pregnancy and my doctor decided to deliver my son by caesarian section. Unfortunately, his lungs weren’t developed enough to make it, and he died.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. Same as everyday consciousness.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? It was the same throughout.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual. Normal time, but at the beginning and end I felt I was going up to Heaven slowly and being let down slowly.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn't see anything, it was all felt.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The same level of hearing.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes God.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I felt I was going to Heaven via the sky.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Incredible peace.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. I had a higher understanding of things about the universe and God's wisdom during my NDE that I don't remember now. I also felt and knew HOW BIG GOD IS, and I have never forgotten that.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Other Christian

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I am more religious.

What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. Since I didn't get to Heaven during the NDE, I can't fully verify this.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I knew God was real for sure.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. The voice I heard was from God.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes We are connected with God and angels.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I had an awesome sense of just how BIG GOD IS, and that we are as ants compared to Him. I remember telling myself, 'Don’t ever forget how BIG GOD IS.' And I haven’t forgotten.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain Coming back to help my husband seemed to be my purpose at the time.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes The moment I thought of my husband at the time, with worry about his well being, I was allowed to come back to Earth. We ended up eventually divorcing, so that is somewhat confusing to me.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists. Yes I was going to Heaven and I definitely encountered God and angels.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Uncertain The moment I expressed concern about my husband, I was allowed to come back. So it seems we can influence whether we leave or stay on earth based on a desire to help others.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Uncertain The moment I expressed concern about my husband, I was allowed to come back. So it seems we can influence whether we leave or stay based on a desire to help others.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I think I had this experience to hold me up for my future. I got thrown into a lot of difficult situations, including divorce.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Feeling how BIG GOD IS.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My niece was very influenced by it. I told her about it when she was 10 years old, and it inspired her to study NDEs and write about them as an adult.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I'd heard of them, but my experience was not like what I'd heard.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? You could ask if there were different stages: beginning, middle and end to the experience.