John B NDE

Experience Description

It started out a night like any other weekend night. But this weekend would be different. My girlfriend, best friend, and I, went to a party. That night I drank an excessive amount of alcohol, swallowed a lot of pills, and was smoking pot. As the night went on, I started getting sick. Since my girlfriend was sober, she drove us home. As we reached home, I tried to tell her that something wasn't right with me. The last thing I remember was my girlfriend asking me, 'What are you saying? I can't understand you.'

The next thing I know, I was out of my body. I was above the streets of the city where we lived. I saw cars, people, stop lights, and everything else. But, it had no meaning to me. I felt free, pure bliss, and peace. I had no thoughts of what just happened. There was no thinking. It was as if I've always been this way. It was nothing like being in a body. I felt no pain. There were no thoughts, but I knew there was something beyond that.

It was also like I was in a gulf/tube, something I knew but hard to explain. It was like glass in between me and the world, but yet I couldn't see it. Although it could not be seen, I knew it was there. It was clear between me and the Earth. It was just natural as if for whatever reason it is supposed to be there.

I looked and was going towards the West. I do not know why, other than what was ahead of me. I had no fear. It was a place I was going to, but I knew if I reached that place that I was not coming back. It was light. It was something that cannot be described by human language. It wasn't a city. But it was like a gulf of some sort that I was to pass through. It seemed like some type of portal. I don't know where it went. I just knew that's where I was going.

I didn't see any other beings, hear a voice, or if I was guided by something other than I just followed and knew where to go. I never saw family members or anything. I'm not sure as to why. As I got closer and closer to this place, I suddenly went back into my body.

I was surrounded by paramedics, my girlfriend was crying and my friend was freaking out. They brought me back from a cardiac arrest. I was taken to the hospital for observations for a few days. I consumed an overly excessive amount of alcohol and pills which brought on ventricular arrhythmia. I never told anyone what happened that night for twenty years.

I only told a few people after that. The main reason is that it's hard to describe with words. Words really can't explain like I want to describe what the experience was. I just do the best I can. I also felt nobody would believe me. It took me even longer to tell my friend that was there about my experience. I told him just a few years ago. He believed me and said, I had no reason not tell him. It was an experience like no other and like so many other NDEs each seems to be their own personal to them. I respect all who has had one. I can relate to them.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 1990

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Cardiac Arrest after too much alcohol and drugs. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. More alive, vivid, peace, no fear or thoughts.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? As soon as I left my body. Immediately.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. I felt there was no time. All things had ceased: thoughts, time, everything. I felt as though I was gone for a long time.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was more real than real. It felt as though I'd always been that way, which is unlike being in a body.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was quietness. Silence.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain. I believe I was in some invisible tunnel I couldn't see. I didn't pass through a tunnel but it was as if I was going to a portal of some sort.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes There was this divide between me and the Earth below. I was in and saw light. I was light.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place. I was already in light going towards another place. Where I was at was not Earth but seemed between Earth, yet in another place at the seem time. I don't mean in any type of way like some purgatory. But I was in a place with no Sun. The outside was dark but I was not in the dark.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? There were no emotions. Those did not exist, nor thoughts only a knowing that I was in pure peace and how it suppose to be.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. That once I left my body, that identity in that body called by John and all that has to do with the brain, is not me and it ceases to exist. We are the eternal, heaven, all in all as one. There is no fear. Death does not exist except for the body/mind.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. As I got close to the point of no return. A place that if I had passed through I would not have came back. But for whatever reason I was brought back. Don't know why.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? No comment I didn't have any kind of religious background or upbringing at the time.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I was not religious or had any kind of experience with religion before the NDE

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I saw things, people, differently than before. More empathy and understanding

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes That I've always existed. It was a knowing.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I knew oneness, immediately out of my body.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes Within me I knew that I was one and there's no separation even though I knew nothing before out of my body anything at all.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes I knew I would go on and exist forever.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I knew a love beyond conditional.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The whole experience is hard to describe. I do the best I can to expound.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Always the joy and peace I felt.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Twenty years the first time.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was so real I couldn't stop thinking about it but didn't know how to express it.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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