John F NDE

Experience Description:

I was at the park for a tree lighting ceremony, as it was around the holidays. I met my ex-wife there and my two adopted children. My son and I had an argument and he said some rude things. Now, I don’t remember what was said. We walked around and then I end up leaving.

When I got in my car, my heart start beating extremely fast and I was losing oxygen. I looked for the address of the closest hospital and start driving. I grab my phone and text my ex-wife. I told her that something is wrong and if something happens to me, let Jayden (my son) know we are good. I was running red lights and punching myself to try to keep myself conscious. As I approached the hospital, I knew I wasn’t going to be able to walk into the emergency room by walking. The last thing I remember is that I didn’t want to hit the window or to hurt someone inside. I went unconscious and hit the hospital wall.

I remember lying my head on the steering wheel and smiling. I always tell people that when my mom died, someone told me she had a smile on her face. It made me feel better. So, I always said if I had the opportunity that’s what I would do.

All the sudden, I felt so good. This happened outside so I didn’t see my own body. My first vision was that I was in a courtyard, running around like I was a kid again. I saw three other boys. Not sure if I was one of the boys or they were kids playing in that area. I saw a man watching over them. After that, I remember floating through a tunnel. Everything was dark, but I felt so much love and peace. I felt like I was familiar with where I was. It felt like I was in space. I was surrounded by love. I’m not sure if I had family members there because I didn’t see any people or anything except space.

I remember telepathically communicating, saying, 'I got to go back. I had an argument with my son. I don’t want him to be sad because the last thing he remembers was us being in an argument. I feel like I had a choice. It was very hard to say that 'I wanted to come back.' It felt so good, right where I was at. It was like I was a star. It’s super-hard to explain, but I have never felt that much love and peace. I woke up three days later in the hospital. The nurse said that I had a VFib and died.

I’m not afraid to die anymore. I was never overly scared of dying. Now I just want to do the best I possibly can for my kids and build a relationship that they are proud of me. My mother died at 48 and I almost didn’t make it to 49. I know I’m here for a purpose.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 11/18/2023

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Heart attack. CPR given. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) I had a heart attack and crashed though hospital wall with my car.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I felt very happy. I feel like I was running around with friends and I was a kid again. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. Absolutely. I feel like everything was enhanced in a better way. It’s just hard to explain. It felt amazing.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Yes

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I felt like I always had wariness and anxiety before the experience. I believe I can make it through anything

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. During my experience, I didn’t hear audibly. I just heard very clearly what was being communicated to me.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I felt like I was floating through something. I don’t know if it was a tunnel. But I know I ended up in what I felt with space.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. I felt like I was in space; a part of the universe.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? It was the best feeling I ever felt. Love and peace. I felt like I was home.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. I still believe God created the universe. But I do feel I understand he used what’s in the universe to make us. Energy

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No. I’m uncertain if that was me running around as a kid with my friends. Not sure who the man was. But I remember being in a concrete courtyard and just running around.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life If I didn’t have the argument with my son, I would’ve asked to stay

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Other Christian I’m Christian. I just have different views now of what we are told.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I was always told that you go through a light. I never knew anything about the darkness. So I wasn’t expecting that. But I was not scared and I felt love and peace so I know I wasn’t in a bad place.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify It’s kind of hard to remember exactly what was said. But it felt like I was being asked if I wanted to stay or go back. And I felt like I was surrounded by loved ones, but if they made themselves available to me. I would’ve chose to stay.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I feel we are all one with the universe

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I definitely feel God exist

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Love. I feel like we’re here to love. I feel that we are just here for an experience. To learn. And our bodies are just a tool.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I love for my kids made me want to come back. It’s extremely hard to want to come back after feeling that.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life I don’t worry as much and I’m just trying to do the right things and get closer to my kids.Its just very hard right now

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? I’m trying to be more present as a father Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? It’s meaningful to know I feel like I’m gonna be reunited With my loved ones. I know if my children got for bed passed away they will be happy and loved.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Mostly positive

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I felt dead. I’m here for a reason. I’m just not sure for what yet.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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