Joni H NDE

Experience Description

There were no tunnels or sense of being transported - just there, above me was an indescribably WHITE wing. It had no beginning and no end. I could see the feathers in great detail. There were two voices, but they were not speaking directly to me, but to each other, it went as follows: 'We are going to give her, her new name.' The other voice replied, 'But it hasn't been three days yet.' The first voice said back, 'But we are going to give her, her new name anyway.'

During all this I could see tiny beings without shape, almost like little spots and they were literally painting, artwork of some sort. The colors were so brilliant and the wing described above was more white than we see here, almost luminescent.

I was not afraid, no thoughts except being in awe of the beauty of the many different colors and the whiteness of the huge wing. There was no snapping back into the body or anything like that at all. I was just there, like magic I guess. I have an incredible appreciation of color and flowers much more now, than I did before. I was amazed by the voices, for I could not see anyone, no people, just them speaking to each other about my 'new' name. I suppose life has left it up to me to figure out my new name someday, because they did not tell me what it is.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: April 5, 2001

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt Clinical death Lethal overdose of drugs, suicide attempt.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

Did you feel separated from your body? No

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was not aware of my physical body at all or anything that had to do with life, or death.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There did not exist any time, could not feel sense of time or anything of that nature.

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? The tiny beings were making high pitched sounds, pleasant, pleasing sounds.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes However, I did not recognize the voices, nor the other sounds.

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm It was most definitely another dimension, but was not like being moved or transported.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future The second vision. My brother and my ex-lover were standing at the foot of my hospital bed, both shouting independently of each other, at me saying, 'I am going to take your son away from you...' in very angry voices. After a six day coma and allowed a regular room, I called my brother and he proceeded to talk very mean to me, as if he had wished I had died, angry and he does have my son now.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am convinced that there is life, real life, after death, more real than what we are in now.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Very small beings, had no actual shape, as though they were at a distance, best to describe being unable to see their form.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I can sense other's feelings as though they are my own feelings, I cannot stand to be around what I call now, the dark cloud ambience of rooms or people.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best, the beautiful colors and a new name. The worst, my son is no longer with me.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Doctors call it hallucinations. People who are more aware call it visions. Yes, people tell me that something special surely happened to me, because of the severity of the overdose and I did not die. A six day coma was long enough for me to learn, not to try to take my earthly life away from myself, it is not my decision to make.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Life is hard, but never, never give up. Call someone; run to get help if that is what it takes to stay here until your time is finished.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No, good questions. Very good questions.