Joshua D NDE

Experience Description

I had been trying to get clean, off drugs but relapsed. I left work and stopped to get heroin. I was living with my family so I didn’t want to take the drug at home. So, I stopped at a different city nearby. I did a shot of heroin and laid down in the tanning bed with the door locked.

I was above my body. I watched as the police and firefighters came into the room. I could see my blue body but didn’t notice whether I was breathing or not. I saw one of the first responders use two doses of nasal narcan on me because the first dose didn’t work . After the second dose, I felt sucked back into my body.

I opened my actual eyes to blurred vision and heard ungodly ringing in my ears. I couldn’t hear what the people around me were saying, not for a while. They loaded me on the stretcher. I was conscious at this point and knew they took me to the hospital. They said I was overdosing for at least 47 minutes before they came in the room. The room attendant just thought I’d fallen asleep. Since I don't think I completely died, I didn’t see the tunnel or anything like that. I think I was right on the verge of clinical death since my heart rate had gone down significantly. I was having trouble breathing like once a minute, the firefighter told me.

I know this experience isn't the tunnel and light and all that, but I was definitely floating above my dying body. I didn’t believe in god at the time. After this experience and after seeing what I saw, not only did it prompt me to quit using drugs, but I also now believe in something. I don't know what but it is something other than me fading to black when I die. I do believe that without a doubt now.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 12/2017 or 1/2018

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Drug or medication overdose. Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I wWatched the first responders narcan me, put me on oxygen, and start chest compressions before I came to. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. Maybe I was just focused on them working to resuscitate me or keep me from completely dying

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Before I was revived, when I was floating above my body

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual. Time seemed slower to me

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was like normal vision above my body except I could see over the doors at the salon

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don’t remember hearing anything, just sight

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Unusually calm once I was back in my body. I was scared had blurred vision and couldn’t hear over the ringing in my ears

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist Staunch atheist

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I’m agnostic now not atheist

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I didn’t believe in god or any afterlife the experience changed that and changed me

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believed in an afterlife. I know there’s more than this

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain. The fact I had the out of body experience made me start to think this experience had to be something more

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I felt like I wanted them to bring me back. I didn’t want to take that chance of dying anymore with the drugs

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? I appreciate loved ones more

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was an experience that didn’t compute in my head for a long time. It scared me

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? How fragile life is and how I had this overwhelming desire to get back in my body. I didn’t wanna leave my body or die.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes. A year or 2 after

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had heard stories. I didn’t pay them much mind and believed people made them up ….until I experienced it

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Kind of redundant but it’s understandable

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