Justine L NDE

Experience Description

I was attacked by a man with dissociative disorder. He banged my head against a wall about five times before throwing me on a bed and strangling me. He would do until I stopped breathing, and then would stop. I was terrified of leaving my kids behind.

I remember the last time he did this. I left my body, thinking of how my girls would have to live without me. I went from being in the room above myself and then just going into light. I felt the most profound, loving, and peaceful feeling. I remember feeling spread out or a part of everything. I also knew everything. My experience was like I was being watched by a big eye. I wasn't met by anyone; I just was. I was everything. I don't remember anything else until looking at my body, knowing that there was a body that I could used. When I say this, I mean the Justine before the experience wasn't really there anymore.

Then, I remember being back in my body. The guy was on the ground. When I sat up, I wet and soiled myself. The guy was acting young, like a kid, and said 'Run.' I stepped over him and he followed. I got my smashed phone and then he made a drink. I sat at the table and calmly waited.

I then left and the next day had to do a 5 day training in a mental health organization on counselors and psychologists.

I told them I had a fall from a big horse. I had bruising around the neck, back of the head and the jaw.

I don't remember what I was learning but they said it was the best training they had ever had. I went to hospital myself and got checked over. I had post-concussion syndrome and jaw issues; plus one eye wasn't good for a while.

In therapy, I had to learn how to be human again. Everyday conversations were hard but the teaching was easy. Assessing memories were hard because it felt very robotic to me.

I would flash between being here and somewhere else when I was walking. At first, I thought I was crazy from experience. But I continue to work alongside psychiatrists.

Six months later, I was on a plane to Canada. I was teaching spiritual hypnosis and work from there is very easy. I speak on Trauma and the brain, perception and hypnosis and it just comes out. Knowledge comes from where ever.

I have had experiences where I have seen people's memories as they talk. I've seen ghosts next to people. I've known what people are holding when on the phone with them. I think we all have the ability to do these things, it just takes being all connected and tuned into others.

I am more myself now. It is not that easy feeling a disconnect with family. It is like a friendship connection.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 2019

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Criminal attack Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. Hard question to answer with words.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I'd say being a part of everything.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Can't explain

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Can't explain

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain The space from looking down to light and spending could be?

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Profound love or peace or joy. No words to explain it

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths Unsure really of how everything worked. Grew up catholic. Had trained in things like past life regression. Believed in spirit etc. but at the same time was questioning if experiences were imagination. (My line of work)

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths I very much believe now in everything being everything, I believe in a collective unconscious because I have experienced it and can tap into it easily.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. From doing past life regression and catholic upbringing, I thought you would do a life review, would have been met by being or teachers. Maybe see loved ones etc.; the usual. But this didn't happen to me.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain I felt like once again that God was everything

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain. Only when coming back, knowing there was a purpose or job to do. Very definite.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Uncertain Just being consciousness a part of everything again

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I didn't tell anyone for a long time, maybe only in the last few years. One friend new, it's hard to say. People expect loved ones, I just became a part of one big everything.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. It feels like life started then and the rest before it is stories and ideas etc.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Just the feeling

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Uncertain. It took years and now I am starting to.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I was thinking myself for a very long time. I didn't feel human.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? The question about God was hard to answer after my experience. I said yes but it's such hard concept.

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