Kasandra L NDE

Experience Description:

I had been having many problems with my thyroid. It had swollen to the size of a grapefruit and I was having problems breathing. Going to an oncologist it was determined that the best course of action would be to have it removed.

Surgery was booked for 9-11 2001. Arriving at the hospital, I was prepped and put in the operating room preparation room. Drugged out of my mind a TV was put in front of me and on every channel, they were broadcasting the 9-11 events? How fantastic I thought, what an amazing movie!!! It must have cost a fortune to get all of these people to cast on?! WOW!!! I then proceeded to tell everybody about this great movie that was playing on every station. Then I was wheeled into the operating room and everybody kept telling me everything would be okay that nothing was going to happen? Everything was going to be all right. As I was going under I kept thinking, if everything is going to be all right, why is everybody so hysterical? The doctor was shaking, the nurses were crying, I kept thinking maybe being operated on 9-11 isn't such a good idea?

The next thing I remember was being awake and feeling the blood gush out of me with every heartbeat. It was very peaceful. Then my husband walked into the operating room recovery room and upon my sitting up blood started gushing out of my nose, eyes and mouth. He screamed for a nurse or somebody to come immediately. A nurse came into the room and screamed 'Oh my God she's bleeding to death internally she'll be dead in ten minutes!!!'

Well I thought to myself how cool. 'I'm going to die consciously. I had better get things in order.' So I started with my list of forgivenesses. And you cannot imagine all the people you need to forgive until there's a deadline of ten minutes in front of your face. The outpatient department determined that it was not equipped to handle the necessary second surgery so an ambulance was called. It was at this time that the road between the hospital and the outpatient department was under construction and there was no way an ambulance could get to me. The fire department was called and four big hefty guys carried me on a bed sheet from the outpatient department into the operating room of the hospital next door and placed into the operating room.

I watched my spirit lift out of my body, I lightly floated towards a tunnel, and then I entered into a tunnel. It was fantastic! I danced weightless around in this tunnel. I flipped and did gymnastics like a pro. There was a whooshing sound and it looked like clouds were floating in from the end of the tunnel where there was tremendous white light. Coming near to the end of the tunnel, I stepped into this white light. I felt like I was being enveloped with white fog. It was like how they fog a dance floor.

I remember thinking that God was over doing this white stuff and that the whole environment could use a little color. Nobody came to meet or greet me. I remember telling God that if he were busy that he could just direct me to the library and I would be more than happy to look up the meaning of my own life. No answer. And the white light just kept coming and coming. I remember then telling God, that if this were death it was a little BORING. I told God that he should remember that poverty, celibacy and boredom were nothing that I did very WELL... HELLO ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME? No Answer?

I became aware that there was a great knowledge being conveyed to me. I had a sense that all of this was not the right time. I remember feeling very frustrated and angry. I remember cursing God and then being slammed back into my body and jumping awake out of recovery an hour before such a thing was supposed to happen. I awoke to finding myself tied down to the bed with tubes everywhere. I chewed through the tube down my throat and then ripped it out.

I pulled the I.V. out of my arms. I was hysterical! Totally mad, totally enraged. These poor nurses and orderlies had gathered around me telling me that everything was all right now - they had saved me.

Oh yeah, and just who the hell asked you to? And I started to get ready to go home. I was insisting that all of these tubes needed to come out now and I was getting out!!! The doctor came in and gave me a sedative to settle me down so that my body could heal from the trauma. I was then sedated and put into the intensive care unit for three days.

While in the intensive care unit I visited 9-11. I saw up close and personal the flames that burned people alive. I was then shown a war about to happen in the Middle East. I saw oil fields blazing. I was shown a major flood. And I was told to move from the valley to a cooler climate.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 9-11-2001

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) We were in the throes of 9-11. The Twin Towers had just been bombed.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal While in the tunnel. I had a sense of hyper sensitivity.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While in the tunnel. I had a sense of hyper sensitivity.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster than usual It seemed like I was there for hours.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more so

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I had a sense that even when my eyes were closed I could still see clearly.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was grey/dark with a white light and fog floating towards me.

Did you see any beings in your experience? Neither

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Brilliant white foggy light.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Clearly mystical or unearthly realm

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Frustration, anger, abandonment.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Neither

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? Neither

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? Neither I learned that I wasn't particularly evolved.

Did scenes from the future come to you? From the world's future Gulf War, Tsunami, and the fall of the world, as we know it.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? A barrier I was not permitted to cross; or 'sent back' to life involuntarily

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I believed that we have all been mind-controlled by religion.

What is your religion now? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believed that we have all been mind-controlled by religion.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? Neither

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I felt that information was communicated to me but I don't know what exactly.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes People seem very stupid for the most part.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my friends the very next time I saw them. They said that they expected as much from me. Ray said I talked too much about having died, he said nobody cared.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It just was exactly as I remembered it. Nothing has changed.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It just was as I described it nothing has changed.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No