Kenneth B Probable NDE

Experience Description

Myself and another kid where playing in a garage that also had an old refrigerator inside of it. I do not remember the details of how we ended up inside the fridge. But I do clearly remember being trapped inside of it. I don't remember being scared, rather I was just falling asleep. For whatever reason, I thought I was at a shopping mall with my mom and the details of being in the mall are quite clear. Memories of being taken out of the fridge aren't too clear, but I do remember hearing voices either asking. 'Is he breathing?' or saying, 'He isn't breathing.' As I was carried out of the garage, I slowly started seeing what was going on around me. I saw the car ride to the hospital. I remember seeing the dash of the car and the buildings on the way to the hospital.

Back in those days kids never wore seatbelts, so I always rode in the car standing on the hump in the floor between the driver and passenger seat. It was as if I was standing in that spot, but I really wasn't.

I have no memory going into the hospital other than being above an operating table and everything around me being dark. I heard a doctor saying my name and slapping me. Then I was on the table looking up at a doctor with a mask and bright surgical light above me. I don't have any memories after that.

I think I forgot the whole experience until I was 6 or 7 years old. I was looking through the top drawer of my mom's dresser trying to find spare change to go to the store. There were packages of photos and my mom's ID, birth certificates, and other important papers. When I was looking through them, I found a newspaper clipping of the day I was in the fridge. I saw my name in the article. I'm not sure why I forgot everything until I saw the news clipping, but then everything started coming back to be. I never said I found the clipping, but I once brought it up to my dad a few years later. He told me not to talk about it and never say anything about it around my mom. I don't know the details of how I finally had my mom talk about it but I was in my early teens, I think. All she said was that I was not the same person afterwards. I didn't like human contact as much as I did before. My personality was different but I have no idea what I was like as a person prior to the accident. I don't think my family liked me that much as a kid or adult. I never connected or bonded with anyone growing up and the reason I'm thinking about this more recently is because I'm the only one basically left alive now. Its been almost fifty years now since the incident, but still that event is vivid in my mind.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: spring 1970

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Accident Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes My mom described finding me and the events going to the hospital but I never told her I remembered all of that because my dad said not too go into detail about what I experienced. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. Maybe it's hard to explain because I was so young when it happened

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? at the hospital

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. I remember everything in blocks of time. Each block, I was farther outside of my body

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There are many things in my life that stand out in my mind and that event is no different

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. my hearing was fine, with just a bit more echo from a distance. Even though people were close by, they sounded farther away

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? no real emotions that I recall, just nothing.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. I felt like I was pulled back

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain. No religious beliefs prior to my experience

What is your religion now? No comment

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. It's hard to answer many of the questions because of my age at the time

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. My family and I were never close. I can sense things about people but it is not like reading minds. My dreams sometimes are vivid and I have been chased by things but don't know what they are. I don't die in my dreams even if I'm shot, underwater, or fall from great heights. The dreams confuse me a lot but have also woken me up in times of an emergency.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I don't connect or bond with people very easily

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I'm just sad that I feel like I'll never know who I really was supposed to be

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes heightened awareness in many things

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Just how vivid the memory is

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Many years later I tried talking about it, but it is like people shut down around me. Or if I can sense something about a person and tell them they avoid me afterwards

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It changed the entire course of my life. I believe because I act connected to life but feel sometimes uncertain why I'm here.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes My dreams sometimes

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I don't know. I just want to understand all of this more in my life