Kevin G NDE

Experience Description

My teenage daughter told me that she wanted to be baptized and become a Christian. Later on, she said she wanted to attend a bible study group that was held by her church. Being an agnostic, I wanted to be aware of what she was involved in and decided rather than just drop her off, I would attend the group with her. The group was interesting, but did not change my agnostic beliefs.

Later, I was riding my motorcycle home from the office. It was just after 6:00 pm on a dark, wet night. I was stopped behind traffic on a bridge. I could see a vehicle in the distance as it approached the rise onto the bridge at high speed. I thought to myself, 'I hope the driver slows down before he comes up onto the bridge, otherwise I'll end up landing on the utility in front of me or on the other side of the road where oncoming traffic would not have time to stop before running me over.' I thought this might be the end of my story. Then I heard the screeching of tires and I was catapulted into the air.

As I was going up, I left my body and had a very quick glance down to my left and saw the accident scene. I was flying horizontally in a very dark space and heading towards a porthole of white light at the end. An image of God was in the light. I felt such peace and joy that it is difficult to describe. The white light was the only place I wanted be. The world below was in the past and I had no regrets. Then I felt a brief moment of angst because I was not getting any closer to the light. I felt God was stopping me. If I was dead down below and couldn't get to the light, then where was I supposed to be? I looked down and to my right. Jesus was standing in the dark space, some distance from me and looking towards the light. I realized in an instant what was happening. In my mind, I said to God, 'Get me out of this one and I won't come here again without Him.' Zoom! I was straight down and blended back into my body. The things happening around me seemed a little surreal. I had landed on the white double lines alongside the utility and clear of the oncoming traffic. I stood up and walked back to my motorcycle. The driver who had hit me came up to see if I was hurt and he started to apologize. The first thought that came into my mind was, 'Don't get angry, Jesus wouldn't want it.' The only injury I sustained was very heavy bruising over a considerable part of my body.

Many months later, the bible study group moved to my house and continued there for ten years. I became more interested in caring about people than material things. Over the coming years, I became a volunteer visitor for the church hospital chaplain. I left a long-term career in commercial real estate and became a librarian. I'm not expecting any stop signs when I'm next heading to the white light as I won’t be going there alone.

It was ten years before I told a friend of my experience. He dismissal this experience, as I expected. After seven years, I was telling another friend of my experience. This prompted me to do some NDE research and I came across this site.

Thanks NDERF and all those who have told their story, it's been a great help.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 29 April 2003

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I glanced at the accident scene unfolding. I saw car lights and people getting out of their cars. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. It was the same as usual.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I left my body

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. Hard to explain. Just different to the time in the world which was probably only a second or two. The experience felt longer.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Same

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything was silent. I spoke with my mind.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes There was a vast darkness with a porthole of white light at the end.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I saw a cool, white light that filled the space beyond the porthole.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. It was a dark void with a realm of white light on the other side of the porthole.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I could feel the peace, joy and tranquility from the Light and then I felt concern that I was being stopped from getting closer to the light.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. I was held back from the white light and given a second chance

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? I went from being an agnostic to a becoming a follower of Jesus

What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I immediately went from an agnostic to becoming a follower of Jesus.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I was more nterested in helping others than acquiring material things.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. An image of God and Jesus.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes A typical image of Jesus. He was with me in the dark void and standing to the side, some distance away.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes An image of God was at the porthole of white light. I spoke to him through my mind.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes We should do as Jesus has told us by caring for others rather than material things.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists. I was in the realm of where we go after death.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes It was Jesus' love that gave me a second chance.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. Interested in helping others more than acquiring material things.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. Even after seventeen years, my experience is as real, clear, and unchanged from when it happened.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The experience was short, but meaningful in all aspects.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Tens years. Dismissed.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I've never doubted the reality of my experience.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I've never doubted the reality of my experience.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Yes

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I try to be more caring and helpful and less judgmental of others.