Kristen G NDE

Experience Description

What happened from my perspective:

I was shooting up meth with my boyfriend at the time. Everything started normally. Then, I woke up on the floor. I was wet, cold, and unable to speak with beer cans on me. Every time I tried to speak, it came out very jumbled. My boyfriend couldn't understand me. I couldn't control my hands or movements. I came back to consciousness shortly after. I said, 'I'm tired and going to sleep' as I crawled into bed. My boyfriend asked, 'Do you want a cigarette?' I was confused as I forgot I smoked cigarettes.

I explained to my boyfriend what happened while I was unconscious. I know I overdosed, and explained to him what I saw while I was unconscious. He argued when I told him what happened was a dream. I said, 'THIS is a dream. That place is REAL; way more real than here.'

Over the next month, part of me still thought I was dead. I started making predictions that came true. In the following month, I went from smoking a pack or more a day to 1-2 cigarettes a day. I would never touch a needle or meth or any drug again. I began praying and getting close to God. But most importantly, I saw EVERYTHING different. I saw the clouds, grass, trees, snf the beauty of Everything, very differently. I would stare in amazement.

What happened from his perspective (I remember none of this):

After we shot up, I told him that I didn't feel good. So, he placed a trashcan in front of me. Then he noticed that my body slumped, but he thought I was messing around. That was until he noticed my eyes. He said, 'They were fixed and dilated, you looked dead. Then your eyes started floating unevenly to the back of your head.' 'Unevenly' meaning that usually both eyes do the same thing at the same time; but mine weren't. So, he picked me up, drug me outside in the rain and slapped me a few times. My body was deadweight. I was completely unconscious and did not respond at all. So he drug me inside and put me on the floor. He then put cold beer cans from the fridge up my shirt and down my pants. He held me as I started coming to, and listened to my jumbling words. He said I was, 'scared, scratching him all over.' As I lay in his arms, I finally started coming back to consciousness. He was so scared that he would get in trouble, and it would take too long for an ambulance. So, he didn't call 911 or take me to the hospital.

Near Death Experience

I shot up and everything was normal.

Then I started going through a tunnel. I was so scared and then felt nothing but peace and Love. All the pain and worry were stripped away. I don't want to say there was a light or darkness; it was like looking at a bright light with your eyes closed. The usual human pains were just gone. The sadness I had, was stripped away.

I felt like I was floating when I saw my angel, named Micheal. No words were said, yet we understood each other. There was no time. I felt no pain. Even the typical human worries and pain like hunger, money, and the things always in the back of my mind were stripped away. I sound repetitive, but I just can't stress it enough. It's so hard to explain to a person that hasn't been there what it's like, because it's inconceivable. It's like explaining the color blue to a blind person. But, wherever this place was, it was home. I felt I wanted to stay but thought of all my loved ones - my mom, dad, and boyfriend. It felt and heard from Michael that it wasn't my time yet. I floated back down to my body.

Aftermath

I never touched drugs again, I have been praying and worshipping God; venerating Mary and Micheal daily since this happened. I have no fear of death or dying. Although, I fear the pain I may have to go through when I die. But, I know it would be worth it to go back to that place. I lucid dream, but it doesn't come close to what I felt over there. I still look at things in amazement like I did then. Where I went fixed a part of me that was broken; that part that needed drugs. I look at life differently, with appreciation. I celebrate the day before Memorial Day every year. I think about the NDE very frequently and it helps put things into perspective. If that didn't happen, Lord knows where I would be.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 05/25/2008

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Accident Drug or medication overdose. Other: I was not in a hospital setting. I feel like I was dead

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I could hear things without words and feel things I've never felt before.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? There was no time there

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. There was no time

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It wasn't really my vision that changed. It was like seeing things without seeing them.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There wasn't hearing either. This is why it's hard to explain. I heard things without anything being said.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Very dark, and very worried for a short time.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes. It was an angel

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. I don't remember seeing anything. It was just a space of love and peace

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace. I did have worry at first but it was calmed very soon afterwards. Then I felt no negative anything. It was just peace and like I had a huge hug of love

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. I understood what was happening - that I had died, that I overdosed and that I was going to be okay. I understood more but it's hard to explain

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future. After I woke up, it's not scenes. It was more like feelings on the future. I saw my boyfriend and I breaking up, me going to school, I knew I wasn't going to die anytime soon, and knew I would be alive I'm my 30s

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. I wanted to stay, but was told it wasn't my time.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic I was agnostic at the time

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I pray every day; I have no doubt of the existence of God.

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic Not the best Catholic, But I strive to have a close relationship with God and his angels since this happened

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I grew up catholic, but as a young teen I lost my belief and even cursed God. When this experience happened, I didn't even believe he existed. At this time, I still felt anger towards him and didn't know of his existence or questioned it

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes My belief in God. My belief we're all connected. My belief in myself

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. An angel, named Micheal calmed me. I felt like he's always been watching me. He told me why was happening without talking

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes It felt like I have been there before, and there is another place through the place I was. I've been there before

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I felt like we were all connected in some way, and we are all God's Children.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes He sent his angel to help me. I have no doubt that God exists.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes that I do have a purpose, that helping others through love was my purpose.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes My purpose was to help others. Everyone's purpose is to help others, to be each other's light and love.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes I was there, I could feel and see that there is something after death, and its home. We don't really die; we just wake up

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No I knew I wouldn't

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No I

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I felt surrounded by love, instead of my life flashing which I heard everyone sees. I saw everyone I love. I felt that was a purpose of life, or at least mine

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I haven't touched drugs again. I got into spirituality, Got back into my faith with God. Never had kids like I felt would happen during the experience. I lucid dream now. I don't fear death at all. I look at things differently

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? I appreciate everyone more.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes How do you explain to someone what true peace feels like? Even at our most peaceful moments there is still pain and worry

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. It has been YEARS since this happened. I may have forgotten some things, but the feeling I have from it feels like it happened yesterday

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Sometimes I can read thoughts of people or animals and our motives, I have dreams that come true. Sometimes I can feel what will happen next. I see spirits occasionally

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The feeling of peace. It felt like the pieces inside me they were broken, were healed in that moment. Everything I went through all the bad stuff just disappeared, the pain I was holding onto, gone.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes. I shared it with my boyfriend right after it happened. I will never forget his face when I said 'an angel told me...' After he witnessed this and heard everything that happened, he quit drugs too. We broke up shortly afterward. He met a nice woman and got married. Married for ten years now; never touched drugs again. He put down a 15 years addiction, and now has a beautiful life. That experience changed both of us

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I believed it was real, VERY real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I believe it helped me be a better person. I view it as a huge changing point in my life. When I lose someone now, I know they are okay

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I felt like a completely different person when I came back. I saw everything different felt everything different, it was like I wasn't fully myself. I still feel that way. Maybe it is because what was broken in me was fixed but I don't know.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I think it's very thorough

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