Kristie C NDE

Experience Description

My near death experience was devoid of all senses. I was in complete darkness. In most cases, this would seem scary, yet I experienced no fear. I had no worries. In fact, I experienced an overwhelming sense of comfort, love, and the sense of complete security. I also felt surrounded by others who were projecting or emanating the love and welcoming to me.

After the experience, I felt resentful to those who brought me back. I realize this seems ungrateful; and I am very appreciative to those who gave their time, scientific knowledge, and compassion to my recovery and for saving my life. I also felt guilty because my loved ones had been traumatized by my illness. After my experience, I have attempted to reassure those who are afraid of death (which is a very rational fear) that my experience was transcendental and beautiful; and to this day, I miss the complete compassion and love I felt while in that state of consciousness.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 2006

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Other Coma, kidney and organ failure. Contracted Necrotizing Fasciitis, which resulted in blood poisoning and organ failure.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? My consciousness had no form, no body. I can only explain it as being and existing at the same time. It was outside of time and space.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I have no idea, I had not been conscious for weeks.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. There was no time or the thought of having to know what time was.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I had no vision only feelings.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I did not hear anything

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place. It was a darkness which was not dark. I was devoid of all human senses, except feelings. I knew I was in another existence, but I did not have a name for it. Nor did I feel like I needed to.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Lack of all fear, worries, insecurities. A complete sense of wholeness, wellbeing, love, compassion from an innumerable number of entities. And I don't know who those entities were.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Buddhist

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Buddhist

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. Although the Buddhist says 'No eyes, no ears, no nose', and so on; it says 'no suffering, no origination, no stopping, no path.', I did not know what they meant as it made no sense. I did not understand the no origination, etc. My experience truly gave me the experience of it that words alone could not. I am very fortunate to have read and now experienced what wisdom holders have been explaining for centuries.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain. I have no idea who the entities or beings were, nor did I care at the time. I just know that I loved them, and they loved me.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I now have no fear of death. More specifically, I now know that Kristie, the human woman will die, but my consciousness continues. And that my consciousness is whole and that I am welcomed when I leave that body.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Same answer as question 34. "I now have no fear of death, or more specifically, I now know that Kristie, the human woman will die, but my consciousness continues. And that my consciousness is whole and that I am welcomed."

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain I am not sure. They seemed to know who I was, but I did not who or where the love came from; however, it was not a single entity/being but I felt like infinite entities surrounded me. I felt like a dot in the middle of a circle of welcoming, safety and love.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Uncertain I have answered uncertain, because no information was conveyed except love, safety, not a sense of home, but it was a sense of where I completely belonged.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Not to be demean earthly love, but it simply is not the same. The place I went to was a love that was 100%

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? No changes in my life. After my experience, I feel confident that I can assure others that death is natural and is not an ending. It is just another journey or experience of existence and is more natural than being human.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I felt like I was me, but not the woman who is named Kristie.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared the experience immediately with my friends and family.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain Only through Buddhist teachings which I had a complete misunderstanding of and no way to truly comprehend what they meant.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was so real, I resented being brought back into my human body. I realize this seems childish and ungrateful, but my disappointment was real and instant/instinctual. I felt depressed for years and yearned to be back in that existence.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Some days I still have a sense of loss; I compare it to the sadness of losing a loved one.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I feel I have explained everything I can in words.

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