Kyah NDE

Experience Description 9914

There is too much to describe. I lost my soul purpose. I committed suicide.

When I died, I saw the light. But, I wasn't sure if this is where I was supposed to go since I didn't go through a tunnel. I turned away from the light to go find the tunnel.

I saw a girl below me, in a hospital bed. I felt bad for her and didn't recognize that this was me. She was alone. Everything was surrounded in a bright, blinding, white light. I floated in the hallway to find the tunnel and realized my soul was lost. I noticed there was a commotion in the room. I left the scene since it was not very interested; especially because I wanted to go to the other side.

I went through the tunnel super-fast and was suddenly alone in a dark cave. I felt this was source of God. I told him that I wasn't going back. He told me, 'That’s too bad because your life is just about to get started.' I said, 'I don't believe you whatsoever.' He explained that I had agreed to take on so many distressing experiences that were related to so many different people. I remembered that from my childhood thoughts, so I thought that was believable, so I told him that 'I think I took on too much.' He said, ' I did have concerns about your plan to undergo all that, but you had freewill.' I said, 'I give up.' He told me that I had a choice to abort the mission but that would mean I'd have to relive the whole first part of my life all over again because consciousness is erased in birth. I thought, 'That wasn’t fair.' But, that information made my choice more difficult.

I felt manipulated into saying I’d come back, but I wanted to alter my contract. I told him that if it didn’t get better FAST, I’d be visiting him again very soon. He promised that I wouldn’t want to do that. I dared him to try me, because he better prove it to me fast.

First, I wanted my depression and eating disorder to be taken away because nothing will change if that was there. He said, 'O.K. no more of that, BUT there will be a couple years where you will need to recover from this event.' He showed me my future self; that I would be working my life passion until death, like a mini-version of Oprah, that I would be happy and charitable and comfortable, though not rich.

I said I wanted more comforts. He said my soul didn't care about that before. I reminded him that I am altering my contract because I am NOT returning without this promise that people will want to learn from my experience and find solace in my compassionate and giving nature.

I returned extremely angry. I was angry for several months and felt my twin flame abandoned me. I did the shadow work and realized the importance of that persona in my life. I wish I could see this person again and see what she learned from this experience. I went psychotic on this lady and I feel very sad now about that because she didn't deserve it.

I learned unconditional love from this experience, mainly through her. I wonder if we will ever meet again and wish all my might we can talk again. For what it is worth, I learned how to be grateful and what that meant for my soul. I learned boundaries, how to raise my vibration and connect to my soul without my physical form. Yes, I am bothered by feeling fat, but apparent that is normal to feel like a sausage coming back into the body.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: July 2019

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt. Drug or medication overdose. CPR given. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes. When I floated past my room and people were in there, that must have been the team reviving me. At the time, I didn't know who they were working on or why I had even been floating in that room in the first place. I was disinterested and my main concern was how to get off this earth. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I became more aware when I left the hospital several months later. I was able to separate medicine-induced hallucinations with this very real experience that completely changed my reality; and gave me instant awareness of what I needed to do. I had a spiritual awakening the next year where my dad who had recently passed came to me and jump started a kundalini. It was his voice that said, 'Sorry for the intrusion, don’t be scared but I’m sick of watching you play this same song and dance, when your purpose is to serve.' I told my mom the next day. I did not know my stepdad that well but apparently he told my mother his mission in life was to serve, so there was confirmation.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning No time existed. It was not a physical world, but a place between places

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My experience totally warped my perception and I came back with a completely different awareness

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I am more sensitive to sound. I feel autistic and although I have always related to autistic individuals, I certainly didn’t want to be labeled as such. I also came back with a better understanding of spiritual psychosis and how people with schizophrenia get lost in the matrix. I’d love to help people find a balance to live in both 3D and 5D worlds

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain. One moment I was in a hallway and the next I was in darkness and still searching where that light went. I knew I lost my opportunity when I could have just stepped into the light without a tunnel and would have stayed there. It wasn’t until my spiritual-awakening that I found the kundalini bliss and unconditional love

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Hard to explain. It was blinding white light through the hospital window that led somewhere else, but my my earthly brain kept thinking that I can’t walk out the window or I’d fall down.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. I explained this place in several answers. It was black, an eternal emptiness with a presence of light without light

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Completely lost and stupid. But generally reassured that I took on a big challenge and the hard part was over

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe The download was so intense and I was so mad when I returned. I had to process this download in bits but I eventually got the full message

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events. The agreements I made before birth

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future. I was a happy old charitable lady who worked until death because work was part of my contribution to society. Without contributing, there was no purpose. So I had no desire for a retirement plan when I returned

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. I definitely didn’t want to try this hardship in a different body if I had already completed the hardest part

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? I believe in the origins of institutional religions, like Sikhism, Judaism, and parts of Roman Catholicism

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? I have studied Sikhism and Judaism and down to earth yogis. Their teachings make sense, although often are exploited.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I learned that we do have the power to shift into another state of perception. I began to welcome new realities. The new realities were very helpful in eliminating harmful behaviors

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes My eating disorder vanished. I learned unconditional love. I became aware of stupid therapy sayings that are actually very deep, like 'you can only love others as much as yourself.' That had no meaning before the experience. I can fully respect that my soul and the physical body is just a vehicle to move around in this world. So, if I want to thrive, I best take care of that physical vehicle. God knows I’ve experienced enough pain, so if I create pain then it’s only my fault and my disrespect to my soul

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. The Being was telepathic giving me a pep-talk on my decision to return

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain. I wondered what I learned in my past life that would make me take this challenge to try to experience as much diversity and challenges as possible in this life; like why is my soul seemingly in such a hurry to pass this challenge?

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I learned everything is connected.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes This was obviously part of my contract and soul-growth plan, and how to make it happen if I ask for help

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Already answered

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain Everyone is living in an alternated universe so there is no person who can have the same perceptions. Having the openness to understand this concept will improve everyone's daily life.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes I’m not exactly sure why the soul needs to grow or how many dimensions we are sent to, but the soul is forever. The soul inhabits bodies for an experience, that is unknown in this lifetime. I am told it's to help others learn how to internalize unconditional love

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes The spiritual awakening a year later had to be connected

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Obviously it was done FOR me and not TO me

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Uncertain I was eventually able to internalize unconditional love.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? I have no close friends anymore

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I often feel misunderstood because nobody wants to talk to me if I say it was suicide-related. So, I don’t say it is suicide-related. But then, I feel my experience becomes disingenuous and creates conflict in me.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I have a much better idea on how to read energy, and release trapped energy from me that doesn’t belong to me

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Too many to count all those blessings

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I was put off when my mother never came to see me during my 4 month visit and the first question she asked was, 'Did you see the tunnel?' I was completely offended but we have had some interesting conversations about spirituality since then that have brought us closer. Surprisingly she will talk about spirituality but mental health is still off the table

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes That’s why I was looking for the tunnel, because there was supposed to be a tunnel before the light. In my experience, the light was right there and I turned away from it. Ugh!

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I am pretty sure my story is consistent. Plus I did have hallucinations that I still remember and those were scary. The NDE was a relief and I felt safe

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes A kundalini experience. I didn’t know that was a real thing until it happened to me.

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Experience Description 9626

The first experience happened after a suicide attempt. I was found at least 18 hours after a drug overdose. I had anoxic brain injury, a seizure and cardiac arrest, and dialysis for 3 weeks from kidneys failing.

I came out of my body and was on the ceiling. I looked at a girl in a hospital bed and felt sorry for her. I sondered what had happened that was so bad in her life that made her so sick. I did not recognize it as me. I saw a very bright, blinding light outside the window. I thought, 'I can’t walk out of the window, so there must be a different way to a tunnel?' So I floated down the hospital hallways. I couldn’t find the light. I pass by the room I left and saw doctors were going in. It was busy, so I tried the other way in the hallway. I decided my soul was lost. This made perfect sense, since I felt lost on earth with no sense of purpose.

I had a telepathic conversation with God. It was dark and I couldn’t see him. It was pitch black and I was not in any body. I asked to leave earth. He said that I was only halfway through. I replied that if the second half is like the first half of my life, that I’m out. He told me that I purposely chose as many hardships as possible in order to deeply connect with so many people and lift them up. I didn’t remember choosing; but then I remembered thinking that when I was little. I asked about my future to find out if my life was it worth it or would it just be the absence of misfortune because that was not worth living. I wanted an influential role in life, to fight for justice in a very comfortable salary and have complete happiness. God told me that I needed to get through another couple hard years and then things would shift rapidly. He promised there would be no reason to come back via suicide. I told him I was very mad, I didn’t believe him, and that he would see me very soon. He told me to please just give my decision a couple years.

I’m not sure if I woke up then, but I did have a few strange, lucid dreams that I thought were real. When I did wake up, I was so angry I came back. Later, I had an incredible relationship with my deceased grandmother and then dad when he died a year later. I made a complete recovery from 20 years of a severe eating disorder in a very short time. It is now like I woke up a different person.

Another event, I had a spiritual kundalini awakening experience. It felt like an NDE because my deceased dad entered my body and told me that my purpose on earth is 'to serve'. I told my mom about it and she said he said that was his mission and he had told her that. He just never told me that until after his death.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: July 23 2019

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) Life threatening as in cardiac arrest and second choking to death? Not sure what this means

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I was in my hospital bed and saw doctors run into my room I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal There was a “knowing” stuff I never thought in regular life, and each experience increased my level of perception, and different perceptions transformed my life

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? What kind of consciousness? I felt conscious the whole time, but was physically unconscious

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual Slower?

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was a very lucid dream, felt more real than being awake.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything was telepathic so no need for hearing; I felt the words in my heart

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My brother and his wife apparently came to my room when they took me off the echo machine. In my dream, they came to visit me. When I visited my parent in Reno, they were not home. However, I found out they were both at a different hospital as my dad had collapsed and was in a hospital, so that’s why they were not home. I did visit a hospital in Reno in my dream but I couldn’t find my parents

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was a very bright blinding white light from the window. I wish I went there and was pissed when I woke up because I realized if I went there, I wouldn’t have come back.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place Several strange places. One was outer space between earth and heaven. Another was floating in the sky like a raven over a ravine, also on an opium train

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Exasperation, anger, peace, frustration, trusting

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others Well, the understanding came in a couple trips to the ethers

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events All my misfortunes, like how I put myself in situations where I was raped and how many years I had anorexia/bulimia

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future My life was described as being successful, with a job I was very satisfied with, and making a difference until I fixed, that I would never retire on purpose

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I really did not want to come back, but I let God talk me into coming back

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths Judaism, Sikhism, Catholic/brethren Christianity, Taoism

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I definitely meditate and pray more

What is your religion now? Jewish

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I never thought about my soul being lost that it couldn’t figure out the light was the way to leave. That was a revelation I have to connect my body with my soul and feel the soul, and since the body housed the soul, that is why it’s called a temple. That blew my mind

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I started matching my actions to my values

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I didn’t hear it. It was telepathic and it was my maker

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I found out my problem was my soul was lost and needed to be redirected and found. I couldn’t leave without knowing my soul knew where it was going

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain A different experience said everything was connected

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I talked w God

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes This is the same question 6 times now

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes I went through an agreement before birth that I would struggle as much in order to gain a deep understanding and awareness about how to help others get out of their struggles

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes Souls come and go to earth and earth is “an experience” to increase one’s soul advancement

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I made a full recovery from an eating disorder and healed from ALL trauma, repaired my broken relationship with my mother, left all my possessions for a better life, no longer attached to things or vices

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I only allow people who are not lost in my personal life, but it’s my duty to help others get found

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain Not many people can relate, but I am good with telling it as a story

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I could speak with some of my ancestors and connect to a bigger picture

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes A couple months

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Not much, I just never understood how something could change the course of someone’s life so abruptly. I thought it was facing death that altered them. But I realize it’s the NDE that makes it life altering

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I had a kundalini or spiritual awakening one night. At the time I never heard a word kundalini and never knew what spiritual awakening meant

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? There are too many questions asking the same question. My NDE caused a triage of other experiences that heightened my soul, so my NDE wasn’t the only other worldly experience

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